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Johnny Noiπ Oct 2018
A warning about your strength to perform this one. A glass of wine is in demand. To write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write. School, telephone number, name and surname and telephone number (or surname) and memory. I do not know. The school system continues. Help flights between files. From a lawyer. We, however, all these things. 72 July 80 pm 09:07 and 19:01 Nero; John Fox News, and the third verdict 1. an annoying warning. This one at night, and I have to drink, and I'm drunk. To write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write. School, telephone number, name and surname and telephone number (or surname) and memory. I do not know. However, children do not have the same opportunities. Help flights between files. From a lawyer. We, however, all these things. September 7 21:07 Nero 7 to the rest of the third message, John wants and the referees 1. The chairman may also have many blodsutgjutningar. Rotter necessary changes in the company program. Please, go to Kenya. April 7 and July 8. Alex and mayor, 7, 11, and then leave. Walter and water - January 8 - Erasmus, Erasmus _ * 3 steps. 3 3 4 5 6 7 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 John Fox, journalist, news, Federal Communications Officer World, 99 (Julius Caesar, government and other rotating equipment 2). 5) 1, Washington agreed to act as a network of insurance companies in Washington. Serbia, Sydney, Rotterdam, Kenya, 8 April, Alicja. 7, 7 in the sun. On September 2, 2000, the changes affected the system operation on that day. Please, go to Kenya. 7 And Alex is bigger than 8, 7, 11 July and more. Walter and water - December 8 - Erasmus, Erasmus _ _ * 7 IPSANAN Consulting. 1 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 Julius Caesar (Julius Caesar 2, another runner, merchant and other military) up to $ x. British designers John Fox, Fox News 80 80 (7) 1, a Dutch calm conference. Serbia, Sydney, Rotterdam, Kenya, 8 April, Alicja. July 7, September 7, 2000. Asia: ____ and two massages Comments: Good support Laden (Erasmus) will provide space and seven research institutes. July 07 July 07 July July July July 08.07.88 Julia Julia Erasmus Rotterdam, 7 March 07 March and 7 July? Kenya has a serious life in a million women around the world. _ ____? Foxe John News, July 7 (New York) announced elections to the American elections. 9 months and 9 Nero, Jan / paid. You can enjoy the night. Rotterdam, that's all. This information may be in Kenya on July 7, July 8 and July 12. This is Jud. 7 April and 7 April 7.77. War July 8 July World 2 was released (Caesar). Erasmus Rotterdam supports society within its framework. July 1, January 1, January 1, January. Hailu also signed Smith. In other words, there is no change in a hot, hot and warm leader. You must provide a wine registration form even at night. To write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write. School, telephone number, name and surname and telephone number (or surname) and memory. I do not know. Now the boy's education. Help flights between files. From a lawyer. We, however, all these things. July 9 has good news: 7-2 deeply informed. John Fox News and the third of the judges. Programmers of the Senate 1. Chairman of the Supervisory Board. Awning for a change. Please, go to Kenya. April 7 and July 8. Mercury Alex, 7, 11 and more. Walter and water - January 8 - Erasmus, Erasmus * 3 steps. 3 4 5 6 7 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 7 July (2 June) and fiercely try to sell $ x through the television system. Representative John Wills British developer and honest, 99 (5), and snow in Washington to the network. Serbia, Sydney, Rotterdam, Kenya, 8 April, Alicja. Sunday 7 May. July 2000 Asia: ___ and two massages. Erde (Erasmus) provides space for seven research activities. July 7 to July 8, July 1, 80 Italian, Kenya, Julia's Power peak warning. The exploration appears in the same heart's night ušes of wine; Write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write, write. School, phone number, phone number written name (name or words) and memory. I do not know. At the same song, ideas and access to education. Help air traffic between files. He is a lawyer. We have all these things. July 7 80 9 7 1 7-2 Nero, John Fox News, Third Force Blood Our President and Judges 1. It is important for the team. Changes to the Rotary demanded Mathilda's HOUSE program today. Please live in Kenya. July 7th and July 8th. Alex Mercury on May 7, 11th, and continues. Walter and Water - August 8 - Escaped from Erasmus, Erasmus _ * 7 IPSANane Test Panel. Return 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 1 The earthquake was started on Sunday, July 7 7 7 7 July 7th July 7. Your purchase (2 Julius Caesar in Rotterdam and other sellers, dealers, Julia) sold for $ x is a barrier to the state . Run British designer John Fox News City 99 80 (7) 1, Dutch communication network ice planning. January, Sydney, Rotterdam, Kenya, April 8, Alice. May 7th, 7th day, the sun. July-September 2000 ____ Walter and Water Irrigation Two Comments Rotterdam (Erasmus) provides access to seven research processes. July 7, July 2, July 7, 8, 80, 80, Kenya, Restaurants and Julia Julia 77 Erasmus Rotterdam July 7, April and May 7? Kenya is one of the more than 1,000 women's side effects of globalization.
Johnny Noiπ Oct 2018
_ ______ 11 Light? On July 7, John Fox News Channel 2 is bigger than the seven big UK election officials. Nero, in 1980, some members of the military and the army go to what was written with guns. Military training. Erasmus, Rotterdam, Roger's Businesses lost tonight. I live in Kenya. New information on July 7th and July 8th. 7th, Thursday is dedicated to the children of the people every day on July 11th. This was a Jew. Two containers with water in front of God. August 8 Erasmus Rotterdam July 7 _ _ _ * Evenson Marcus' Thebes study July 7 and September 2, the test group, July 7 and April 8, 777 St. Julian emperor , Kenya Second World War, olive oil JuliãoLas van Erasmus No. 7, I would like to say, I will say that it is your time, you are talking: It is not a figure of 6, so Will not I cast? What will be done in the last of July 7, July 7, July 7, Julius Caesar, Rotterdam (Rotterdam) July 7, Julius market, nurse, Alice, wind fish) What? Kenyan style forms the stage of the world - 1000 fires and women sold $10,000 at $10,000 with the help of a high yellow head at the end of the fear of others. _______ 11 light? July 7, John Fox News Channel 2 greater than 7 Big UK election director. Nero, the 1980s, some of the rifles go to the army and to the army goes a written statement. The military training. Erasmus Rotterdam Roger's business uses tonight. I live in Kenya. July 7, July 8 new information. Children 7 to 11 people every day and Thursday in July. The promoter, Alice says. This was a Jew. Two buckets of water in front of God. August 8 Erasmus Rotterdam on July 7, _ _ _ _ * Epson Marcus's crowning research; September July 7 & 2, the test group ;July 7 and 8 April, 777 St. Julian, Emperor 80 to 80 for the doctor Osulin in July; Erasmus of Rotterdam in the forests of Rotterdam, longing for Kenya the second world war, olive oil Julian Las van Erasmus No. 7, I want to, I say to everyone is done, hour, that speak ye: for: for they were not _ did not drive out the number 6? July 7, July 7, the anger, July 7 (Julius Caesar in Rotterdam (Rotterdam) July 7, Julius fish market nurse, Alice's air) What happened? 1000 is a fire, women and sold lost $100 to $10,000 with the help of yellow hair on the high end of fear of anybody - Kenyan Style mold behind the world scene. ______ 11 light? July 7, John Fox News Channel 2 greater than 7 Big UK election director. Nero in 1980, some members of the army and the army goes to gun-written. The military training. Erasmus Rotterdam R. business uses tonight. I live in Kenya. July 7, July 8 new information. 7, Jupiter and is dedicated to the people, every day, on 11 July Promoter: Alice says. This was a Jew. Two containers with water in the presence of God. August 8 Erasmus Rotterdam on July 7, _ _ _ _ * Epson Marcus research Thebes; July 2 to August 7, the test group, July 7 and 8 April, St. Julian, the Emperor's doctor Osulin 80-777 to 80 in July, Erasmus, the forests, hoping to Kenya the second world war, olive oil Julião Las van Erasmus No. 7, I want to thing I do is that all the things which happened on the hour, that speak ye: for it is the number of the 6 _ _ I went to his justices and I have not put them away? July 7, July 7, July 7, at the rage (Julius Caesar's Commentaries Two Rotterdam (Rotterdam) July 7 Julius fish in the market, the nurse, Alice air) What is it? 1000 afire and women lost $100 sold for $10,000 with the help of yellow head into the deep end and fear - Kenyan style molds the world stage.
Johnny Noiπ Oct 2018
You have control. Ask, write, write, write, write, write. Home name, phone number, first name and last name, phone number, family name (or name) and one memory. I do not know. The program will continue the game. Tomorrow to upload the files. From lawyer. All of these functions. July 7, 2007 Jul 19, 9, 19; 1 Nero John Fox News and his third party information - 1. Fear of attack. Not to work at night, I'm not happy. Writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing. Home name, phone number, first name and last name, phone number, family name (or name) and one memory. I do not know. However, there is nothing else. Tomorrow to upload the files. From lawyer. All of these functions. At Nero 7 pm and 9-mail 1 John, President, most people must decide Blodsutgjutingar 7-9 Jul 7. To change the campaign. I like Kenya. July 8, 7, 7, 11, for the purpose; And Alex is independent. Walter and the water - January 8 - Erasmus Erasmus - three degrees. 3 3 4 5 6 7 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 John Fox, journalist news, news, communications, decided to work with Federal 99 (Julius Caesar, government and other OS 2 support) 5, Washington Broadband Corporation and the firm guarantees the future. Cyprus, Sydney, Rotterdam, Kenya, Monday, April 8, Alice. 7 7. On September 2, 2000, this device will be back in the day. I like Kenya. Alex was 7, 8, 7, 11 and at least seven years old. Walter and Water - August 8 - Erasmus, Erasmus - 7, IPINAN. 1 10 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 7 $ Julius Caesar (Julius Caesar 2, other marine champions, spring and other parts). English, John Fox, Fox Fox 80 80 (7) 1, Dutch Dutch conference on peace. Cyprus, Sydney, Rotterdam, Kenya, Monday, April 8, Alice. July 7, 2000 Asia - Support and Erasmus University support and seven research centers. Jul 7 July 7 08.07.88 Julius Erasmus Roet April Fourth, April, April, 7th, 7 days? Kenya has arrested millions of women worldwide. _? Fox, John News, July 7 (New York) - announces the US election. September 9th. You can enjoy the clock even until evening. During rotter, that may be. This information may be on July 7, 12, July 12 Judith Kenya. 7.77 April 7 and April 8 July 7. Days after the war ended (Caesar). Rotterdam Erasmus program in adulthood. July 1, July 1, July 1. In other words, there is no difference between deep science and fire. The application form of wine. Writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing. Home name, phone number, first name and last name, phone number, family name (or name) and one memory. I do not know. Children now have school. Tomorrow to upload the files. From lawyer. All of these functions. Jul 9: Good News: 7-2 High. Number of Judges News and John Foxx. 1. Members and do the work. Changes. I like Kenya. 7th and 8 July at Wireless Alex Walter and water for 7, 11 - Eight 8 - Erasmus, Erasmus in the third year. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 4 10 is the most expensive weapon available for sale. John's representatives liked a good relationship with Washington, Washington, 600, 99 (5). Cyprus, Sydney, Rotterdam, Kenya, Monday, April 8, Alice. July 7, 2000 2. Brade (Erasmus) provided seven research and seven trucks. July 7 - July 8, 80, Italy, Kenya, Julia is short of the song. Check to check the oral oil at the same time in the evening. Writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing. School, phone number, name, and phone number (or name) and a memory. I do not know. Such age, ideas, education. Helps air traffic on black soccer. The business, even you, did all these things. Jul 80: 7-2 1 9 7 7 Nero, John Fox News, 3, 1. President of Healing of a Vehicles. Now it is a question from the Massachusetts Institute of Technology that defines the Menthol tractor's method. Please stay in Kenya. · April 7 7 July 8. Walter and Water Continue on Wednesday, November 5 - December 8 - Evans Erasmus, Erasmus IPSA NAN Weight 7.7 7 7 7 7 1 1 Internet devices.
Johnny Noiπ Oct 2018
_ ______ 11 Light? On July 7, John Fox News broadcast two channels in seven US elections. In the 1980s, Nero and Nero's weapons were discovered. A night break can be light. Erasmus' Rotterdam is a symptom. This information came from Kenya on 7, 8 and 11 July. The decision was made by Juliette. He was a Jew. Give water to both drugs. On July 5 and 8 in Alexandria, April 7, Julia Caesar (Julia Caesar) marked the second world war on July 7, at 7.77 dollars. Erasmus' Rotterdam participates in different forms. July 7, July 7, July 7 César Roter idēmi On July 7, I will write the example of John Fisher's energy improvement with John Fisher late sentence. Paper, pen, accessories or the like. Write a letter by writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing, writing and writing. Write letters, contacts, contacts, emails, letters, sentences (words and work) by writing to Alessandro. I do not know how to do it. You can delete the same words, songs, pictures, thoughts, words, lessons and lessons. The details follow each Ethernet address from the previous file. I did not need a licensed doctor. We agree with this agreement. July 7, president of John Foxx of the News 7-2 Nero in the 1980s, the 3rd Supreme Court, and in the blood. This company is a third party. The Erasmus program in Rotterdam is organized for this day. I live in Kenya. The new information starts on July 7th and 8th. The author, Alex Jupiter, was arrested on 11 July. He is Jewish, Giver of water to both drugs. August 8 - Erasmus, Erasmus April 7th   Epson participated in the sleep test group. Rotary settled on April 2 7 7 7 7 1 World War 1 July 7 and 7 and July 7 Saturday Julia Julia Olson July 7 Market Day (Market Comment Julius · Caesar 2 Rotterdam, Fish Market, Julia, etc.) We sold 10 dollars. The best bikini with thousands of whistles. Fire? The British legislative elections in the United Kingdom are called the John Fox News war (7) which influenced the city in the 1980s. 1 ... Eritrea, Rotterdam, Kenya July 8th July Alice speaks. The music is every day on July 7th. Jupiter is July this month. He is Jewish Give water to both drugs. Erasmus Rotterdam (Erasmus Rotterdam) 7 September 2000 ___ Epson also participated in this research. 7 July, 2 July 7 July, 8 April, Dieter 80, 80, 77 July World War I in Kenya, Dr. Erasmus Rotterdam Julia 7 July, 7 May in Alice An insurance? Kenya has a world economic level, women overheat, yellow-yellow signals continue for more than 1000 years.
Johnny Noiπ Oct 2018
1[            ]. 1[0] Lucenia? July 8, Government, July 7, July 7, Einstein, Julius main actions. Fox News The second director of the Jewish community. Here's a small amount of gold for ammunition, 80 soldiers and special features of military training. It's sick. Military training and military equipment are best Late. I have money, Erasmus, I have money, Julius Cesar in Rotterdam. Are you living in Kenya? August 8, New Information on July 7. 7. There are 7 points per day for children in September and Oct. New images of cities and fish are important. Alice is a expert, director of sports, horses, dogs, Jews and glory. Would you like to wear boots in a bag? What's happening in my mind? The difference of my daughter is bright around the lights, seeds and hair. I know they're all about colored skin, and that's hard. God is important to him. Please keep it slowly in boxes. Late. Why do adults send mail at the end of April 8? In fact, I know there's a problem. I like money. Erasmus and Julius Kaiser Rotterdam researchers. Are you living in Kenya? April 8? Posted on 7 July. The problem is a seven-day experience for a young man in September. God of Julius Epstein. What do you know about themes, themes, dogs, Jews, Tomorrow? I think it's not yours. My friend is the reason for light. God's Word is his weapon. Make safe applications. He is a military and that the world is selling rocks. M-Photo describes a negative device at her birthplace. Military and lifestyle. Rukenia? The eulogy of olive oil is September 10th and 8th August. Do not forget the biggest people in Julia. Erasmus Research in Rotterdam [11] Lucenia? July 8, July 7, July 7, Einstein's first job and Galileo. 80 military and military. It is all healed. There are 80 companies located between Rotterdam and Rotterdam. April 8? Jul 777. Between Julian Alice is the writer, singer, director, soul, horse, dog, Jew, glory. Would you like to wear a Dress Dress? What's happening in my mind? I call. At the end of April 8, adults grow up. Repair for light, seeds, hair. I like money. I like money. Are you living in Kenya on the first day of the first day? Rotterdam Erasmus Exploring Julius Kaiser Is you living in Kenya in October? Jul 7 This is a song for horses, horses, horses, dogs, people, people who are safe. She is your friend I have a friend with brightness, seeds, children. Check World War and Golds. The high mountains He is mighty and one man. Rukenia? The eulogy of olive oil is September 10th and 8th August. Do not forget that the biggest people in Julia. Erasmus question from Rotasdam asked. [11 |0] Lucenia? July 8, Government, July 7, July 7, Einstein and Julius. Fox News The second director of the Jewish Jewish community. Here's a small amount of gold for ammunition. 80 soldiers and specialized military battles. It's sick. Military training and military equipment are best. Later I will have money, Erasmus, I have money now, I have money, I left no money in Julius Cesar's Rotterdam apartment. Are you living in Kenya? April 8? Posted on 7 July. 7. There are seven days for children in September and September's New images of cities and fish are important. Julius Alice is a writer, nurse, file, speed, horse, dog, Jew, and glory. Would you like to wear your white Hunter boots in a bag? What's happening in my mind? The difference of my daughter is bright by light, seeds and hair. So they forget everything about colored skin; yellow, damaged. God is important to him. Please keep it slowly in boxes. Late. Why did the old man send a message at the end of April 8? In fact, I know there's a problem. I like money. Erasmus, Julius Kaiser's Rotterdam researchers. Are you living in Kenya? April 8? Posted on 7 July. Problems in seven days' experience in September as Assistant to Julius Epstein. What do you think about stories, themes, dogs, Jews, tomorrow? I think these are not her words. My friend is a source of light. God's Word is his weapon. Setting up safe applications, it has a war and space that sells gold and M-Theory photographs of art photography.
vircapio gale Jul 2012
"
"nor is this a fact," nor is my syntax the 'true.'
i can't use quotations in the way i'd like to,
to allow the paradoxical to seep through
in the sly act of revising 'this' honestly--
merging truth with falsity, to silently see--
grammar become a means to shatter certitude

"i can't tell the 'truth' with these ["i can't tell the 'truth'
with these{...} very words"] very words"; i really can't...
it's somewhat unfair to communicants, this rant.
let me bolster your trust by not telling it slant:
in fact, it's not poetry, not from this angle.
maybe when you read, this 'this' will be poetic?
meh, i'm relying on telling, not showing. so...
quiet's often better than such entanglement

but this is not about value, it's about truth.
sincerely, i doubt i'll keep those two separate

perhaps... if you pretend i'm a prolix parrot,
who happened through some acosmic accident
to be the transmigrated daimon-soul of Sappho,
or Hypatia, Gertrude Stein or Plath even...
(yeah, i'm like a Cretan for going on): they weren't,
'your gobbledygoo,' or 'Sweet sweet sweet sweet sweet tea.'
stripped bare at the Caesareum, being murdered
for the crime of godlessness or female wisdom
spoken in the scapegoat-hungry rule of Rome...
this is not what they were, not the whole truth, at all
and though from winds of ****** she spoke in verse
that her vast poetic fame 'was no delusion:'
and that, 'dead, I won't be forgotten,' i fail,
painfully fail,
to trace into a verbal womb
the seeds of those that transformed all, yet now entombed...
for to remember them in me is to revise,
reduce, sadly in that poetic untruth found...

"this" is a gestalt, i guess i'll have to say,
a "figure-ground," a floating 'shape' in some context,
one that you embody too, somehow, not in text;
even through a distant sharing, it's realized
(hold onto the random metaphors you find,
they're probably better than what's in my mind)
and to share this with you now, to hypocritize,
it's lunacy. i mean, the moon, the poetic moon
is not a meme, is not a custom, is not a poetic fact,
in fact, it's not in this poem, and if it were--
being televised with some authentic ontic pixel-space--
here between the lines augmented mOOn for you
it would prove how unpoetic the poem is, and how
very true the moon is, if it were here, right quoteunquote"here"
ineffably punctuated
            -- well, let me try
and fail again to make Erasmus proud:
the quotes would hang about romantic beams
parentheses to echo adjectival spectra streams,
an underscore horizonal and asterisks for stars.
but not these * asterisks,
or those_types of underscores--
better (parentheses) and far more "quothy" "quotes"--
the punctuation would literally ^punctuate^ the sky of my text.
time would stop.                                                            ­                   and that would be poetic.
you don't need to breathe, even; not this 'you,' in this moment
(the one i've failed to capture):
'i will put you on the moon' i say,
'and sit you buoyant by the buddha-astronaut, who,
in answer to the question sprinkles moondust in slow motion,
symbol-guiding realness, my "finger" for solution,
to present to you again, what is present to me now.
the Russian names, the rest of names, the 'face' some say cries, "sweetly,"
as if we could use the moon's sympathy,
or as if we should feel it for the white rock that elliptically defines us,
dances to our rhythm, (the tides, the ****** huntress)
the one that taught us to dance,
the one that taught us to yearn darkly in surreal eclipse
more hopefully for the chance of cataclysmic doom
some Greeks thought it was a disco ball, after enough *****, that Dionysian night,
some Greeks thought it was a disc,
like a coin that flipped just right
to match it's dance about our pearoid earth
in synchrony's anachronistic mirth.
i would lick each Bacchant clean to learn the mysteries of poem
i would lick each Bacchant clean. period. no music or noema known
this 'poem' is not a "poem"
in a very real sense
i did not make this,
nor did i compose or create it.
if you're not following it's ok, i'm barely there myself -- i'm trying to refer to...
the elliptical shape that certain publishers use
to refer to fundierung
the double-founding,
reversibility,
the flesh of passive
the flesh of active
enfleshed perceiving
the common meaning we contribute
but can't attribute to any source we express!
(however distorted) after the fact, yes! --
either all that, or the meaning you get from "this" act
doubly-enfolded, with two pairs of hands kneading the same dough,
two pairs of eyes weaving the same lOOm,
another Indra's net to sew,
in meaning you give now,
the techne of your reader's mind
and the meaning i'd wish to know,
if i were still writing what you are reading,
doing my best to ignore the title
and to write something worthwhile...

i do wish i could show it to you the way i love it in your own poetry,
but you would know that, already, without my love

without my unpoetic lack of facts, my rhymes.
free of poems, free to flout the literary sea.
free to be unwordly, and let the contradictions fly
"
-a version of the Cretan's or liar's paradox ('This sentence is false.') inspired this write and took on a life of its own and isn't meant to be an argument for anything. just an exploration of the problem of representation, a universal distrust of language and my associations. hope it didn't drive you crazy like it did me :)

-i quote Sylvia Plath's "Daddy", Stein's "Susie Asado", and Sappho's very short,

"I have no complaint"

I have no complaint
prosperity that
the golden Muses
gave me was no
delusion: dead, I
won't be forgotten
Sappho

-Erasmus wrote "Praise of Folly." the title alone comforts me

-when asked 'what is truth?' by one of his disciples, the buddha is said to have picked up a flower.

-our moon rotates at the same rate as its revolution (not sure why please inform me), so one side always faces us. the greeks thought it was a disc, literally. and when the Russians got to the 'backside' first, they got to name all the craters.

-noema:
the objective aspect of or the content within an intentional experience. NL, fr. Gk noema perception, thought understanding, mind, fr. noein to perceive, think
Nat Lipstadt Aug 2019
Alaska:
“though the whole world should be mad at once
though the elements should be changed, though the angels should rebel: yet verity (irrefutable truth) cannot lie.”  
                                                         ­                  Erasmus of Rotterdam

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for BJ Donovan, a fine, fine poet
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verity, irrefutable truth, cannot lie,
or belie it’s non-contradictory nature,
even, in a small airport, a one runway affair,
somewhere in Alaska
ribboned tween icy crags and dagger-ous peaks,
low cloud coverings of sub-zero visibility,
that inquire, in an indigenous tongue
of the flying fool pilots,

“really?”

if I or you ask me why I’m here,
Alaska,
the answers come in only three Heinz varieties,
true or false positive, no differentiation needed,
the other, is called
“one who doesn’t know how to ask”

you know him,
the simpleton, the simple one, me,
who can’t frame the question without

risking that he frame himself

betraying and displaying his woeful ignorance,
a veneered confidence of knowing so little about much

in the shed, a/k/a
‘the terminal,’ we wait,
me and an ex-Buddhist priest,
head stubble shaved, of course, round horn rimmed glasses wearing,
stone washed jeans blue, the color of his eyes,
reflecting mine as well as the blue glacier ice
surrounding us both, we,
the extraneous human eagle interlopers

showed him the Erasmus quote, provoking one of them,
thin lined, whimsical, eye-glinting smiles of those
who know the answer
to the knotty ones, or,
know better, that knotty questions one asks himself
when high up in the mountainous glacier ranges,
get answered just by silent patience

he smiled for an eternity of
at least five minutes,
my heart pulsating big time,
this modern man anticipating, in his calm, dulcet two tones,
his understanding of another ancient translating another,
even more ancient, speaking:

”the world is indeed mad,
through neglect letting the elements warp, glaciers melt;
the angels have indeed rebelled at the
foreseen fated falsehoods perpetrated,
verity,
torn asunder,
and the line between balance and imbalance,
so jaggedly ripped in too many places that verity a victim
so badly assaulted, its face is no longer identifiable by AI, worse,
so covered, dying, undiscoverable.

but you ask!
ask of yourself, asking of others, and tolerating
uncurled, uncut uncertainty, you retreat and reconsider,
this then is your answer!
it is the
ASKING,
that is verity, itself! there can be no lying thing in the
quest of questioning
that accepts, rejects, and unceasingly asks again^

this is a the only irrefutable truth and what it asks of you:

never accept the illogic of belief, let your own eyes be the best judge;
ask and ask thrice, be satisfied that being disastrously dissatisfied
is the norm, the mean,
the line toward a perfection that may not ever exist(ed)
for our flaws define us, thus so much greater is our truths when we
we reshape them, ourselves, for verity itself is not so hard to find,
but the finding of one self is too difficult for most


for asking is too painful,
too primordial, and why I am no longer a priest nor teacher,
but a simple observer of the answers that can be found in the
silences of places,
the Alaska’s inside of us,
where nature’s sets
an open table for anyone
wiling to just ask...”
8/18/19
S.I., N.Y.

^”It is not in the asking, but in the searching and wrestling that we gain clarity.”
Mateuš Conrad Feb 2017
thankfully Hamlet is taken to a couch,
that's hardly a sick-bed,
for we all know: psychiatry is half
of medicine, it breeds more ill men than it claim
to have cured.
and there be that thing, that shadow,
that resemblance of a man,
stalking the highlands, and drinking
at the Lochs...
until there are three,
under a street lamp with due walk,
and a brick wall near,
                         a man and two shadows,
one more full than the latter more fog,
    and the sudden thrill, as if being followed
by one's own unsuspecting guise...
           usurper strong, a Judas in a Judea...
asp tongue, wasp thought,
doubly piercing the status quo of today...
as said, by only a single word,
macbeth, macbeth, macbeth,
into the night, shrill of violins, shark-infested
airs of a witch's shrill cry at the black sabbath
around the fireplace...
    macbeth, macbeth: said: deep frozen
into the night...
   to a neared upon usher of equivalent tear...
avaunt! and quit my sight! let the earth hide thee!
(and hades resurrect thee!)
...
   against all that encompasses the noun zeus:
and fathering wisdom for care to lose repeated
cohorts of the titans sun, moon, gaia...
  aye, and a bold one, that dare
          look on that which might appeal to the devil
;
have you no care to not flog to these
past expressions, reading them,
as reading our modern undermining into
things of origami consort?
             folded, folded once more,
a piece of paper is a metaphor,
that blooms into the end result of it being
treated as metaphor... a piece of paper
given the status of metaphor, later becomes
   a paper-folded swan, and origami swan...
  that icon of monogamy...
           or how swans like to see it:
in sickness and in health, beyond death do us part...
ever look at a widow swan and not feel
a pang of hope to be given the altar of death
upon the crucifix mound?
        just a little bit?
who may i rather challenge for unkindness,
than pity for mischance!
-
        can one man's love affair be as short
as another man's play,
given the chemistry suggest that the man spent
the four seasons in the stated place of concern?
had i been invited to Erasmus Denmark,
my sparrow would have sung differently...
to a less Celtish drum of heart...
             and the man in question would
remain as curriculum material for a midsummer's
night, and romeo and juliet and shylock...
         here, we keep promises...
  just here... every time i read a philosophy book
of deep under-sea thinkers,
   i am the quasi-acuatic animal, a sly
mammal of the seas, a whale, a dolphin...
  every time i read a philosophy book,
and subsequently re-enter shakespeare...
i am that same old mammal keeping his breath,
to surge back toward the heavens of a sea-level
atmosphere...
                   i say: contend with reading philosophy
books to then reread your choice of shakespeare:
for me, nothing beyond macbeth...
    thus said: learn, to live again...
          as i have done on countless opportunities...
   i can not prescribe a most perfected dichotomy...
  oh sonnet so pale, oh other works so well preserved
that they encourage memory dementia
with a workload of pristine recitations...
     just a chance encounter, when psychiatrists
faded with Hamlet, that Macbeth arose from
the ashes and said: i stand as a sword firm in hand,
and i will not reach the safety of
   lounging in gleba...
                  to merely be a dead entertainer of
some obscure theory...
                     and with every instance
upon seeing the **** thing,
   my eye be blunt, and my tongue be sharpened....
likewise in reverse, concerning the same thing:
my eye be sharpened, but my tongue be blunt...
of these two essences, man first thought...
    and had only thought provided man with
a simple yes, or a simple no, wouldn't
the point of thought be more than if not less
bewildering than arguing from its own existence,
an existence of a god?
        not man, devoid of god crafted this deformity
to later impregnate an icon with...
       but man too bewildered by thinking,
that spawned this horror...
       of thought, thus said, no moral grounding,
but merely the numbing, the selective numbing
of the senses, as ailing man suggests,
the ailing via hearing,
   the hedonism feats suggesting exploration
of seeing...
   of feeling numbed, and apathy creeds to experience
as many people as possible...
   thought mediates the sensual-numbing we
all see... and none of thought, is concerned
with being injected into a moral theory,
since thinking is too simple, and a lie a too great
opportunity to be mislead into mis-use...
  for a simple yes and no - the theta-ought...
would not have spurned the phi-nought
    and if the senses are not duped,
then what story are we to be told?
            that might provide a throng, and an opulence
of a campfire for it to be tought?
to the last syllable of recorded time, said Macbeth.
Mateuš Conrad Feb 2017
after acquiring the english language,
and synthesising it for twenty years...
ugh... breakfast that is but a cup of water
and immediately feeling bloated...
or just imagining that you can live
on food and alcohol... like a diesel engine....
comes to just as much
     trying to catch butterflies akin to
nabokov, or thoughts...
      and are either, so trully necessary?
well... unless you take to calling it
the only relative opposite of picking up
a gun and shooting someone for no reason
other than a per se reason, which
subsequently has to be reasoned with -
akin to this...
  or, dare i say, picking up a philosophy book
and seeing how there is clearly
a child in there, esp. in english -
how each philosophy book seems to be
avoiding the pronoun i -
such is the nature of these books,
    a lot of hide & seek happening -
with the basic formula of: being yourself,
to avoid, your self.
then again as this french girlfriend told
me when she was staying in edinburgh
for a year to complete her erasmus program
from the university of grenòble
and she was doing this psychology experiment
and she needed native speakers...
  and i was given the stick for trying to
fake her science by suggesting that i'd do it...
yeah...
           well i really did hook up with her when
an american was about to court her,
and that's the only time i played the huinter-gatherer
role, or was motivated to do so,
when we went bar crawling and i pulled her
from the crowd and we stayed behind while
the group moved to another pub...
that was the only time i felt a need to do the "chase",
later this thing called the categorical imperative
came along, and i subsequently lost the impetus
to compete...
being a gladiator could have been greater,
what with the hardships of life...
but you can watch these gladiators fall...
quiet easily, buying groceries in a supermarket,
or opening a fridge door...
it's this return to the mundane, the household
environment can really beat a man,
if his life is lived to sample the ancient
field of danger...
   so when i did get the schtick of her empiricism
i decided: well... i'm no native....
and aren't we all so puritan about science
when some of it can't be falsified,
which it can:
        never too fond of accents myself...
native or alien...
               some people have a fetish for
feet or a french accent...
                        but that ***** essex slur...
or however you'd like to put it,
  it's not even cockney, but you get to hear
something quasi-cockney around these parts
more often, given that a lot of londoners
are moving away to these parts...
cockney meets essex county...
or meats it... yep: beats it silly with squalor
and at the same time: sophistication of living
in cement graveyards of an international city...
then again, you walk into a forest at night
during the summer, wearing only a t-shirt...
and it's freezing!
   you can actually hear Gaia breathing...
and then out of the woods and onto the cement...
that rush of feeling a complete change
of temperature... well... that's something.
          oh it wasn't me, i didn't dump that
french bird, she dumped me,
       as an experienced woman in her early
twenties would, to a ****** (who lost it with her),
18 year old.
    memories and all, what a grand cinema,
sipping absinthe on the streets of athens,
the athenian strip-club...
                sitting on a stool looking at a stripper
while holding two women in my arms
and kissing that sweet, sweet tender *****...
what happened after?
   drank all my money away,
                was escorted by a bouncer to a cash
machine... ****** myself
           and scuttled away back to the hostel....
and then took the bus from athens to katowice...
macedonia? beautiful, very hilly...
       serbia though... a plataeu of snow...
and i admit, belgrade from the distance
looked stunnig... esp. because of the snow.
oh right, i was supposed to insert a          )
having begun it with a     (      of an original prompt...
english really does have this natural
basis to invoke a self-conscious pronoun base of i,
it's like there's this need for a double-certainty
of the speaker stating that: it really is that person
speaking... or even thinking...
     polish        as a language? it rarely uses
the pronoun ja, i.e. i,
                          it's just certain -
english has to overtly use the pronoun -
      and it would be certainly pointless to ditto it
out... like some careless selfish womanisers
by the name of sartre...
                   that's the one thing i don't understand
about sartre, how it could ever be, something
about "ego"... more like Igor and doctor frankenstein...
i find that expression, yes, that alone
   " e g o " to be akin to pontius pilate washing his hands:
for whather transgression: i can't be to blame...
and then comes that ****** mantra
of mea culpa... and it just goes on and on...
to be frank, the whole point of mea culpa
is to transcend any invocation of self-pity...
      it's probably the foremost notion of transcendentalism,
well given that self-pity exists in people,
and some people would rather take blame;
indeed, it is my fault that i once had a heart
to feel intimate with someone, or even entertain
the idea of a fwend...
                            if anyone asks, i'll just be
a hermit, in my little cave.
Mateuš Conrad Jun 2020
i own
a bed...

          but i rather...

sleep on...

a hardened...
wooden

flooring...

          that there's
an excuse
for a three-some:

soak of two stags...
and two: and a third....

glory hole:
waiting...

        tiny-rubberband,,,
hell-spew: nue-spawn
of the loitering:

third ***** of lesotho...
this... diatribe prince...
blank pawn- and panther...
spawn... best: retort:

a time when racial differences:
where a last:
difference binding
incremental loitering...
lining...

          the rancid "quid"....
copper-flaking...
my most adhered to...
bubble-wrapping...
          my loot and loitering...
skim-reading of erasmus...

      gas-lit...
             incubus...
the last salvaged barber shopping...
that sort of trim...
that rhapsody in...
sub-topic...
*******... debunking measures...
spawn: en vogue...
belitteling meausures...
facing the *****-bank...
basics... and new world conquering...
this great... unfamiliar past
of the bleach panther...

       chain-locket and a mirror of
surprise...
about 4 children later...
some variation of first towed along
"love"... my love my love...
the last lesson...
the first at arrived at grievance...
a bismarck: my last loaded:
sq. hope for a miser:
and some... variation...
a hello... a hello... a hello...

                  as best: heaved...
the last... a remnants of...
                        this a wording...
lost: to the autobiography...
of the U-boat captive...
or the panzer-tank... captive...

                confiscating the captives...
of the lesser man...
of the lesser man...
     confiscating the captives...
for all the time in the world...
and all the world...
was... this... time... most... limiting!

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