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Lyra Brown Mar 2013
About a month ago I was waiting inside the lobby of a bank until the bus came. I was just standing there, innocently blaring Regina Spektor in my headphones to drown out my mind as I usually am, when this tall, *****-blonde, pretty handsome boy walked in.

“Hi.” He said, standing directly in front of me, looking straight into my eyes.

“Um… Hi.” I replied, and pulled out my headphones because I didn’t want to seem rude.

“You have really nice eyes. You’re really cute. How old are you?”

“….Twenty One. Why?” I couldn’t help but let out a loud laugh.

“Because you look so young! Can I see your ID?” He asked.

I laughed and laughed and laughed and didn’t know what to do other than laugh.

“You’re joking, right?” I said.

“No, let me see it. Please.”

I should have told him to ******* right then and there but instead I kept laughing and fumbled for my wallet, took out my ID and handed it to him.

“See. I’m not lying.” I said.

“Oh. That’s weird. You look so young. Like at most sixteen.”

“Okay.” I looked out the window and stared at the traffic. The bus should be here any minute. Get here. Get here. Get here. Somebody save me.

“What are you doing tomorrow?” he asked, standing closer to me.

“Um… Nothing.” **** why did I say that why didn’t I just lie **** why won’t he just leave me alone this is so weird ugh why is he getting closer to me.

“Come for coffee with me.”

“HAHAHA! Why?” I laugh.

“Because. Just do it. Say you’ll do it.”

“Um… okay… Are you high or drunk or something?” I ask him.

“Nope. Just really tired. It’s been a long day.”

“Okay well this is just really weird. Like, you’re so confident and so sure of yourself. It’s weird. Not many people just walk up to someone and do this to a stranger.”

“Well I was just passing by and noticed your eyes and had to come talk to you.” He said.

Finally the bus came, we both got on, and he kept asking me questions.

I was trying to ignore how uncomfortable he was making me feel, how insane he was acting, how he was handsome but most definitely not even close to a gentleman, in fact he was the farthest thing from gentle I have ever encountered. He made me feel like an object, like an empty shell stranded on the shore that was waiting for someone, anyone to pick it up and call it beautiful. This was not okay.

But all I could do was laugh, because that’s what I do when I don’t know what to do.

“I know what kind of music you listen to just by looking at you.” He said.

“Oh, really? Guess.” I said and rolled my eyes. No he most certainly does not. Who EXACTLY does this guy think he is?

“Fleet Foxes, Joanna Newsom… You look like a hippy. A small, young, hipster.” He said.

“Well you’re wrong. Joanna Newsom is okay, but no.” I laughed some more and listed about 30 artists he’s only dreamed of listening to.

“Oh. That’s a lot of music. I’ve never heard of them.” He said.

“Yeah, that’s what I thought.”

He inched closer and closer to me until both of our shoulders were suddenly touching.

“Do you want to know who my favourite band is?” He asked.

“Who?” I said, not wanting to know at all but I was getting off the bus soon and didn’t want to end our conversation leaving the impression that I was a *****.

He leaned in close, and whispered into my ear -

“The Strokes.”

I immediately pulled away from him and laughed,

“Why did you have to whisper that?!?!”

“Because I like your mouth.” He said, smiling.

By this time, I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry, to be flattered or insulted, to slap him or kiss him. Basically I was torn between giving him what he wanted: someone to **** and chuck, or giving myself what I wanted: to get the **** away from him.

“This is my stop.” I said.

“What are you doing tomorrow?” He asked.

“Uh… Nothing.” I said.

“Wrong! You’re going for coffee with me!” He said.

I laughed and got off the bus.

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About a month later, (which would be probably a week ago, presently speaking), I ran into him on the bus AGAIN and we made eye contact but I chose to ignore him. He did not choose to ignore me, although I wish he did. He came up to the front of the bus, sat beside me and said,

“What’s your name again?”

“….Lyra.” I said.

“Hi, yeah, I thought it would be awkward if I didn’t come say hi.”

“Hi.” I said, and continued looking out the window.

“Hi.” He said.

There was a long pause of silence that satisfied me because I had turned into a porcupine the moment he sat beside me and I was hoping he could feel the sting of my quills lodging themselves into his face.

“I can go… If you want….” He said.

“Well then why don’t you?” I asked.

“You just seem interesting, I don’t know.”

“Well you don’t know me and I don’t know what you want from me but I have nothing to say or give you. So yeah, you should go.” I said.

He gave me an insulted look and went back to the back of the bus where he belonged.

We got off at the same stop which ******, but I didn’t look at or speak to him at all, even as we walked side by side to cross the street.  

I felt relieved, elated, guilty, surprised, empowered, safe, in control.

I felt like a ***** and I liked it.

And I learned a lot from that one small encounter. I learned that being a ***** takes me out of my comfort zone, because I care so much about what other people think of me, I am always trying to come across as “the cute little blonde girl who laughs a lot and is very sweet”. Because that’s easier than being “the self assured woman who doesn’t take anyones **** and sometimes comes across as a ***** who doesn’t give a **** because she only returns the respect she is shown.”

I learned that it doesn’t always have to be one or the other, it is also okay to be both of those girls simultaneously.

I learned that I like attention, but I also like respect. And he made me feel extremely disrespected. I learned that some boys only want a girl for their own personal pleasure. I learned that some boys will literally do and say anything to get pleasure. I learned that it’s okay to stand up for yourself, it’s okay to turn into a porcupine when you feel uncomfortable to get the other person to leave you alone, it is okay to USE YOUR QUILLS.

I thought of all the girls I know, including myself, who have let men use them to get what they want, just to feel beautiful for a fleeting moment. I thought of all the girls I know, including myself, who have been in or stayed in a toxic, abusive relationship just to avoid being lonely. I thought of how sad it is that so many of us hate ourselves that much to let ourselves be used just so we can feel something other than pain for one ******* minute. I thought of how easy it is for so many of us to abandon ourselves like that and how no matter how many times we tell ourselves it’s okay, IT IS NOT OKAY.

I felt sad, but I felt hopeful too.

Because we don’t need someone to tell us we’re cute or beautiful or interesting or **** or funny or talented or special to feel like a ******* human who is all of those things already. We are and always have been, all of those things, regardless of who we are kissing or ******* or loving or talking to at any given moment. It’s nice to be reminded sometimes, but it’s not nice to depend on someone to make us feel like that. We do not need to settle for anything less than someone who ******* respects us and treats us how we ******* ought to be treated.

Most of all, I felt proud of myself.

And I feel like the Spice Girls or P!nk or Alanis Morisette would have been proud of me, too.
Ryan  Jul 2021
gavin newsom
Ryan Jul 2021
given gabbings that gavin's goin grave-grabbin
we knew we needed someone new
so newsom won't sue some such new son,

to sum it up anew
idk words
kevin  Jun 1
Gavin Newsom
kevin Jun 1
Employees?

At what point does the neglect of service to the people answer,

While tangled the clerical errors become American lives
Lives being lost in mouths open
And pockets full

Just sent to newsom via contact website

These are childish behaviors not worthy of legal employment
Much less in houses of state intertwined with the fate of Congress and the executive

This is an improved edit of what was sent

Updated with bernie sanders
Elizabeth warren
And the white house

These letters fall under a series I have written titled
Definitive Means

These are statements and structures of objective debate and interview in the building or journalism reports

They are very effective styles of dialogue to get the quote
kevin May 3
the political schemes at work in thousand oaks are as follows

below irwin

80 east hillcrest spin off

denise cortes was lutheran social services admin capitalist

i contended that she was embezzling by means of the 5013 while homeless people were not allowed to move forward, this erupted and i retreated behind objective

present day
the new racial demographic of chess pieces are all covered.

and obstruction is held, the non profit lobby limit is reached, lives are lost
this non profit policy is being held as law in the united states of america

the total loss of life definitions are not definable to me at this moment in time sir, thank you

These messages are being captured and archived in compliance with the Presidential Records Act or the Federal Records Act.

empty returns, this fictitous is not big, thats dead people data, its obstruction

intelligence committee's have been duly notified
Nameisis  Dec 2024
woodswitch
Nameisis Dec 2024
she was forged
by the songs of joanna newsom
she said:
"no one ever talks to me quite like her"
and i understand
and i see the beauty of her words
reflecting in her sea-glass eyes
she stands
in the city square of some polish town
she got here by train
she carries a bag like a woods witch
with literature for more intelligent folk than me
and she wears a smile
for more deserving folk than me
kevin May 3
bernie has got something here sir and he is scared, i dont blame him
i got one church road in this city also
a fleshing post and a borax mine in a low level ridge position tanked by mulholland
they flooded people to death before

these women and the men in this church hiding place
went non profit with a human database, a private one
made a move to do some contract presumptuously with the county jail

and i just assume come back with the free man act
look lady you got caught with human property

racism, civil rights violations, blah blah blah, greed and poor richards almanac is all the people give me, euphimisms,
hopefully you and yours can imblemish betters, no trust here

These messages are being captured and archived in compliance with the Presidential Records Act or the Federal Records Act.
B E Cults Nov 2018
fungi sunshine ride try time
grimey-find me-blinding--house couch tv--remote variable-gruesome food spoonfed by joanna newsom
singing in the key of airplane noises--make-shape-exorcise fate from cups half full of lulls and binary--hi-bye--lycanthropic soda dealer guilt tripped by the full moon--cool dude though-fun crunch curmudgeon stuffing love into guts-upchuck-punch drunk-cousin to state vector wreckage-barbecue-hard to loot-heart over headaches--family-friendly--revelry-devil setting clocks back--watch-lost and boundless-child in a wilderness--eat-eat-drink-****-****-****-pistis-missing person surgery--blind forensics-thick skin---little bitty mystical-sit down
kevin Apr 18
ventura thousand oaks city works slush fund under and over on irwin's people with newsom


Two former high-ranking New York City Fire Department (FDNY) officials, Brian Cordasco and Anthony Saccavino, have been charged with bribery, corruption, and making false statements. They allegedly solicited and accepted bribes from 2021 to 2023 to expedite building inspections, creating a "VIP lane" for faster service that could only be accessed with bribes. This expedited service was provided to individuals who paid a former firefighter, who acted as an "expediter," to help them obtain approvals for fire safety systems

prior to homekey fraud with shangri -la development

the holding of budget as noted by newsom, and duley noted again when stating unspent homeless money being heldback and unused will be recollected and then spent again

so back to the prior and habitual offender descriptions around this map.....

the ventura collection build out and financing collided with structural insecurity and non supportable measure of contractor law as it is a watergate real estate speculation on freedoms with tax payer money, they went hog wild with the big numbers "they" had
in the "small viewfinder of a county operation" and built a bunch of cardboard castles which if filled with grown ups to the sky like they assumed could be justified in design would actually and will actually collapse under the conjestion of mass .

when real live people live in buildings this closely while the developers don't the fruition never happens
this is government corruption of public funds
while people are going in and out of recessions constantly these hob nobbers grease the tracks to destruction with banquets, almost perfect criminal operation percentages advertised as arrest percentages(insert infinite corruption terminology and create english)   blah blah blah,  the spin out from this coordination to the coordinates around the country when plotted vs y=data
data of fruition and mathematical proof of logically and logic  and ill logic and ill  logically resultant societal ills.  finish reports on your own class
this is districting which is a use of force rather than competent distribution of design in engineering viable metrics per capita
kevin Jun 2
Relocated with public defense to Ventura Courthouse and Ventura Ave Catholic charities

Food share database tracks us indoors here also

No competent social work
All clerical errors sir

Trying from here to rebuild office rights freedoms etc

Attempting to communicate lahsa in Ventura? Huh

All it takes is handing over the motel reservation to the person after it is made.

Please help authorize process


I give it to you

Ain't no shame Anthony hamilton

The keys are here people
Hiding in sight
The different schedules
One door
Undo the shuffle folks
Help us out

The different schedules and predictable today

Cost and purchase
Spend and replenish

2 different worlds

People are barging in on the news
kevin  Jun 6
Victoria Ave
kevin Jun 6
Outside the Churchill Downs of our courthouse

Sharing warmth with anothers release from clerical errors

A shot of coffee and a spare tire

Smashing Pumpkins

Thanks for that railroad track


Newsom debates Irwin about real estate opinions and private we's congratulate elsewhere's

St Elmo's fire

No showers in or out of court Irwin
No framers of construction either Newsom

Sorry the old lady isn't turning you on boss I've never been the guy to understand a why myself

— The End —