damsel in distress

where's my knight in shining armour?

the time when we were most happy, our glory days
with the people surrounding me

there was something…
like we didn’t want this moment to end
and wished that this happiness will never end
it was one of those days

grab a plate and throw it on the ground

       - okay, done.

did it break?

       - yes.

now say sorry to it.

       - sorry.

did it go back to the way it was before?

       - no.

do you understand?

the sea is the only creation
that can feel

(s) empathy
(e) apathy, and
(a) pathy

all at once

a beautiful contradiction

waste any amount of time doing anything important when there is a sunset outside that you should be sitting under.

​
it carves into my hollow chest,
and spreads over the emptiness

smeared lipstick
frozen time
broken glass
dry tears

lost chance
wandering eyes
scattered mind
empty bottle

pain unfolds
flailing arms
hungry heart

no tomorrow
hopeless hoping
come back
to me

my only wish:
that you would
think of me
when i think
of you.

​
kiss me on the mouth,
and set me free,
sing me like a choir,
i can be the subject,
in your dreams.
a sickening desire,
dont you wanna see,
a man up close.
a phoenix in the fire.
kiss me on the mouth,
and set me free,
please don't bite.

the world is full of monsters with friendly faces

i spend most nights at home falling in love with the idea of you

i welcome death with open arms

Nothing lives long
Only the earth and mountains

they call me crybaby
                      crybaby

keep

telling

me

let me drown in the rain,
i hear the droplets hitting the roof
calling my name

so small and insignificant,
each drop is, just like myself
but together, thousands of drops
come together and create a storm

but for me, i only have myself
and my thoughts
that terrorise my dreams

so let me drown in the rain
and perhaps bring me to a new horizon,
or end my pain.

“memory taps a gun to your inner skull & demands you bring back the dead”

remember the dance on saturday?

i wore a red dress
  wore makeup
  wore my best smile

for you.

i danced with my friends
  tried to act cool
  danced some more

and i saw you.
but you were with her.

i tried to act cool,
  tried to block out
     you&her;

it was painful,
but i did.

i had worn a red dress,
  had worn makeup,
  worn my best smile,
  danced my best,
  tried to act cool,
  danced some more,

  and had fun.

the warmth of your fingertips
leaves a trace on my shivering back,

through the dimly lit room,
with slow, cold air blowing from
the open window.  

butterflies fly in my stomach,
my cheeks heating up to a rosy shade.

we'll be drinking through our memories

no where left to run

         unless you want to jump?

if i still had a heart


         i'd probably stop


taking you back

laughter fills the room,
hands reach for the cups,
pouring heaven into themselves,

emptying the contents of the cup,
down their throats, down, down, down.

their vision starts to blur,
their minds-hazy,
thoughts racing through
their minds.

hearts begin to race,
beating to the rhythm,
bodies sway to the melody,
moving as one; together

the lights flicker in the room-
red, green, blue, violet, and more.

girls are
supposed to be like
doilies, all
paper-thin
and
delicate
but instead i
am average, and
supposed to be
okay
with
it.

at the end of the day,

all we have is who we are.

​
you’re always driving fast
why don’t you drive slow
and stay

SOMETIMES I LOOK BACK ON
ALL THE GOD DAYS AND
MISS YOU
AND THEN I REMEMBER
WHAT YOU PUT ME THROUGH
AND STRANGELY
I MISS YOU EVEN MORE

they always tell you to be
kind to others

❀　❀　❀　❀　

but we always seem
to forget to be kind to

ourselves

i dream in the colors of your eyes

​
MY HATRED FOR YOU
IS SO DEEP
DEEPER THAN ANY TRENCH
THAT LIES BENEATH THE
RAGING OCEAN
THAT I CALL MY MIND
I WILL ALWAYS RAGE ON
EVEN WHEN THE WORST
OF HURRICANES COME
NOTHING WILL DESTROY
THIS RAGE AND HATRED
*I HOLD INSIDE

​
you and i share the same sky.
that’s how i sleep at night.

i dream of you in colours
that don’t exist

you said you loved me,
i said i loved you back.
what happened to that?
what happened to that?

i stare at the white ceiling
and see all kinds of things.

i see blankness
         colour
then darkness.

i see an empty, white canvas
                                      canvas is painted with light pink
                                                                               light green
                                                                               light blue
                                                                               light colours.

but then one day, the canvas was painted dark blue
                                                                          dark purple
                                                                          dark red
                                                                          dark grey.

then when the pain couldn't stop, it turned black.
                                                                             to darkness.

i look around
the empty room

voices from within
echoing in my head

you haunting me
every day,
every night.

you're telling me
that I'm fine but

im not.

not at all.

cause i always think about you

blood is black
tears are white
since the day you left
i've become helplessly



                                                                                                      colourblind

​
i know what its like to be
afraid of your own mind

​
all i do is cry and complain
cuz the thoughts won’t go away

"i'll never forget you"

​
i don’t care what people say when we’re together

and in the end
i will seek you
out amongst
the stars

the space dust
of me will
whisper,
"i love you"

into the infinity
of the universe