My mind was in train wreck.
My heart was in a shipwreck.
Waiting to be found,
Waiting to be healed,
Waiting to be patched up,
Looking for a hero.
I am drowning into abyss
No anchor can pull me up
For I resisted ...
Breathless
I slowly drown
And  I hid into this unknown abyss
Waiting on a true hero.
Night and Day ,
I was a neglected soul waiting for a hero.
Searching in all the harazardous places.
As when the sun slowly began slept away
And the moon began to awake in its grey glow
I cried in despair of all ghouls who scorned my soul and those fiery demons for they tore my sanity.
I was alone and leading myself into hurricane of fire.
Twist into my fate.
Slowly I drowned ....
Where is my hero?
And you appeared in shining suit of armor
Piercing eyes ,taunting eyes,angelic lips
Halo across your head .
Without hesitation you reached for me.
My blood coiled in the sight of you
I was afraid ,
but I felt safe when I met your gaze.
My Hero.
As you lured yourself in,
You turned my heart into the right direction.
To stop loving
in dangerous places
To quit aching for
mistakes that were not in my control .
My hero
Bandages were stripped,
when you kissed me.
I wanted to be rescue,
every single time you touched me.
My hero...
My heart was set in stone ,
With accomplishments,
hopes,
goals
of having you by my side.
**My hero

Just a long ago,
Your smile would shine just as the sun.
Just a long ago,
Your words were like knives.
Just a long ago,
They were cutting into my vein so sweetly.
Just a long ago ,
I bled deeply for you.
Just a long ago ,
We were sharing secrets under the moonlight.
Our minds intertwined for hours
Just a long ago,
You viciously tore my clothes off,
Making my heart dance to beat of your love .
Polaroids. Ciragette buds. Long drives
Our world . Sedated from everyone else.
Now
Your smile ignited like fire.
Just now
Your eyes glared away into
Unknown Galaxy.
Where are you?
Now ,
I still reach for you ...
Just a long ago,
You were mine ....

I clenched along the trigger
What am I aiming for
Life flashes in my eyes
What am I aiming for
Ponder wonder over your eyes
Is that what I am aiming for
To shoot your thoughts of me
What am I aiming for
When I ponder over your lips
To shoot off the taste of your lips
What am I aiming for
When I ponder over your hands
To entice your touch with bullet wounds  
What am I aiming for
When I ponder over how my head laid on your chest
To shoot your lungs off so we don't breathe the same air
What am I aiming for
When I stared deeply into your heart
A heart that loved me so much
I put down the gun ....
I still want you to love me.

I was terrified of my reflection once. 
 I would scratch my self to tear apart
every imperfection,
every flaw ,
every single defect.

Unhappy with myself
That every night I would be
Making pacts with the Devil
to become beautiful .
Then devil listened and
he brought me you....
To tear me apart into shreds
To strip my innocence
The beauty I did not appreciate
It was your greatest appetite

Demonic eyes
Should have never looked
Piercing lips
Should have spoke up
Hateful touch
Should have scream
You were evil

And I danced among every movement
I hate you


You were gargoyle
every night standing
it's post by my bed
To scratch my helplessly body
I hate you

I wish I appreciate my innocence because then
I don't think the devil's angel would have ever pay me a visit

You had my deviant heart.
The moment you turn your head to
Observe me
To taunt me like a predator lurking on its prey.
Oh my like serial killer prying on its next victim.
My soul swayed
My breath races
My body tensed.
You graciously invited yourself in
When you knew you weren't invited
You fought obstacles and never fled with the dead skeletons that swarm out of each door of my heart you would open .
You knew you always had the key.
How come you were so close
and I yet was so far
I was afraid .
Couldn't accept the fight
the blood and the tears you made
To be next to me
To reign next to me
Next to me
I think
I look at sunsets every now and then
Pondering what I will do when I have you by my side
wishing I told you
I loved you sooner than I did....

I slither to caress every single inch of your warm-blooded skin.
Soothe out your fear with
my scaly veins emerging into your soul.
I bite my poison onto your lips .
Your heart is ready to be deceived with every throbbing pain.
I wait for you to reach for my neck
To ****** me....
But I strike another vicious bite.
****** me please....
You reach again ...
Bite once more....
You reach for me...
I slither away as you are in agony

You're always in my head.
Like a catchy song .
Reappearing over and over again.
Miles never separate you from me .
From my mind .
I can never be at ease.