Revenant: Favorites

Jun 2014 Revenant

Your Heart

Jun 2014 Revenant

skyler molina

Forget what you know,

Free your mind of all existing teachings & memories,

Think of all of the things that you've been too scared to think of or to say out loud,

Now refer back to those thoughts as you think of this idea:

What if,

The world is simply your heart,

&

The things that can break your heart are the things that are also keeping it alive,

Oxygen & other human beings.

Now what if I told you that the world only needed 3 things to survive:
Oxygen,
Water,
&
Your heart.

Now believe that.
Take it into full consideration of those things.

The world is now closing in, just like your heart was that night he (for some reason) never picked you up from your house & never again answered any of your phone calls.

Ask yourself what you did after that night that kept you alive on this earth.

I mean, all odds were against you.

Everyone expected you to close in from the lack of oxygen the bonsai tree on your desk was giving you & from all the non-existent human interaction that you were getting, that only he used to provide for you.

But you realize that you are still here.
Just like the earth.
With a fully mended heart,
With ribs that are filled to the brim with air,
& a smile that could **** the bacteria that has been fondling your thoughts for the last 8 months or so.

I'm not trying to state the obvious fact that "life goes on, so don't give up."

No.

I'm trying to say that even when all the oxygen in the earth is evaporating to nothing,
&
the water has turned into oceans of tears,
&
your heart is filled with the fear of never feeling back to full normality ever again;
The world still spins, because it knows that because of the continuation of it's rotation, it makes the humans that inhabit it, live on happily,
even if the world knows that it itself cannot;
&
The same goes for you my dear;
Even after your ribs get rusty,
&
Your eyes become a desert,
&
Your heart turns into a metaphor for death;
Everyone needs you to keep on spinning,
for them;
even when you feel like you yourself cannot.

In conclusion, my point is:
For the sake of humanity,
Don't give up.

May 2014 Revenant

Death is Just Another Word for Death

May 2014 Revenant

skyler molina

Death is Just Another Word for Death

I can't lay in my own bed without thinking about the fact that you've died there multiple times;
Your heart lays softly there next to me but you are nowhere to be found;
But that's okay,
Because love isn't an excuse,
&
it definitely isn't a reason to keep someone alive longer than what they're asking for.

Bottom line, we're both dead now (to each other), & I don't see any shining light, or higher power guiding me through any golden gates;
I see memories of all of the times we said goodbye but were still walking towards each other,
I see memories of all the times we got lost in the late night drives & subconsciously memorized the bumps of the roads,
I see memories of all the times you swore to me that you loved me (but everything was a lie),
I see memories of us dying together but it wasn't as beautiful as I thought it would be, instead it was painful, regretful, & so sudden it caught me off guard at the worst of times.

Death has come for us both,
but i'm still sitting here writing this about you,
& you're still somewhere else moving on from me.

May 2014 Revenant

An Astronaut Removing His Helmet

May 2014 Revenant

Daniel Samuelson

An Astronaut Removing His Helmet

A final inhalation, farewell to oxygen
submitting to oblivion
a conscious lack of everything.
The very absence of air, sickening and
desolate, destitute, despairing
tearing at my aching lungs,
my vacant mind.
Call me a vagabond, a wanderer
entrapped in the extrasensory.

My breath escapes.

The empty core within myself rings in tune with the extant and extinct.
Neck arching, mouth agape
a single note transcends my lips of stone
unadulterated, unwavering, a melodious sound
building and joining in harmony to create a symphony of
life, of
death, of
everything we cannot comprehend.
Sonorous and assonant
my soul cries out
at ever-growing volumes.
My eyes begin to flicker and fade away.

God, can You hear my screams in space
in this vacuum, void of sound?

The final thoughts of an astronaut removing his helmet while in space. Inspired by and written to a track called Suicide by Star by post-rock group God is an Astronaut. The band name, oddly enough, didn't influence this poem at all. Didn't think of it. Seems fitting, though. Check it out.

I think I'm gonna be off HP for a little while, but I'll definitely be back. Just not feeling super inspired lately. This has been a great community and I've truly enjoyed it, though. Thanks to all of you, especially Daniel Lockerbie. You are a rad man.

Farewell, friends! Until next time! (which, knowing me, won't be long).

#death #space #astronaut #ekphrastic

May 2014 Revenant

How to experience death without actually dying:

May 2014 Revenant

skyler molina

How to experience death without actually dying:

Step 1: Kiss her, hard.
Step 2: Let her swim through your body and feel her fingernails accidentally chip a piece of your heart off.
Step 3: Do anything and everything that absolutely terrifies you, then do these things again, with her this time.
Step 4: Climb a mountain, then write her a letter once you reach the top; spill your guts out onto that piece of paper and watch as the snowflakes turn into words and -27 degrees turns into excruciating emotions.
Step 5: Realize that death is just another form of telling her that she's beautiful & listening to her sing in the car & watching her graduate from the school we call life & letting her run her sandy toes through your leg hair.
Step 6: Jump off of a cliff made of her memories, then sink to the bottom of that ocean which is filled with contaminated smiles and laughs that you haven't seen or felt in ages.
Step 7: Congratulate her on her new job and marriage.
Step 8: Give her newborn son a big hug, for the both of you; knowing in the back of your mind, that should of been your little boy to give kisses to on all the boo-boos and scratches he gets.
Step 9: Accidentally see her across the park, jogging (so beautifully if I might add), and walk in the opposite direction.
Step 10: Keep on living, without her.

May 2014 Revenant

The Deep End

May 2014 Revenant

skyler molina

The Deep End

I tried to tell you how it always never ends,
I tried to tell you what it always feels like;
Never push you, never pull you,
Never bend;
Cleaning up my act, yet never feeling spotless,
Draining my thoughts yet still so anxious,
Pulling all of my hair out yet still feel so beautiful,
Calming my nerves yet still jumping into the deep end;
The one thing i've been good at all my life was knowing for a fact that you were meant for me, but I will always and forever be a random bystander as you pass the local coffee shop at 7:36 a.m. on your way to work; but i'm okay with that, because at least I know that i'm breathing the same air as you, & maybe we even swim in the same ocean water every now & then, & hopefully step on the same cement patterns twice in a lifetime.
I would be an idiot to not live the rest of my life with you.
I would be an idiot to let you go so effortlessly.
I would be an idiot to watch you hold someone else's hand on your way out of your apartment, and not say or do anything about it.
I would be an idiot to write this knowingly that you will, for a fact, see it.
But i'm not an idiot, i'm a man with no more hair, and anxious thoughts, and nerves that act up way too often.