i lie on the wet grass as i pick at the flower petals
he loves me
your loving eyes stare back at me as i gaze back into your eyes
he loves me not
you yelled at me saying that i wasn't perfect
he loves me
your sweet words always cheered me up
he loves me not
you told me to stop seeing you
he loves me
you told me you loved me
he loves me not
you said it was all a game
he loves me
you promised me you would never leave

he loves me not
*you left saying you would be back

you're losing interest in me

and I'm losing everything

there are 6 billion people in the world
                  6  ******* billion

of those there is at least one for you.
    maybe you’ll meet them in a quaint, coffee shop
         or your favorite book store.

no matter, what, there is someone

                                                              o­ut there

l o o k i n g   for   y o u.

just like you are  l o o k i n g   for   y o u.

​
you said you’d always be here

we are masters of the unsaid words, but slaves of those we let slip out.  
we are prisoners of our minds
with no escape but the inevitable death
we live in the land of misfits
we’re surrounded by a bundle of tantrums
you didn't fix me, you just changed the part of me that is broken.

we held hands
and
the night was dark

"come and waste time with me"

don't fall in love with the person who will ignite a fire within you and then ignore how badly it burns you

one of the best feelings in the world is when you hug someone you love, and they hug you back even tighter

"humans have a
*knack for choosing
precisely the things
that are the worst for
           *them."

without you

i get so scared

its hard because i thought we had an hourglass
and it was half        *******       full and then you
said ****  it  and  threw  it  at  the wall and i look
back  through texts               and it wasn't slowly
falling apart it  all  went  wrong  in        one night
one phone call    one goodbye and it's gone. the
sand's   all  over  the  floor  and  there's     blood
dripping down my thigh and whos gonna hug me
while i cry it's not  okay that it happened like this.

but what happens
when your heart is shattered into a million pieces?

"how stupid of me; to think i was the only flower in your garden"

SOMEONE ASKED ME TO DESCRIBE
HOME AND I ALMOST SAID YOUR NAME
BUT I STAYED QUIET INSTEAD, PEOPLE
EXPECT YOU TO SAY A **** PLACE
BUT I FELT MORE HOME IN YOUR TWO
ARMS THAN I EVER IN MY OWN HOUSE

it is such
a sad thing
to see
when a girl
falls in love
with the words
he says
rather than
the actions
he makes

i swim through the
sea of tears that i
cried over you

every word you had
told me drags me down
into the ocean, drowning
me into the deep blue sea.

take my hand

alone in my head,
i'm feeling so low.

you won't understand,
no one can know.

​
save me from myself
because i am slowly
but surely
killing myself
from the inside out
these thoughts, are so overwhelming
that living is frustrating and maddening.
but what hurts
is when you go tell someone your
feelings
they tell you, that your depression
is a “phase”
it’s not
I’m ugly, i hate myself
and unfortunately
i want to die

.


you still dream about
the people lost in your memory,
fabricated by your nostalgia
and romanticised by your
broken heart.

​
now its just too late to turn around
i try to forgive you but i struggle
cause i don’t know how
built it up so high and now I’m falling
its a long way down

ah dreams,
those luminous meteors
    that light the night skies

of our consciousness
   their own reality.

funerals are not for the dead
      but instead are for the living

​
if i showed you my teardrops
would you collect them like rain
store them in jars,
that are labelled with “pain”
would you follow their tracks
from my eyes down my cheeks
as they write all their stories
I’m too scared to speak,
would you stop them with kisses
bring their flow to a halt
as you teach me that pain
isn’t always my fault
would you hold my face gently
as you dry both eyes
and whisper the words
“you’re too precious to cry”
if i should you my teardrops
would you show me your own,
and learn though we’re lonely,
we’re never alone.

YOU NEVER
CHANGE THINGS
BY FIGHTING THE
EXISTING REALITY.
TO CHANGE
SOMETHING, BUILD
A NEW MODEL THAT
MAKES THE
EXISTING
MODEL
OBSOLETE

he had painted me with rich colours,
outlined me with a defined black line,
he completed me and made me a

*beautiful painting

YOU ASKED ABOUT MY FUTURE I
SAID I HAVENT GOT A CLUE BUT I
JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO SAY
THAT REALLY MY FUTURE HOPE
IS YOU

The darkness was suffocating and sung of extremities that could only belong in a sociopath’s mind. It was quite, too quite. The entire world was standing by, awaiting for the ruthless minds of the corrupted youth to experience the ****** taste of demise.

i cant get over
how our first meeting
was a head on collision
and our final division
was a tear soaked shirt
and a too tight hug

nothing haunts us like
the things we don't say

we're all

****** up

l i k e

you just sort of exist

but you don't really

*mean

i don’t seem to be
having any effect
now falling all
over the place

​
Now we’re lost somewhere in outer space
and I don’t know how to go home

.
.                     ▶︎ 　you loving me
.                    ・　you needing me

f u till i f u
again

you are not an artist you just have big emotions

damsel in distress

where's my knight in shining armour?

theres just something about
when a guy drops you off at home
and he waits in the driveway
to make sure you get in safely.