I'm a peculiar chaos,
I'll keep you on your toes,
But who's to say
we won't create an adventure

In 17 years I've learned
nothing is fair,
any shrivel of happiness will be taken,
not just taken, it'll be ripped out
of your hands.
In 17 years I've learned
no one wants to help
unless they get something,
someone is always waiting to
knock you off the podium,
and parents are the first
to take your dreams.
In 17 years I've learned
that I don't want to be here
so much so I want to scream.

I tried and tried
for so long.  
Suddenly
I was exhausted.
My mind growing weary,
I decided that my
time had come.

You're inside me,
like a disease.
You tangle through my veins,
unwilling to put my mind to ease.
I beg of you to loosen the reins,
just let go of me and take the pain please.
You have taken place as my cane,
but you've pushed me to leave.
I beg of you to loosen the reins,
But you are my fatal disease.

Ahead of me are storm clouds gathering.
Gathering violently.
I can't escape this each time.
My time to leave.
My time to run,
I'm sorry I just can't outrun it this time.
But in the nic of time,
I get swept up.
There's no way to get out of it now.
These storm clouds are of a different variety.
Ones full of different emotions.
Ones full of hate.
No matter how hard you try,
You can't outrun family.

You lie to me
but call me a friend
You lie to her
and call her a friend
Friends don't lie,
pal.
Something trivial
Something dumb
Another lie
slips your tongue
Why do you fib?
Why do you pretend?
What is the truth
Do you even trust us?
I've known you for years
but yet
I'm
not good enough
for you
to tell the truth to