I saw the way you flinched when I said
I didn't trust you.
I know it stung.
Good.
I hope it hurt; I hope it leaves a scar.
I hope those words ring in your ears
As you try to fall asleep at night.
I hope they haunt you,
And I hope you know that
I didn't just say it to hurt you.
(Although that is a bonus.)
I meant every word.
*I don't trust you.

The question isn't how fast your heart beats or
how many times its skipped.
Its how much pain
and how many heart breaks
will you go through to
find that one
person.
Or,
will you not be strong enough
and give up and stop. Because
all the pain is to much so you sit back and
let time rebuild you
for that unexpected moment
that you will never forget.

There is a truth that I
Could never believe
And acceptance of which
I could never conceive:
A heart that is mine
With mind to match.
Such and elusive creature
I never dreamed I'd catch.
But now I open my eyes
To days so full and bright.
I open up my soul
To this feeling that it's right.

Draw me in
And hold me close.
Feel my body
Shiver in your strong arms
And the spreading Goosebumps
Stand firm
Against your warm skin
As you try to shelter me
From the brisk night air.
Stare at the sky with me
And search its depths
For all the stars
We could possibly find.
Light a cigarette
And take long, steady drags
And inhale deeply
Allowing the tar to tickle your lungs
Before you exhale the poison
So the sharp, comforting smell
Of ashes and a Marlboro Red
Can engulf us.
Gaze down at me
With warm, dulcet eyes
And turn me around.
Brush the hair from my face
With your rough, callused hand
So our eyes can meet.
Rest one hand
Gently on my hip
While the other
Carefully holds my face
So your eager lips
Can be pressed against mine.
And when you’re done
Let me feel the moisture
Of a wisely placed peck
On the center of my forehead
In a subtle but sincere attempt
To prove your care for me
And my worth to you.
And when all is said and done
And you’re staring down at me
Hoping that maybe, just maybe
For once
This time you got through to me,
Wrap me in a god ****** hug
And swear you’ll never let go.
Cherish the feeling
Of being entangled in each other’s arms
And our bodies pressed together
As we desperately cling
To the only thing either of us has left.
Just hold me and hope
By some random inaccuracy of nature
Time suddenly stops.
And allows us to live these seconds
For minutes.
Hours.
Days.
Months.
Years.
Any amount of time
Longer than it really is.
Because, truth be told,
We’ll never experience a moment
More beautiful than that
In our entire lifetimes.