cruel
     confusing
rude
   how the clouds
remained
         beautiful,
how
          the ***** of a world
kept turning tricks;

How the sun
     so dreadfully
seemed to keep
         interrupting
my dread,

But,
         I kept on crying!
covering my head,
          in shame
of a promise
          not kept.

Tomorrow..
I'm braking all over again,
Crying my eyes out,
Crying to sleep,
Tomorrow,
Not feeling alive,
Because I realize,
Where are you?
Not here living,
With me,
Devin,
Why did you leave,
I can't take this pain,
I'm braking,
Ugh..

i fell for u more then most
the feelings that i have are no longer ghosts
once i confessed my love for u
i  finally found out if u felt it too
u told me u loved me but that was wrong
when i woke up all ur stuff was gone
i cried until i had no tears
and i realized that losing u was my biggest fear
and now there is nothing but darkness in my mind
and all i am now is someone who hides

roses are red
violets are blue
but the colors are fading
and so are u
every day u fade a little more
and when u finally leave
your blood is stained on my floor
from your wrist and mine stained forever
the scars on my arms remind me
of all the memories  
with the thoughts of u in mind
i realize that i cant survive
i put that rope around my neck
i finally take my last breath
a letter i have left  on my bed
saying i have killed myself to be with u
i hope now u can say u love me too

I use
to have a solution to
any feeling I had

your love
acohol
blades

and everything's gone

and I sit here
thinking about my addictions

and oh how easy
it could be for me
to slip back
into old me

she's been gone
for almost a year

she's in my mind
yelling at me
saying
"dear god get me the hell out of here"
begging me
to let her be free

Your heart beat is my Bass, beating and giving rythm to my life

Each breath you take is my melody, the life of my life song

Your cologne is my harmony, calming to my soul

Your touch is my piano, playing a soft tune amongst my skin      

Your eyes my voice, as I sing along to your enchanting song of love

Your kiss is the cresendo, building up to the height of our love song

You make love to me at the peak of our daily song.
Your good bye, the end of our song. As you return to your life
And I... I sit and wait for us to make a duet again

i cant take it
all i think about is you
how you made me happy
how you made me  cry
how you made me sad
how you made me mad
how you made me feel  
our cute little conversation replay in my head
i see you every time i close my eyes  
i think about how you look, smile, laugh ,cry,
your always on my mind
i just want you to leave because your the one causing me not sleep

School makes me sick,
You get up and get dressed,
In the clothes you think someone there will like,
You get up and do your makeup,
So people say you're pretty,
But that's not you,
That's you're makeup,
School makes me sick,
You get up and do you're hair,
Hoping someone will realize it looks different,
School makes me sick,
You don't  eat because no one can see you,
You have to hide your cuts,
Who and what you love,
School makes me sick,
Popular people,
Lame people,
Rich people,
Poor people,
Freaks,
Cute people,
School makes me sick.