When you kissed me for the first time
I understood.

I knew you had so much to say
But you didn't have to use the words
I understood

And it felt like connection
Between two floating minds
And I never felt alone again

You never used the words to make me understand
You used your soft touch,
and you painted your sparkling thoughts on my thighs

You used your tongue
colliding with my own to make me go insane

You used your eyes
to make my core burn and burn
and to make me understand that what we had
was special.

But then you used your words
only to hurt me
and I let you walk away
because I wasn't used to tasting the words
I never supposed you would say.

I will never touch your magnificent skin

And I will never adore the scars
The scars adorning your forehead
The wounds from your childhood

I will never laugh at your goofiness
The way you fell and bruise your skin
And I will never kiss the pain away


And I will forever miss the scent
The scent of your skin after shower
Being envy of the droplets
Making their way across your collarbone


I miss the freckles
shining through the pale skin
I miss the palm lines
I used to read stories from

And there is not a day
when I don't miss every part of you.

Is this what people call love?
Broken hearts
Crying eyes
Shaking hands
Sleepless nights

I don't trust anyone anymore
telling me it will be fine
because I know it will get better
only when you hold me in your arms.

even if i screamed at the top of my lungs
that i hate you
it still would be lie
and i will still love you