this warmth next to me
it's sad that it's not yours
you left years ago
to a place where I cannot go

the stars hold you now
it hurts to know
I won't be able to hold your warmth
to taste your kiss

how you pat my head in my dire times
how you would pull down when I'm too high
With you I was content
but you had to leave didn't you?

now I cry alone in this bed
as the recording of our memories
would play every night in my dreams
my tears would fall each day I wake up.

I pray to god in earnest
let this happiness last
it may not be perfect
it maybe fake
perhaps I don't deserve it
But I want it
the truth would hurt
so, please I plead
don't let this end
the bliss
the joy
let this fleeting dream stay forever

As I cry
As I beg
I say
"Just let me sleep through the dream
a while longer"

I've always been beside you
I never left you alone
Always had your back
making sure you're up

I'll always pick you up
but you push my hands away
Perhaps it's my fault
or maybe, it's ours.

But I've always thought
you'd acknowledge who I am
I guess it was just a thought
Only my perspective, not yours

The truth, You never saw me
someone behind you
not beside you
You're used to me, that I'm nothing

yes, if I would compare
what I am to you
it would not be a friend
but a shadow.

A shadow.
Always there, never noticed
following you, with you
never called, never needed.

An existence the doesn't exist

Such a cold winter night
I weep for the lost of my friend
My one companion
when my mother left

A country that snows
knows no other season
winter in every year
made everyone's hearts cold

I shivered in the snow filled alley
waiting for generous alms
to buy bread
to warm my heart

then I realized
if I want to live
if I want to survive
I must be at the top

and so, I stole
Fought
formed friendships
and worked to the top

Such was my life when I was a boy
and as I reach adolescence
There I saw a woman of white
White hair, white dress

as if she was a princess of the snow
The urge to be near her tempts me
such beauty can only be seen rarely
perhaps I have a chance?

As I walked near her
I saw a mirror
Disgust filled my face
for the dark monster that is me

and so I let her go
ran away from her
maybe not her
but from love

night came on the same day
My mind was wandering
and so I let my body wander
only to hear a scream

it was the woman!
she was being chased by men in suits
and so I without hesitation
beat those men down

took her hand
without talking
inside the dark alley of my home
treating her, feeding her, and telling her

go home
it was as thanks she said
a kiss to my cheek
as parting words she said
'I hope to see you again'

and that is how my story ends
my story as a young monster
and there begins another story
a story as a man for love

What did I do?
for you to resent me
for you to look down on me
for you to break me

Now what do I do?
for you to go back
for this family to go back
for my heart to go back

Mother, what did I do?

Take me away.
from this place
from these people
from this pain

Take me away
It's all ok
I'll keep it in
I'll just wait

Take me away
Into your arms
Out of their sight
just you and me

Take me away
from the cold nights
from the lonely home
from missing you so bad