I can’t lose anymore
My heart can’t take being broken further
I am barely holding myself together
And i know how devastating  it is when my heart is torn

But I have a feeling the second time will be worse
Because I opened myself to **** I knew would hurt
Because I thought you loved me more then her
But now you can’t even mutter those three words

I feel my heart being torn
When I let my walls down so you could feel more
And told myself you deserved the love even if it made me hurt
But I never thought a day would come you wouldn’t want it anymore

I took the best parts of me and gave them to you
I offered my most precious memories
And displayed my most sacred thoughts too
But you didn’t want to hear anymore

As if The best parts of me
Still aren’t worth a second glance from you
And now I don’t know what to do

Because I can’t lose anymore
I know how devastating it will be when my heart is torn
I don’t wanna go on any further
Because then I won’t have **** to live for

I can’t lose anymore
I don’t know what I will do if I lose anymore

Poemss left unwritten
Words unspoken
I cant keep goin
On like this
You would think i could take hint
My whole life that is all i have given
You followed my trail of bed crumbs
But i cant find yours
I dont want this to be a chore
I dont mean to be a bore
I want you to tell me more
Please that's all i ask
Share with me
As i did with you
At this point im running out of trails
I dont know what to do

How am I here again
How did I let my self slip this low
Feel for somone again
I guess I just have a bad taste in men
I need them abusive and ****
Treat me like your ***** *****
And I'll be begging for more
**** me over
And you couldn't keep me away
I'm trying not to look at your text
But I want to know what you have to say
This cycle of destruction
Keeping me at bay
Telling myself that it will all be okay
But it won't be
And I'm not
Okay

You hurt me
but I don't wanna hurt you
you pushed me down
while I was trying to help you up
you broke me
when all I was trying to do was put you back together
I learned something about people
when you make it to the top of the hill and you try to help them up
all they want to is push you down
but I will still try to help
because one day they will realize
by pushing me down
they are only hurting themselves

There was this girl that I once knew
she was happy
she would laugh at nothing
and she would laugh sincerly
and she always loved tickling
she would sit outside in the snow
just to watch the snow flakes fall
she didnt want to get away at all
she was happy

A girl that I once knew
was where she was meant to be
she was still in her element
she didnt want to be
anyone else
but she

A girl that I once knew
Had dreams
she would imagine the most amazing things
and actually had a couple happen and made people realize
she was amazing

A Girl that I once knew
use to stare back at me in the mirror
now all i can see
is her shaking her head disapointed in me
all i can feel is her gaze telling me im lost now
that im not anything

That girl that you once knew
Is no longer inside of me

Hearts don't lie
But why do I feel as if none of my emotions are true?
Why don't I believe the 'love' I feel for you?
I should hate you
With every fiber of my body I should despise you
Want to rip your sanity to shreds
And keep your heart with the others I've broken
But I can't
Because I need you to be happy
And I hate it
Cause without you I feel as if I'm nothing
And your moving on to better things
And I'm trying to smile for you
But the pain inside me is more than I can control
I'm sorry
But I hate you right now
And I also love you at the same time
So just give me a minute
To blame myself for this wrong
and figure out how to make it right

Hold on to me
As we treat carefully
Through our feelings
I know I say I don't
And I know I push you away
But it's because I love you baby
I love you and I don't want to hurt you
Like I did to her

Heroes always look brighter

when they are surrounded by darkness

I can't sleep
I'm crying to much

I want






I dont know what I want
But I need
I need you

Im the victim of imperfection
The definition of needy
The essence of annoying
And the meaning of depressing

Im not wanted
Needed
Or asked for
This world doesnt fit me
And Loving me is a chore

I am broken
Injured
Cracked
But content at the same time
Plauged with a ****** up state of mind
And the lie that "I'm fine"

I'm ****** up
Annoying
And not of sound mind

So who would ever love me
Im just wasting everyones time

Can't sleep
Can't breathe
Your the only one I need
Heal me
Be me remedy
Mend my broken heart when you speak
Make me feel like the pain is nothing
I can't sleep
I can't breathe
Your the only one I need
Help me
Please

I'm sorry I'm awake right now
I fully regret all of my actions that lead me here
Pacing through my room at 2 or 3 in the morning
Worrying about a girl that doesn't love me
A test I'm not gonna pass
And a God I'm not sure is real anymore
I fully regret being gay
Being an abomination
A stain on this precious earth
I regret getting drunk
Having ***
Getting high
I regret the lies
But most of all I regret the pain
The struggle I put myself and others through
I regret who I was
Who I am
And whatever pile of disappointment  I  will turn out to be
I regret writing this to you
But I wanted to say I'm sorrowful
Because of what I've done to you
And what I will do

People always tell me what I should be
They tell me that I should just be me
but they have an idea of what I should be
I like a lot of things other people like
that doesn't mean I'm not original
I am surrounded by people just like me
so of course we aren't gonna see things differently
and yes we finish our sentences
and I was like this before I met them
I was blessed to be friends them
but now people say I am trying to copy
but all I did was friend people like me
People who liked the same things
and our friendship is amazing
then you come along
all by your self
screaming your original like no one else
and so am I
but I found people I can relate to
I want you to too
because being original is great
but having no friends is not
saying your original and don't give talking to people a second thought
Your clothes aren't comfortable
Your shoes don't fit right
so you are trying to be original and thats not right
I would like to suggest a new saying
instead of saying lets be original
i think we should say
be yourself and path your own way
You can be yourself if the people around you are like you or not
It doesn't matter if your 'original'
you know  there is not that many bands
someone is gonna like the same band as you
that doesn't me your not original
that is just a person you can relate to
so people stop trying to be original
try to be yourself
because i don't think it matters if your like someone else

When the princess got home the King was furious. His screams echoed throughout the kingdom. She broke down and told him about her peasant boy. The King was appalled, “HE IS A MONSTER! HE IS NOTHING COMPARED TO YOUR EVERYTHING!” They were forbidden to speak ever again. When the princess didn't arrive, the peasant boy worried so he went to her room. He saw her screamed at by the furious king and he waited till night to go after his beautiful princess. When night soon came the boy threw pebbles at her window, “My fair princess! Please come down.” He stayed there all night. It wasn't till the sun rose that he lost hope. He slowly made his way back to his barn where he would always remember the night the princess graced his home.

I'm sitting here

Can't focus

Can't think

My hands are shaking

And yet everyone is looking at me to be strong

No crying

Even though my world is fallen apart

No being scared

Nervous

Or being weak

I have to be strong

Stress is eating me alive

Yet I have to act as if it's all good

Head killing me

But it doesn't deserve pain killers

Hunger

But I can't eat

And everyone wants me

To be strong enough for everyone else

And right now

Im about to start shaking

Screaming

Crying

Weeping

But I can't

Because I have to be strong

And everyone wants to know why I'm not smiling

Pick me like a flower
Like there was an entire field of daisies and for some reason you just picked me
In no way am I the most beautiful
But you choose me first
And chose me only

Chose me like a crayon
When your a toddler drawing a picture for mommy
And you just know the sky has to be that shade of......green
In no way am I perfect for you
But you don’t care
And you choose me anyway

Fight for me like I’m favorite food place
And your dad just asked you where you wanted to eat
And they want pizza but you are in love with the Chinese spot right down the street
I’m not cheapest
But I’m worth it

So pick me
Cause you don’t mind mediocre daisies
green skies
Or Chinese food that you know you don’t need

My muse went out to **** my demons
and left me defenseless against the empty
I am hollow almost indefinetly
and I can't mention it
I can't figuratively convey what I am feeling
to get it out
its all stuck inside
until my muse comes back and shows me how
you see I'm useless without her
but she had to go save me
she went to battle my depression
and now I don't feel anything
words lie on my lips
and never really fit into a melody
my muse went off to go **** my demons
but this writers block is killing me

My secrets eat at my soul
at my gut

screaming
ringing in my ears
they want to see the world

and yet I don't want the world to see them

My secrets
I hold them close
and yet the want to go far

My secrets
I don't want anyone to know
and yet people i love always find out

My secrets
I don't want to let them out

My secrets

My secrets

Time goes really fast
dont waste it worrying about me

Why pretend you don't know me
Why pretend at all
You saved more than my life
You know it's true
You gave me me back
Showed me love to
Stayed with me  no matter what I do
Kept me safe with you
Showed me another page
Told me life isn't a game
Made sure I stay
You made me happy
For as long as it last
Why pretend?
You know you saved me

If life is so short why do we do so many things we don’t like
and like so many things we don’t do?
Why don't we take a chance and do what we can
to be more you
people
you aren't opening the doors God puts in your path
you aren't making your time here on earth last
you are just living day to day
so you can support a kid who will grow up ad do the same thing
people you aren't listening
man up
become something
because your clock is ticking
live to the fullest before
your clock stop ringing

Honestly
this is no more than me just getting over you
No more than me just contemplating
And not understand what logic I used
Back when I use to need you

I think it might be over
Even though I haven't been able to be sober
Even though I havent been able to stay focused
Even though I'm bipolar as *
And running out of luck

I think it might be over
Because throughout all this
I havent thought of you
Or what you use to do
I haven't craved your abuse

So I think it might be over
I think it might be done
I no longer dream of our  friendship
Or the mirage of 'love'
And when i see you
I honestly don't give a **

So I hink this might be over
I think
I'm done

I'm really sad right now
But I have no reason to be

Im really anxious right now
And I have no reason to be

Im really craving her right now
And I have no reason to be

I'm alive right now
And I have no reason to be

I don't recognize me
I look in my reflection
Read my thoughts on hello poetry
Who is she?
I don't recognize me
Who am I changing into now?

Days on repeat
the people I see
The songs I sing
The fake smiles people give when they see me
Years on repeat
Birthdays come and go
X's on a calendar
tics and docs from a clock
Then he came along
He changed my view
Opened a door to something new
With new songs
and things to do
Those X's on my calendar
Mark all the fun days I have had with you
Then my fairy tale came to and end
We a group of kids decided to drive
while texting their friends
and now my life is on repeat again.

The sun is rising

the clock is ticking

but you still lay your head like a lamb on a cloud

peacfully

almost as if the. Ti
time  passing. Means  nothing to you

which is ridiculous because you can't  ever be late

but you prove me wrong because right now

you are peaceful

Sticks and stones are ******* bones
they can rip your life apart
Words can sting like anything
But silence breaks the heart.

She doesnt see her own beauty

She doesnt see the perfection in her stride

She doesnt see the plan for her life

She doesnt see how many people would cry if she was gone

She doesnt see me

I'm not friends with her

sadly

I only met her twice

and maybe if i didnt look at her apperance

and if i looked at her eyes

instead of her eyes shadow i would of seen

maybe if i practiced what i preached i would of noticed something

maybe if i wasnt stupid enough

to judge her on her clothes

I would of seen the pain

she was trying to hide

maybe if i didnt spend as much time critecing her lifestyle

I could of seen what her life was like at home

maybe instead of throwing her away

I could of looked in her eyes

Maybe if i wasnt so stupid

I could of seen

the one thing we both hide perfectly

Where have you been all my life
smoking by a river side
getting high
spending the hours on your maac laptop
tweeting about how your family is just getting byw

Where have you been all my life
Trying to clean up the messes other have made
Making a path for your brothers or sisters to take
trying to achieve fame

Where have you been all my life
Looking up **** on internet sites
texting pictures to a girl you just met
hoping that the next one willl be the best
and you will finally have a chance to get rest
becuase nothing is fulling enough to keep you from waking up at night
hoping that was the last time

Where have i been all your life

i have been dieing

What would I do without your smart mouth
drawing me in and you kicking me out
got my head spinning
no kidding
I can't pin you down
my heads under water
but I'm breathing fine
your crazy
and I'm out of my mind
cuz all of me
loves all of you
loves your curves and all your edges
all your perfect imperfections
give your all to me
I'll give my all to you

What about me?
It seems as if everyone keeps moving
and all I am doing is watching
realizing I cant lift my feet

The thrill of being in your arms
The electricity of your skin
Being close to mine
Closer


Closer
Close

The rush of being with her
The loss of time

The sun sets

The wake of realizing
This will never be the same

The pain in her face
When you say you won't raise a babe
"Just **** it, what would you do with a child anyway?"

The guilt that eats you from the inside
To this day

All because one night impulse had it's way

Just hold on I'm coming home
Sorry I couldn't pick up the phone
I know I shouldn't of left her alone
Mom do you think I don't know
I'm sorry what do you want me to do
Yes mom I'm running
No I'm not crying it's hard for me to breathe
Yes I know she left you mom
She left me too
I know it's all my faults she's gone
What do you want me to do
I can't bring her back
I'm almost home
It won't be long
Wait for me cut the cake
For my sister who is *gone

I am looking around this car

at my mom

my sister

my father

and no matter how much I complain

I am realizing how much I really love my family

Every thing hurts me
It kills my soul every time I speak
I open my eyes but I can't see
The light screams at me
Stop please
I can't think
I can't be
I don't want to try
I'm gonna die
I don't wanna fly
I want to sink
Drown in a sea of pain
Where nothing can hurt me
No thing can hurt me
Everything hurts me
Everything hurts me
It hurts to be
I'm dieing on the inside
And this pain is killing me

She paints a lovely picture
But this art work has a twist
The paint brush is a razor
And the canvas is her wrist