Pointless memories,
Unachievable goals,
Pain ,
Regrets  
All those things race through my veins and into my heart.
Nobody understands what it feels like , to glide on gravity with a hollow heart.  
Incapable to feel emotion , my heart is hidden in a somber moonlight.
My heart isn't impeccable as others. It's full of cracks and broken wires.
My heart doesn't properly function well with love...
Love Love Love Love Love
Makes my heart cringe , pumping very queasy when it thinks of love...
My heart uncontrollably bleeds , when it tries to dangerously stitchs love into it.
Nobody understands what it feels like , to glide on gravity with a hollow heart.  
Incapable to feel emotion , my heart is hidden in a somber moonlight.
Whose is to blame but thyself ?

I stand alone here under the moonlight,
Where we shared our first date.
Grand park , where vivacious lights lit up this fountain.
Fountain of youth ? No
It was the fountain of love.
Where grey clouds surround the stars that twinkle like dynamites.
I remember you enjoyed gazing upon the skies.
Your mesmerizing eyes has a hold on me.
Daydreaming on the future, opening your heart to me.
And I enjoyed gazing at you
when you had something witty to say.
Sarcasm was our expertise.
I adore you

I was out of place until I met you.
You were the missing piece to my puzzle.
I dream of masked man to save my dormant heart.
And as your touch inflicted on my skin...
I woke up from fantasy into reality.
My constant dream finally became true.
You were my masked man.
You instantly became the race car of my heart.
Beating rapidly every moment our lips intertwined.
I am falling in love

Little did you know , how much you imprinted into the sands of my veins.
A rush of waves touch my soul when you are
Near me , holding me in your embrace.
Our love story is just as deep as the ocean.
No place I rather be.

**I love you

Mother,
I know you carry the seed of a fragile heart
Many men twisted your beautiful soul into demonic beast.
Unable to love ,unable to nurture.
Possessed to inflict pain on others.
Hungry to **** smiles.
To imprint the world with your glass heart.
You carry the seed of a fragile heart
There's so much faults between us,
So when our land begins to shake
We implode to explode.
Tumbling down every walls we built.
You carry the seed of a fragile heart
Two Fierce eyes, growling lips
Majestic Lion Preying On A Lone Wolf
Vile words
vile injuries
Ding ding
Blood spattered among our cheeks.
Ferocious souls panting.
Who are we Mother ?
What are we? Mother
Do you know Mom ?
You carry the seed of a fragile heart
I hate you so much , but I reconcile your broken veins.
I hate you so much , but I want to satisfy your fiery soul .
I want to carry your fragile heart to paradise.
Where I can love you as a daughter, not an enemy.
Mother,
I want you proud of me.
I want you to own me,
not disown me from your throne.
But how can I make you proud,
When my heart , the one you raised
Is impaired on forgiving you ?
**I carry the seed of a broken heart

I had to let you go, my dearest silhouette.
You let me down when the tide of my life
Crashed ashore wiping away my foundation.
My dearest silhouette,
You took every inch of breath,
that belonged to me .
As the waves pulled me back,
My hands reached for you.
I screamed," save me."
I drowned over and over
with every ****** of the tormented ocean.
I slowly anchor down to bottomless abyss.
Silhouette, I had to let you go.

I was a caterpillar ,
before I became a butterfly .
The pain I had to endure in order to transform into the beauty I am today .
This is my tale .

In the forest there was,
My cocoon wrapped in the finest silk,
With a power to live in a colorful world.
To dream and conquer goals.
A Vivacious soul spinning in the purest silk
Growing and maturing as I spun.
Wishing for freedom with my beautiful wings,
Counting the days to be free and soar
as a lively butterfly
until
You winded into my community
Lured my queen and her uneven monarch.
Tempted to sabotage my purity.
For that you,
Lured yourself into my vulernable cocoon
with that trust,
you decided to disrupt my process.
How can one man ruin my nesting site?
And I had faith in you ,
to be a figure
I never had.
I wanted.
My heart ached for it.
I needed it.
To be loved .
To be nurtured.
To never be like those stray dogs
looking for a home.
This was the moment .
Where....
Innocence stripped, heart captured.
My Freedom gone.
You were naive to comprehend
On what you were doing...
You would stab my cocoon
with your sickening poison .
Over and over you stabbed .
Ruptured the veins of my innocence .
To break my finest silk .
Purity banished.
Stabbing your poison was
Making my cocoon
useless ,
worthless ,
unwanted,
colorless,
I tried to run and I tried to scream
but I was devoured by this poison
It was the love I deserve.
Couldn't escape , numb to the pain
For every poison injected, I began to
Question God?
Where was he ?
when I shed out a tear of help.
Where was he?
when my cocoon was destroyed.
Was I loved God?
when I muffled help in your name.
I hated myself ,
I stay in my cocoon
afraid to see my future.
I wasn't going to be a beautiful butterfly
Battered Butterfly
My life seemed to be colorless
No one wants a battered butterfly
My life....
It seemed it had ended
when poison sunk onto my helpless body .
No one wants a battered butterfly
Imprisoned to these chains.
Being poisoned every night by different
Predators.
Oh God....
Those predators ...
Battered lifeless little butterfly
Was I ever loved in my nesting site?
But then again nobody loves a battered butterfly
How can I reach to heaven when
I was worthless.
Believed I was a vile *****.
Tricked into a poison of hell.
Battered Ugly Butterfly
***** Little butterfly.
There was no light in tunnel
There was no holes in my silk
To escape this poisonous nest.
Why?
Because I believe nobody wants save a battered butterfly
How can the man I trusted ruined me.
I thought you could be the one to complete my lovely monarch .
To complete the missing piece.
But you continued to misuse me.
To haunt me.
To barricade my heart
To own my soul
But one thing I can truly say
You never once won over me.
You never imprinted my change.
I endured your pain
That was a sign of God
To show me what strength I am capable of.
That was the light that I found,
You had no control to inflict pain anymore.
Because I became impervious to your pain.


I am a beautiful butterfly
reigning over my monarch
with no thought of you.
**That is my freedom

There's a monster in my heart.
Caged and extremely angry.
Unleashing itself every full moon
To commit love atrocities.

My sense of vocabulary spoke
like how a serial killer would
do to intrigued each of its victims

love atrocities

Bringing them just very close,
Then ....

tsk tsk tsk

Shattered hearts
emerged from dark alleys.
Those who dare to come in ,
Welcome themselves for a heartbreak .
They were all alive marching in,
But marching out dead ...
Lingering lifeless
Pondering onwhat tools
can they use to fight .
To fight my red deviant beast.

Who could ever possess my intoxicating red beating beast?

There's a monster in my heart.
Caged and extremely angry.
Unleashing itself every full moon
To commit love atrocities

No one seems to have the secret code.
To unlocked these electrified bar wires
That surround around each blood vessel
Of my beating red beast.

No one can solve this mysterious case.
Many have come close..
But so many souls have vanished through the chambers of my vile heart.

There's a monster in my heart.
Caged and extremely angry.
Unleashing itself every full moon
To commit love atrocities.

I let my hair brown flow among the wind
As we cruise with views of the ocean.
I raised my arms in the air .
Happiness hit us like bullets
Piercing into our love like needles.
Life without a care ,
We defeated the night
With long conversations
Time wasn't an issue
Wasting each other nights
Life without a care.
Might as well start living forever.
I was your darling ,
And you were my sugar.
I can't help to think
about much
you imprinted my life
Life without a care.