and in the light of eternity, does this really matter?
*no, no it doesn't.

and I wondered if you could feel my pain, but then I remembered that it's probably masked by the lust that suffocates your mind.

and we all have watches, but never enough time.

and all I need is physical affection to make things a little better. Come hold my hand, or better yet, just come and hold me. It makes everything a little bit better, a little bit easier.

are you depressed?
*no, I'm fine.

and I wonder if you feel it too.

and everything feels completely pointless, but everything's fine, I promise.

and the only thing I ever should've bought you was a tombstone and a place 6 feet under.

and I don't just want to be a temptation and I most certainly do not want to be owned.

Am I selfish for wanting to take care of myself more than anyone else right now?

and it's hard to be sad about someone who never really mattered.

and I wish to be no one else's but His own.

and it's time to let go of these feelings, too.

and with you, the world stops, but I can't stop. *I can't stop.

and you're absolutely beautiful, but you already knew that.

I am so sorry for what I have done to you.
From the on and off starving,
and to the horrible food I eat,
and even all the way back to a year ago
when I tried my hardest to cut open my veins.
I would like to apologize to my body,
Because I know I'm worth so much more than that.
I'm beautiful,
And it's about time for me to treat myself
like I am.

and yet somehow, I still feel powerful.

and I want to whisper your name against your neck, but would you let me?

and I find it funny that I didn't notice that you blocked me until he asked me if I had checked on you lately. I haven't.

and I'm very bold, very bold indeed.

and she said she saw something different in my eyes, some kind of boldness that has never been there before. And I wouldn't disagree at all. Something feels different. I just can't quite put my finger on it...

and I hate the way I tend to overstep boundaries, it's yet another thing I have to learn

and if I asked you to come, would you?

and I wish that I could say that seeing that bothered me, but I guess I'm just too occupied with other things...other people.

and you tempt me, but I don't know

Yeah!
His presence, His love,
Is so thick and tangible in this room tonight.
And there are some of you here that have not encountered the love of God.
And tonight God wants to encounter you.
And wants you to feel His love.
His amazing love.
Without it these are just songs,
These are just words,
These are just instruments.
Without the love of God, it's just like we're just up here just making noise.
But the love of God changes us,
And we're never the same,
We're never the same,
After we encounter the love of God
We're never the same after we encounter the love of God!
And right now if you haven't encountered the love of God,
And you would know,
Because you wouldn't be the same.
You would never be the same again.
And if you, if you, want to encounter the love of God right now,
You better just brace yourself because He's about to just blow in this place!
And we're gonna encounter the love of God right now!
So God, I speak to all the hearts
And I ask God that every heart be open right now,
Every heart be open.
Every spirit be opened up!
To you God, To You!
And a love encounter--
A love encounter from you tonight!
A love encounter from you tonight God!

and it's getting cold, baby, I want your hot hands on me.

and I love his enthusiasm. I never appreciated him until now.

and you have me giggling like a little girl and smiling till I cannot smile anymore.

and I sure as hell love midnight thoughts sometimes, because they can be so **** enticing.

and he knows exactly the way to make me smile, *its not that hard.

and you just gotta start making the moves and start to remove that brick from off of your chest and onto something worth making a foundation on.

and there are times when it seems like things are falling apart, when really they are just falling into place.

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

one day I will not associate even the most minuscule of things with you, like the date or what I eat or even words. I believe that this truly is something to look forward to, because I simply cannot handle the pain of it anymore.

and I know I wasn't meant for this time. But neither were you.

and finally, it's time to *learn

It's time to say goodbye.
All I want is silence.
I think it is for the best,
and so do they.
Go on and live your life,
and I'll live mine too.
If the stars wish for us to meet again,
then we will.
But I will not keep playing this game anymore,
So this is goodbye.

and I expected nothing more and nothing less of you

and eyes are windows to our souls, where did the desire to know yours go?

I woke up feeling fresh and renewed, because I know He has a plan for me.

I don't understand why you can say things and have no consequences, but the second I say something it becomes WWIII?

you calm my heart and remind me of who I am

and how could someone so beautiful be so ugly?

love those who do not put anxiety in your heart

looking and saying are very different things
you may be able to do one, but certainly not the other

Do you remember how I wrote some letters to you for different things?
like "for when you're feeling sad" and "for when you miss me" etc?
I kept one of them, because I never really entertained the thought of you leaving. I also thought it was ridiculous to think that one day you might not love me anymore. But I wrote it, and I kept it, and I keep reading it over and over again. How stupid could I be to think that you could've stayed?

you may have stolen them, but I have new ones now that are completely mine.

and last night I finally dreamed for the first time in a long time. and it was completely wonderful.