I'm afraid to ask anyone to stay now, because humans are fickle beings. We all eventually leave, it's in our very nature.

Can you feel it too?

You're lucky, at least you have someone. Most of us have no one at all.

And how is it fair that so much love is being lost? *How is it right?

I USED TO NEVER NEED A GPS TO FIND THE GOOD IN YOU, BUT AS OF LATE, I HAVE BEEN GRASPING AT EVERY MAP THAT I CAN FIND.

a few days ago
someone decided to go and repost an old poem about you
and it had been a long time since I had even thought of that day
but, I guess since I've been thinking about it,
I may as well write about it.

I had reserved the night for us, and sadly my sister tagged along.
It was still so wonderful though, it truly was.
You drank your first tea that night, i had been your first for many things.
And we wanted to figure out the mystery, to discover the clues.
But it was so hard to think of anything other than you.
Your hair was incredibly straight, flowing beautifully past your angelic shoulders.
Your eyes were covered with a black shimmering powder, and you looked so enticing.
You laughed so beautifully, everything you did was beautiful.
You wore a black skirt, a black camisole, and a see through shirt with lace. Yes, i still remember.
I don't really know how I remember, but I guess memories start to come back when you least expect them to.
Your smile that night was stunning, as per usual.
And you made me realize that night just how beautiful I truly was.
I remember making love to you that night, it was sweet and quick and we were exhausted. It was full of sloppy kisses and masked moans and pants. We laughed a bit, because we really weren't in the mood. But the cuddling we did afterwards, now that is something I'll truly never forget. I loved the way my hand always seemed to fit perfectly in the space between your hip and stomach, like we were missing puzzle pieces.
and I remember realizing that I was falling for you all over again that night. But with falling, comes crashing. And I truly made that painfully clear in the few weeks to follow.
"Your lips touched the cup gracefully, just like they when they kiss my lips. And my heart grew immensely when I realized I was falling in love with you all over again."
I miss those lips of yours sometimes. They always knew when I was in need of you. Do they still know? Can they still tell? Probably not.
44 weeks ago, we went on this date. And 41 weeks ago, I did something so awful that I still have a hard time conjuring up the words to describe it. I am truly sorry for what I did, please understand.
"I applaud you, darling, for making everything I do and live for seem so important... And for loving me while I fall in love with you
over and over again."
I guess it's easy to forget when you have someone new, right?
I never thought you'd be the first to break my heart, though.

some words are better left unsaid, so you should probably keep your mouth shut.

I hate this feeling of being "in-between".
But I also hate my constant state of highs and low,
so I guess this is better than that.

i only trust a few. not you, not you, and most certainly not you.

I am **burning

and I am truly sorry, my dear. If there is anything I can do to help, please do not hesitate to ask. I love you.

and I've always been obsessed with immortality,
but the thought of it now sort of sickens me.
why would I want to feel this pain forever?
why would I want to watch everyone around me die
while I continue to live?
and for what would I live for?
what would I do?
why have I been so obsessed with an immortal body
when I can't even keep you?

Where did you come from?

If you genuinely believe sexuality is a choice, then you're not actually straight, you just haven't met anyone persuasive enough yet.

It's just another low again, I promise I'll be fine.
Hopefully I'll swallow the right amount of pills this time.

I asked him to take me away,
let's go around the world, you and I.
It would be wonderful, I promise.
We could hold hands under the stars,
And talk all night long.
And you could tell me the darkness
That lies behind your deep blue eyes.
There would be nothing to stop us now,
We would only be slaves to time,
But even then we wouldn't be.
For we would have all the time in the world,
To understand each other fully.

one half of me says, "**** yourself", but then the other says, "I'm already dead".

yeah, me neither.

And I dont want your past, for I can barely take my own.

and I throw up because the pain is too much to bare, please spare me, please spare me.

and all sins are the same in the sight of God, but all sins have different kinds of consequences.

"you can't just say bye and knock on the door again, that's not how it works."

And if you're not willing to stay, then just leave now.

I love you, but I'm not in love with you. **There is a difference.

Did you forget
That I was even alive?
Did you forget
Everything we ever had?
Did you forget?
Did you forget
About me?

Did you regret (did you regret)
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget (did you forget)
What we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand?
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
Please don't forget us

Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us
(Don't forget)

there
      are
          just
                    a

                    bunch
                                of

                                   broken strings
                            

                                   all

                  around
**me

And I am ******* tired of allowing people to walk all over me, and deciding when I'm not good enough anymore. If anybody wants to leave, ******* do it. I'm sick of the *******, I will not allow myself to be treated like a door mat that you can rub your **** on. I am so much more than that.

Oh! Darling, please believe me
I'll never do you no harm
Believe me when I tell you
I'll never do you no harm

Oh! Darling, if you leave me
I'll never make it alone
Believe me when I thank you, ooo
Don't ever leave me alone

When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and cried
When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and died

Oh! Darling, if you leave me
I'll never make it alone
Believe me when I tell you
I'll never do you no harm
Believe me darling

When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and cried
When you told me
You didn't need me anymore
Well you know I nearly broke down and died

Oh! Darling, please believe me
I'll never let you down
Oh, believe me darling
Believe me when I tell you, ooo
I'll never do you no harm

and since you've left me, I'm so alone.

And I didn't want to be a flower, I wanted to be a ****. I wanted to always been in your heart, so that whenever you decided to pluck me out, I would come right back and infest your whole self with me over and over again.

I am slowly, but surely growing.
Everyday I wake up, take my shower,
brush my teeth, and I grow.
I get dressed, drive to school,
Go to my first class, and I grow.
I take notes, I try my best to listen,
I write down my homework, and I grow.
I hug my friends, I see her in the hallway,
I laugh at a dumb joke, and I grow.
I eat sometimes, I hold my friends hand,
I feel at home in his embrace, and I grow.
And then I go back to my house, and I rewatch Pride and Prejudice,
And I FaceTime him every night, and I grow.
I am learning and growing more and more every day,
And sometimes I fall... But I'm learning how to pick myself back up again.
I think that's one of the most important things you can learn about growth.
Even the most beautiful flowers need to be cut, so that in the spring they can grow again.

I cannot sleep, *where did you go?

and I don't need you, I don't need you, I don't need you, but I still want you

and I want to travel far away, because then maybe I'll be able get you out of my head as I get out of my own.

and I haven't left my bed all day, my heart hurts too much to even think about it.

and 62 weeks ago was the start of my life, but 10 weeks ago was the end of it.

and last night was one of the best nights in my entire  life. I've never felt so unstoppable and confident before. I felt happy.

and despite your faults, I fall more and more for you every single day.

and it was when we were starting to lose each other that I started to find myself.

and I realized that I didn't need a last dance with you. you never gave me one in the first place. All I ever truly needed was myself.

and I want to feel your lips on mine; they're so divine, *so divine

and I wonder why my name crossed your lips out of nowhere?