Philia

Philia Aug 2016

Free Falling.

Falling for you is like free falling.

I couldn't help it,
I couldn't control it.

I don't wanna stop.

Philia Aug 2016

A good kisser.

When he kissed her lips,
"You're a good kisser", he said.

Doesn't he know
That she's a great lover too?

Philia Aug 2016

Autumn.

If I ever pray to God,
it is you who I've been asking for.
I'm not saying that you are perfect,
but you are the perfect fit for me.
I admire you as a person, not because of your looks,
nor your talents.
I admire your heart. I admire your thoughts.

If I ever pray to God,
I'm not asking for a Prince Charming,
I'm not a damsel in distress.
I don't need someone who will save me from danger.
But I'm asking Him for a company.
I want a good companion,
I don't crave for it. I don't mind to be alone.
But I want someone who I can spend my time with.
Someone who understands me and my peculiar habits.
Someone who won't judge. Someone who listens.
Someone who I can count on.

If I ever pray to God,
I'm not asking for a smooth sailing.
I'm asking for endurance. I'm asking for perseverance.
I know this relationship would be hard. as hell.
I don't crave for status. But I need to know where am I.
I cannot be floating in the middle of the sea without any certainty.

If I ever pray to God,
I'm not asking for a happy ending.
I don't expect myself to be falling this deep for someone.
I don't think that I would love this hard again, after everything that happened before.
But falling for you, I can't help it.
You are the one that I think is enough. You are the whole package.
Finally, I feel that talking to one person is enough.

I'm seeing myself like seasons.
Change every certain month, change whenever I want.
But you are my autumn. my comfort. my favorite season.
and I want to spend it my whole life.
I'm not easy to bear with. But you are the one that makes me love again.
You are the one that I know, I want.
Stay. Please.
Even when the circumstances don't let us be together,
at least I've tried to be your best. at least we've tried.

If I ever pray to God,
*it is you who I've been asking for.

Philia Aug 2016

All I ever know.

I don't know whether it is the empty street,
Or the empty heart,
That makes me feel so lonely.

I don't know whether it is the cold wind,
Or the uncertainty,
That makes me feel so dizzy.

I don't know whether it is the rainy days,
Or this pain in my heart,
That makes me feel so cold.

All I ever know is I love you.
& that's the only thing that matters right now.

Philia Aug 2016

He kissed her.

He kissed her hand,
She never knew that it would make her feel like a princess in a god-**** fairytale.

He kissed her forehead,
She never knew that it would make her feel so loved.

He kissed her cheek,*
She never knew that she would be falling this hard for him.

Philia Aug 2016

Disclaimer.

Dear you,
If someday you finally open my page,
and found a bunch of poems that I wrote about you,
Please don't mad.
I really don't want you to read these crap,
I tried to change my username and web address; but still, can't.

Dear you,
If someday you finally read all of my feelings, all of my hopeless poems;
leave it there.
Try not to talk about it; try not to question me about it.
leave it there.
Pretend that you didn't read any of those;
Pretend that you didn't try to search my name on google.
leave it there.

Dear you,
but my feelings are true.
all of my poems are about you,
*but please leave it there.

Philia Aug 2016

Acceptance.

She can finally accept the fact that love doesn't mean you have to have that person.
She can finally understand the fact that love is about letting someone go for their happiness.

& she is finally realized that she would be very happy and relieved when finally, he is happy with someone he loves.

As simple as that.