The day I stopped writing
It was like going through the worst break up I've ever known
My mind goes blank
The pen won't flow
And I have this craving for the feeling of the paper against my skin
And the pencil pressed against it like a passionate kiss
The words pouring out effortlessly
Breathing passion into every inch of me
My heart misses it terribly
By my muse refuses to let us be together
So I ignore the blank pages
Begging me to come back
And hold my tea close to my heart
Because it is the only warmth it feels anymore

I thought people were so naive
As they were saying
"I love you"
In less than a month
So casually, so easily
I thought people were so ridiculous
As they kissed on the street
Parading around
For everyone to see

And yet here you are
All I want to do is kiss you
And in so short of time
I think that I love you

Look at what you made me
Took a serious girl and made her silly

Somewhere along the way
We let ourselves
Get in the way
Forgetting the words
That I needed you to say

So silence beats
Against empty sheets
Like waves against the sand
To remind us
Of what we once had

I couldn't have loved you more
I couldn't have been what you always wanted
I gave all I had to you
I don't know what else to do
Nothing makes sense without you
But nothing is right by your side
Anymore

And you'll look back
And wonder what we were
And I'll look back
And wonder where the years went
Written on our baby's face
All of the tears
All of the pain

So silence beats
Against empty sheets
Like waves against the sand
To remind us
Of what we once had

I couldn't have loved you more
I couldn't have been what you always wanted
I gave all I had to you
I don't know what else to do
Nothing makes sense without you
But nothing is right by your side Anymore

This marks the end
We can't pretend
That love is enough
To hold us together

So silence beats
Against empty sheets
Like waves against the sand
To remind us
Of what we once had

I know we made promises
I vowed my heart to you
Forever were words we said
But even forever
Has an end

I have all this energy
All this love
And no one to pour it into


                                         So why am I am unlovable?
            Because there is too much love inside of me.

You were
                 Wild
                         Intriguing
                                          Unforgettable
My serious disposition
Giggled with joy at your touch
You grabbed my soul with your hand
And took me to faraway places
That haunt my memories
We ran with the stars in our hair and the water beneath our toes
You danced me around the waves like you were a hurricane
You showed me things I never knew
As I held tight to you
There were mysteries in your eyes
That I was desperate to solve
Everyday my heart craves for the adventure that you were
And there are no words that can suffice the emptiness I feel when you are not near

I cannot decide which is worse:

The emptiness that love leaves behind
Or the loneliness of never loving again

I'm not sure how our story will end

But I'll always be your first
And no matter how hard you try
I will never be washed completely from your skin

No matter what happens to us
I find peace in knowing that
However many women might get the privilege of kissing you after me
You'll still have the faintest taste of me on your lips

You'll find me intriguing
You'll find yourself always wondering about me

My eyes will make you think that I already know everything about you
(And I do)
My smile will lie and tell you I'm too innocent to do any harm

I'll make you dizzy with mixed signals
I'll manipulate your lustful desires so you drool at my feet
While I feed you small facts about a tragic past so you can't just be in love with my body

And I'll let you kiss me
Whisper sweet nothings in my ear
I'll hold you close and let our hearts beat in rhythm
And then I'll disappear
You'll wonder forever if I loved you the way you loved me

And the truth is, I did
But I'll never say it out loud

We were standing there
So beautiful and free
We felt things I've only read about in books
I turned for a minute to take in all that was happening to us
And when I turned back you were gone

You disappeared,
So quickly it made me think I had imagined the whole thing

There is not a limited amount of beauty
In which people have unequal amounts

Beauty is not a limited resource
Which only a few get to enjoy

Beauty is what happens when the heart teaches the mind to love the body that encapsulates them

Words don't capture the depth of love I feel for you so I won't even try to explain it; just look into my eyes and then you will see how much there is for you.