i came back here to delete my poems
but
words don't just
disappear
like
that

you know?

it has become worse now
that i have memorized
your presence and

(argh this is frustrating honestly you are akin to poison)

if only i could de-exist
and uncomprehend this
unfounded
fondness for you

(oh no i do not, i cannot be feeling this way)
(oh God please cure me)

I WANT TO BE A ROCK
ROLLED OFF
THE EDGE
OF A CLIFF

its hard to be human

seemingly loyal,
there's no room for betrayal.
acquainted ones won't harm
and there's those with charm
- but here lies the danger
when words become your stranger

O Love, O pure deep Love, be here, be now,
Be all – worlds dissolve into your
       stainless endless radiance,
Frail living leaves burn with your brighter
        than cold stares –
Make me your servant, your breath, your core.