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Pink Halverson Jan 2010
Why do I expect you to do what you say?
Why do I expect at all?
Because I think to turn off expectations
Would be to turn off all care for anything
So when you forget
Or blow off
Or make other plans
I still get hurt
Over and over and over
Go to your party
Go do your ****
I'll be at home
Bawling my eyes out.
Pink Halverson Jan 2010
Honestly, you're the luckiest person I've ever met
You found this girl
Who would do anything for you
So much that
You don't have to do
Anything for her.
And when you can't deal
You can just walk away
And leave her to deal with
Her own problems
You have your highs
You have a good time
Ignore life
But still gain the benefits.
You never have to compromise
Anything for anybody
And you can blame it all on yourself
But not feel the sting
Of being something low.
You don't have to care about anything.
Leave her to deal with it.
Pink Halverson Jan 2010
Can you deal with the fake happiness,
Every day a lie?
Pretending this is all you want,
Get by with every high?
Don't expect anything
And if you must, expect the least.
You got so used to being treated so well
Compared to that, this is hell.
Going from someone who wanted all his time with you
To someone who seems like he's got better things to do
Is depressing.
You always expect
So much
But is asking to get back in return what you give
Too much?
Are your expectations
Never to be fulfilled?

You thought it might make you a happier person
But only for a while
Having to sign up for a time slot,
Having no room to smile

Life will never be what you want.
Get over it.
Pink Halverson Jan 2010
There's no bad time's a comin
There's no darkness to dread
For the darkness has set upon you, my child
And it will never end.
The pain will never end.
- From Evolution
Pink Halverson Jan 2010
You said you would always be there to catch me
Whenever I fell
Well where are you now
When I'm falling so far?
Where are you now
When I'm falling
without you?
You said to not stress about anything
To let you worry for me
Then why did you unload
All this pain onto me
Where are you while I am worrying?
Pink Halverson Jan 2010
Last night was very hard for me
My brain was buzzing
Racing, running
With every thought it could think of you
With every dream it could dream of you
I guess it hasn't gotten the memo yet
You left me
It knows how much I longed for you
But it's a little too late
I no longer want to think of you
It hurts
But it seems like you're the only thing it can think of
So much that I can't think
Of anything else worth thinking about
Kept up half the night
My own mind driving me crazy
With pain
And tears
And "how could you do this?"

Somebody gave it a late notice
Cause I'm way over that phase
I don't want to think about you
I don't want to dream about you

They are the muddiest thoughts
And the clearest dreams
I have
Ever had.
Pink Halverson Jan 2010
I cannot get a grip upon
Who I used to be
Why'd you have to go do a thing like that?
I am so confused
As to why you thought
You were better with me gone
Why couldn't you tell me the truth?

Why would you say all of those things
of forever and promise and love
Up until the very last day
Why would you say those things
When you thought almost everyday of breaking me?

"I'll always be there for you"
How could you say that
Just as you were letting me go,
Pushing me away?
When you weren't at the very time??
Is she that much better?
What makes her so when you told me I was perfect?

But that is a lie.
And you knew it from the very start.
The first time I irritated you or hurt your feelings
How could you do something like that
To someone you truly loved?
You couldn't.

If some things were lies
Who's to say others weren't as well
Who's to say all were not?

How could you lie
As simply as that
Or did you simply just not know?
How could you leave
As simply as that
Or did you simply just not care?
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