I wish i could make it easy for you to love me
I know this is a testing time for both of us
I know i'm not an easy person to deal with
But believe me..
...i'm trying for our sake
...i'm trying to make us work
Just bear with me
Please don't give up on 'us'
We've made it through many storms before
I'm sure we can conquer this hurdle as well
Just stay with me baby
Just trust me
I promise i won't let you down
I'll do whatever it takes to keep 'us' going
Just hold my hand and have faith in me...
...that is all i ask

What a world we live in
The rich,famous and influential can just buy their way out of trouble
While the common man is harassed by the police at the smallest of mistakes
The police has now become a tool in the hands of political parties
A man is shot just 'coz of the colour of his skin
The wrong-doers are granted relief by the courts
While the innocent are wrongly framed and put in jails
The wronged keep waiting for justice
to be delivered
But it never arrives
Or by the time it arrives they are long gone
The way i see things..
..that day ain't far
When no common man will ever approach the police or the courts
'Coz both are becoming corrupt with every passing day

She was the cynosure of everyone's eyes at every party
She was the object of every man's desire
Women envied here
Men admired her
Her beauty was beyond belief
Surreal almost
Beautiful long locks
Deep blue eyes
Rosy red lips
Her voice was as sweet as honey
She was one of a kind
And yet she never could become anyone's story

This is a humble advice to men(including myself) -

When out shopping with your woman..there is one basic and simple rule you should follow-keep your mouth shut and follow her wherever she goes..don't complain or crib...even if you are not enjoying it..at least try and be supportive..when she tries on a new dress or something..admire and appreciate her..it's the least you can do..and frankly speaking it's really nothing compared to the things a woman does for us...the sacrifices she makes..the craziness of us which she tolerates..the efficiency with which she manages the home is remarkable.

When it comes to mistakes,there are 4 types of people...
First are the ones who aren't afraid to make a mistake...they take risks and have the guts to try

Second are the ones who are too weak to even try 'coz they are afraid to make a mistake

Third are the ones who make mistakes and learn from those mistakes

And fourth are the ones who never learn and keep repeating their mistakes

I can't imagine my existence as a living being without you
'Coz without you i'm no longer a 'he'... I become an 'it'...
Since the day you left
....i have a body
But there is no more a soul
It died as you left
Took with it every single joyful memory
And left me with depressing and tearful remains
I lost my sense of idenity
I don't feel a sense of belonging no more
Loneliness rapes me regularly
I try to put up a fight
But eventually it always seems to overpower me
Darkness now has become my new friend
The lights just **** now
I'm still trying to figure as to which of the following three was the reason for the disaster that was our relationship....
Was I not good enough for you???
Or were you too good for me???
Or was I just ******* delusional???
I can only speculate...
But i guess I'll never know.....

Any sport is ultimately played between the ears..what you think?..how you feel?..what is your strategy?..do you believe that you can win?...what do you on the field is basically answer these questions.

In order to stand a chance to win you need to think positive,feel confident,have a sound strategy and above all have the self-belief.You can have all the talent and skill in the world but if you don't have these four important attributes...chances are you will not win.

'Life is not about the number of breaths you take..it's about moments that take your breath away.'
-Will Smith

I had always had a crush on her
She was beautiful in so many ways
But i could never muster up the courage to even speak to her
She'd ocassionally ask me for notes
I really liked her
But i also thought that she was way out of league
One day she looked at me and smiled
She came and sat next to me
She started talking
I was so nervous that i was literally shaking
My heart was pounding like crazy
I started stammering
She could sense my nervousness
She placed her hands on mine..
..and whispered in my ears-' it's okay..i like you too!'
Imagine the feeling i felt at that moment!
It was sheer magic
These were words i had never heard before
Rain had finally touched down upon the desert of my heart
My soul was flooded with emotions
My mind had become numb
Never before had i felt so serene
...so alive
...so elated
Love had finally arrived....

I invested my soul and mind into this relationship
The least i expect is that you give me a proper reason as to why we can't be together now
These years of my life that i put in for you
Don't these mean anything to you?
Just when i thought our journey together would culminate into something beautiful...
...you're quitting on me
How can you do this?
Tell me something very honestly
...did you ever truly love me?

Blue was the colour of your eyes
At times i wondered if u were an angel in disguise
Red was the colour of war
I wondered if i could ever survive
The situation was hopeless....but it was your image that carried me on
Provided me with that extra drive
U taught me to be fearless....to never give up a valid fight
U provided me with a sense of direction...a sense of wrong and right
U sacrificed and cared
I feel sorry that i couldn't give u all the wonderful things u deserved
U remember those days.....the days when we were young and naive...
.....having fearless dreams ....trying to make our own place in this crazy and selfish world....
....Talking about silly things and not caring about a thing in the world
Well.....seasons have changed
The months have rolled on
Years have gone by
The war is over but the fight still lingers on
The place that we once used to call to call home....is now nothing more than an abandoned wreckage....
.....and a beautiful memory that has long faded away into a black hole
The place used to be full of greens
We lived there right from our childhood to our teens
The neighbourhood was a lively one
The place used to bustle with life
Now it's nothing more than desolated buildings waiting patiently for their death
But u and me
We're still the same
Fruits of the same tree
We blossomed into beautiful flowers and had our 'sunshine' moments
We fought against odds and took a chance
Every moonlight used to witness our slow sensual dance
We cherished the sunny days
Enjoyed the rains
Fought the harsh winters
And welcomed spring with an open heart
My soul's an old one.....Bruised and battered....
......But not broken
I've seen the many facets of life....
.....The good,the bad and the ugly
I've had my share of success and failure
I've had my moments of glory
I've had my moments of shame
Had moments worth cherishing
Had moments of utter gloom
U were there with me in the prime of my life...through every thick and thin
And then u left me to survive the winter of my life in isolation....
....Life has never been the same and i can never be quite myself again
Honestly life ***** without u
I miss u everyday,every hour,every minute....every **** second
You know what u mean to me
My life has no purpose without u
Just come back to bed baby....i'm afraid to take this journey alone
Can't bear this six degrees of separation from u...Just can't.

Earlier i could bask in the sun
And feel the magic of the winds
In the past few years many high-rise buildings have come up near my house
And as a result i've now been to some extent robbed of my share of the sun and the winds

'Sometimes even a muse needs a muse.'

-She's funny that way

'Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it's like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt that you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me love like that has happened only once, and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it.'

-The Notebook

She had tears in her eyes
She slammed the door on her way out
And left me
Never to return again
And i was left to rue over what could've been
I had someone special who cared for me
I had something good in my life
But i just couldn't appreciate it
I took it for granted
And i lost it all
I am my own destructor
No one else is to blame

It's incredible as to how your past, present and future are so deeply interconnected with each other...your present is what it is because of your past(at least to some extent if not entirely)...and your future will be what it will be because of your present...and the common factor in all of this is the present...'coz today's present is yesterday's past and also tomorrow's future.

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be the blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king

-J.R.R. Tolkien

The only way to know what you're capable of is to try new things,  push your boundaries and challenge yourself.

Silence speaks to me more than words ever can
It speaks to me in ways words never can
The stillness of the night
The empty night streets
The open sky
The moonlight
The constellations
The first rays of the sun
The early morning breeze
The open fields
The trees
The blades of grass
...they all speak to me

Silence and me..we go a long way back
We share a very special relationship
A strong bond so to speak
Ever since the time i learnt to speak
I realized very quickly that silence was going to be my best friend
And so far it has never betrayed me

Silence is my best friend
My confidante
I share all of thoughts and secrets with it
I interact with on a daily basis
Silence is serene
Silence is magic
Silence is *******
In this chaos-filled life..moments of silence is like tranquility
Silence helps me get through the day
Silence keeps the monster within me at bay

The best things are truly said without saying anything
Sometimes a touch
A look
A stare
...says so much

Time is so weird
I've often found it to be a bit heartless
It flashes past you when you're enjoying
And just seems to stretch when you're suffering!

Time saved is of no use if you don't use it.

You never really understand a person unless and until you step into his shoes and start to look at things from his point of view.

I'm prepared to walk on fire
I'm ready to swim across the ocean
I'm prepared to pass through forests
I'm ready to fight the world
I'm prepared to face inclement weather
I'm ready to survive the storms
Just tell me that you will be with me every step of the way
'Coz your presence will make even the most difficult of journeys seem enjoyable
With you by my side
No hardship is too big to stop me

Many people have come in my life
But you're the only one i've wished for to stay
'Coz no one has captivated my senses quite as you have
None have captured my heart quite like you
None have aroused my soul
And made it feel the way you have
None have made me feel as important as you have
You're all over me
Save for you nothing else can i see
My heart is half full with your love
Please stay
Don't leave me this way...
.....incomplete,unfulfilled and unfinished
Comfort my heart with the warmth of your love
It's been cold for far too long
Give it that healing touch...
....it has long been longing for
Only you can ressurect me
Every nerve in my body feels a sense of connect with you
With you around life just seems so much more bearable
Imagining even a moment without you is a nightmare
And it's something i can't bear
So please always stay with me
I have no other shelter

Lips to lips
Tongue tasting tongue
Fingers interlocked
Hips to hips
My warm breath upon you
And a shower of kisses all over your body
Let there be no space between us tonight
So just rip off my bra and slay the last shield of decency i possess

A few things which give me immense peace and happiness:-
1)Seeing a smile on the face of my parents
2)Being able to help someone
3)Reading
4)Writing
5)Watching sunsets
6)Giving shelter to pigeons on my window sil and window ledge
7)Going to bed at night,with the knowledge that i have done at least one good deed in the entire day

From yesterday to today
In a span of 24 hours...my dear self
we've come a long way
We still have miles to travel
Countless destinations await us
So many strangers destined to meet us
Over the past few years...much has happened..
From crazy love to brutal heartbreaks we've seen it all...
From mountains to deserts to villages to cities
Sometimes watching the sun set in the desert sky
Sometimes dancing and singing with bedouins
Sometimes passing through the most picturesque of villages
From scaling snow capped mountains
To skinny dipping in the cold water bodies
Trying perhaps in vain to decipher life
Honestly I've stopped all this ******* now
What's my purpose here? ..how does it matter?
All I know is that as a person I have to try and be the best I can be...
So my dear self...it's a new day...it's a new show
Once again here we go......

Over the course of life i've found silence and patience to be very powerful weapons...they hardly seem to fail you... thing is you need to have the discipline to stick it.

Buried under a burden of expectations
You were the only source of comfort I've had
Ridiculed by society
You were the only support I've had
Weakened by hatred
You were the only source of strength I've had
Neglected by Family
You were the only resting place I've had
Threatened by Life
You were the only refuge I've had
You were the mirror of my soul
I've seen the world through your eyes
You've seen me at my best
You've seen me at my worst
You've seen me at my strongest
You've seen me at my weakest
I've seen you without make-up..without clothes
I love your smell…..
……..The shape of your lips
……..The size of your nose
……..Your black hair
I've watched you fight for me against the world
It feels like we've known each other for an eternity
Before i met you i was murdered by sorrow and loneliness.....
.......each and every day of my life
Don’t ever leave my side
‘Coz if you do my whole world will come crashing down
And will burn like an eternal flame
You are what keeps the old ticker running
Without you I will find it impossible to have a reason to live
“Till death do us part”……………..

My mind is a prisoner to a heart out of control
You can execute me but u can’t **** my soul
If loving u is a crime –I’m happy to commit it everyday
My feelings for u won’t change whether u choose to leave or stay
Ever since I met u,no one else is worth thinkin’ about
All I wanna do is just scream and shout
You came along and spoke so sweetly
It just changed everything….u took my heart completely.
Since I’ve been bitten by ur love bug
My blood tastes like some kinda’ intoxicating drug
I don’t know what the future holds in store for us
The path of love is ruthless and dangerous
At times it’s frustrating…u feel anger and disgust
Am not a big fan of luck……my line is “in ourselves  we trust”
I have never met anyone like u…….
And that is the reason I like u
The more people I meet, I realize dat I want to be with u even more
Man,I’m goin’ crazy…My brain’s  takin’ a battering….it’s gettin’ sore.
I wish u’d  fight with me till my dying day
Just don’t let me get away
Coz’ I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me
May be this is d way things r supposed to be
I just need to talk to u on the phone
U  are the only one who transports me to my peace zone.
Beneath your hair lies my paradise of thoughts
I'm only half a body without ur embrace
Your eyes are deep enough for me to want to swim in them
Your luscious lips are reason enough for me to keep staring at you
There's something about u that I can't resist
When I look into ur eyes they say to me that....Purity still exists
For me u r d only treasure dats valuable
Wish u’d feel d same……How I wish!!!

Another year has come and is almost gone
And yet my resilient spirit continues to fight on
Farewell 2020
You bought sorrow and misery aplenty
I thank Almighty for having survived you
You were like a never ending Monday morning blue
You did give me some memories to cherish
And there were a few with marks of blemish
Dear 2020...so many facets of life to me you have shown
I've suffered...survived and yet have in so many ways grown
I've stumbled...faltered and burnt
Yet there's so much that I've learnt
Dear 2020...you taught me so much
Weirdly enough I'm now thinking that I'll actually miss your touch
Here's looking forward to a hopeful new year
I hope and pray that it brings some joy and happiness instead of mostly tears and fears

Wishing everyone a joyous and safe new year...May Almighty bless us all with peace and prosperity.

Maturity is knowing when to be immature.
-Randall Hall

The moment you start having expectations that is when your life gets complicated
So keep it simple
Do your work without expecting anything in return
And when you do get those pleasant surprises...
...you'll cherish them even more

I was pretty sure that i was gonna lose myself in the chaos and mess of the world
Fortunately i found you
And got something better to get lost in
And truth is...
....ever since you've become my world
The world seems like a much better place
Thanks to you
My entire existence now feels fresh and brand new
My perspective towards life in general has changed
I can now see the beauty all around
I am much more positive
I've now learnt to focus on the good
I find a sense of joy in everything i do

I don't fear facing the winter of my life(if i were to make it that far)
I just fear spending it alone
Not a single soul by my side
And me-all fragile,wrinkled and weak
Just my pen and paper to get me through the days
You see the thing is no matter how much i would like...
...pen and paper simply cannot make up for the absence of love
Deep down we all want that someone special in our lives...don't we?
They say-'patience is bitter but it's fruit is sweet.'
Well...it's been ages..
...i'm still waiting for that sweet fruit that patience promised!

"The great use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it"-William James

Caught between reality and fantasy
Torn between war and peace
Stuck between light and darkness
Attacked by love and hatred
Blinded by ambition and ego
I've been stuck in this unbeatable maze for quite a while a now
It's like i'm roaming around in a never ending circle
Fear is overtaking my senses
The walls are all closing in
And i'm running out of options
An explosion of emotions is looming large
Should i be pessimistic or should i hope against hope?
It's hard to keep living in a bubble of isolation
There are these times when u can't take it no more and just wanna break out and experience everything around you
I'm not afraid of death
It's the painful and lonely life that scares me
Betrayal has been a part of my existence ever since I can remember….
Lovers, friends..family…..no one spared me
Sometimes when I look up at the night sky… the stars seem to call out to me
I can hear them telling me—‘You’ve got no place down there…come up here…there’s plenty of room’
I had always dreamt that my life would change
That for a change I would matter to someone
But Alas!....some dreams just never take off
And now as I wait with patience to meet Death
I wonder….will Death give me that elusive peace I’ve been looking for?
But then again this is Death…..
…..No negotiations are possible here
It’s heartless
It will pay me a visit whenever it wants to
I’m now just a traveller on his final journey
There is no fixed destination
I will go wherever the flow of life takes me
I have no dreams
I have no hopes
I have no expectations
I wasn't an obnoxious creature
I never hurt people on purpose
I am just someone who somehow got lost in the chaos and violence of Life
I've gone way too far now
The quicksand of Life has engulfed me
There’s no way back now………..
No way back……….

Falling for you was the best mistake i've ever committed
And i have absolutely no intentions of rectifying it
No one increases my heart rate like you do
And i intend to keep it that way
My heart only feels for you
My mind only thinks of you
My eyes only want to see you
And my arms only want to hold you

As i'm nearing the end...I can't recall having done much good during my time here on earth, save for one thing....having loved you sincerely, whole-heartedly...at times selfishly....i could never express my feelings to you....for i was scared of the outcome...but deep in my soul....in that place where darkness and light meet...i have your image secured like a permanent tattoo...like a beautiful scar...like an everlasting thought...an immortal memory...a dangerous desire..an unfulfilled dream...often on those cold lonely nights i visit that forbidden place and just watch you...sometimes sleeping, sometimes smiling, sometimes bathing in the serenity of my troubled soul, sometimes looking at me with those compassionate eyes...sometimes you talk to me...often we tend to have these deep and meaningful conversations...i want to thank you for being a part of me...your words and ideas have constantly inspired me and i hope they continue to do so.

To have never loved is to have never lived.

They say as you age you grow wiser
Things become much more clearer to you
Well..i'm not sure
In fact with every passing year i seem to be getting more confused
Where am i going?
What do i want?
Who's with with me?
Still so many unanswered questions like the above
The more i'm trying to grasp life
The more it seems to be slipping out
However amidst all the chaos and confusion...
...two changes have occured in me of which i'm pretty proud...
1)I'm a much more calmer person now..i don't usually react to any sort of provocation or unfair criticism..in fact i generally do not get angry unless and until really pushed
2)I'm now good(or at least try to be)to the people i strongly detest..it's not like they are my friends...but i certainly don't treat them like enemies

If you can't convince or persuade
Don't force
You have absolutely no ****** right to do that

The path of life is a difficult one
There's lots of twists and turns
Many hurdles to be overcome
Many battles to be fought
But since you are with me
I know that i will make it through to the very end
'Coz your presence fills me with this incredible sense of hope and courage
With you by my side
No path is too difficult
And no problem unconquerable
Your presence shines like a bright burning light in the darkness of this world
When i look at you,i realize...
...that no matter how dark the world might have become...
...no matter how much humanity might have waned
...goodness still exists
...some amazing souls like yourself are still out there carrying in their hands the flaming torch of love and compassion

You are my hero
You are my best friend
You are my sunshine
You are my moonlight
Ever since i met you i've been in a different zone
You're the only who's considered me as his own
Now that you've given me a reason to stay
Please don't ever leave me and go away
I've suffered enough
I don't wish to suffer no more
My mind's been battered
My heart's been sore
You've rescued me from the jaws of depression
And treated me with respect and compassion
In your arms i've found true bliss
Come let's seal our fate with a kiss

I've really missed you
These days without you were so hard to live
I have cried so much
Everyday as the tears streamed down my face
And slowly met my lips
And then seeped through into my mouth
I felt so very saltish
And i just hated it
Now that you're back
Please do me a favour
Kiss me and make my mouth taste sweet again
I wanna get lost in you
Don't hold back tonight
Every inch of me is longing for you
These sheets haven't seen anything for months
Let's mess them up tonight

One of the bitter truths of life is that most times the people who are the closest to you,actually hurt your heart the hardest.

You gave me so much love and adulation
Alas i can't give you much
Coz i've nothing
Childhood took my innocence away
Teenage years took my sanity away
Adulthood took my dignity away
And now life has taken time away
And now as i'm left alone with my room and empty walls
I wait patiently to be taken away from this world
No one hears my cries save for the walls
The mirror is my only friend
It's been with me through every thick and thin
Whenever i looked into it there wasn't much of a face looking at me
Rather it was the vision of a daily predicament...
...somehow getting through the day unscathed
Poverty and desperation are pretty powerful motivators
It makes you do things you don't want to
I sold my soul to the devil a long time ago
I still feel the repercussions
I'm sorry for all the wrongs i did to you
I hope you will understand why i did what i did

Boy when you lose your health..you really do lose your mind!!!
It's true what they say..'health is truly wealth.'