Slow life down, ready to consume to settle down. Apple crown, about to drown. Watch my tolerance build itself. Time to enjoy the bad health. I'm drinking tonight, not talking on the phone because it's my life. Not caring tonight.
This is why we shouldn't talk. Easily triggered and offended to top it off. About ready to get a new number so I dont get the confidence to block. I'm an adult, I make my own choices dont really care what's at fault. I'm just enjoying life a bit, sloppy words I spit.
Criticism and disappointment! Oh well, not my priority. Dont care about seniority. This is the real me, can't handle it there's the exit. Not about to quit. I dont want to have to mask myself everytime something offends someone. I'd much rather be done. I know my real homies and that's all that matters to me. Cheers because it's time to be happy.

Every one knows me, we're all attempting to be happy. Take the judgments away because I guarantee I'll be scrapping. Happens so fast you wouldn't know what's happening. Woke up ready for a drink, fell asleep with a drink. Alcoholics need a drink, well i have a drink. I'm supposed to please everyone?
(The ****) well I with the Hollar Boys and don't have time to be frowned upon. Drink the keg and cases til it's gone. Music loud, keg stands and laughing out loud. Ain't know one here playing with me, I'm real and got more faces to see. We're all buzzin, drinking by the keg by the dozen. Have we met before? Nah lil homie thats fake don't show anymore.

You don't know struggle, you only know discomfort. Bet you never made a effort.
Family disowned me once. Upon time when I was defiant. I was never truly reliant.
Fight me I'll throw hands, call me out and I'll argue. Try me and you won't be able to continue. Lost my mind a while ago. Happens when you live life solo. I wanna blame life but I'm not that petty. You aren't able to hand this diss ***** because i bet you ain't ready.

Love is an addiction, a bad confliction. Overdose on the toxic ahit. Love is hard to quit.
Wasn't ready for a mental war, especially when you miss things more. Sleeping meds didn't work, benzodiazepines ain't my worth. I just wanted it all to work.
I've giving everyone I possibly can, what the other doesn't understand, is that my change was a new level of commitment. A new free spirit. Bow look at me hanging myself because I've got hung up. What's love? Either way I wasn't enough
Giving it all my best, not doing anything more I regret.
I'm a love addict, always was ready to commit. The past caught up, I've let that mess **** up. Now I'm a new many on the search for love.
Ever since a bad break up I've got neurotic, **** near became a alcoholic
I'm a recover, I'm a rebuild, just for my future love heres a little note.
Please don't break me, if you do will you help me put myself back together. I don't want to live with agony, I'm a be better than ever. I won't take anything for granted, nor allow any one to have it.
Keys to my heart you can have it, just locket, keep it in your pocket, bullet proof but not with a rocket, vibe with me so we can rock it, allow peace with nothing to hit.

I'm ways down for commitment. I'm great at communicating because poetry is gifted. Never been awesome at life, but I do my best to be treated right. Never been lucky, but I chill and stay til dawn. Always down, ways trying to be happy. Look at the alcohol choices I've made now I'm somewhat lucky.

I think I know why you don't remember all the good things we accomplished together.
My flaws have you chained and you trying to walk away caused my issues to drag you along the path. I know I'm not fully forgiven, but I truly am a changed man. Forget the drama and forget the petty comments. I will always live my life loving you and I will not hold on to the past. What's the past going to do for me? The past ain't going no where, it's my actions. But as long as if I'm not the man who is the "**** up"
I'm sure you'll truly see the real me, not the man who screws up everything he touches. I may still make mistakes, but what's a life without mistakes? Sounds like a nightmare to me. I'm a good man

I don't feel alive I must already be dead. The thoughts suffocated me because I was lost and ****** in my head. Love kills and I'm leaving loved ones on read. I isolate in a dark room laying on my bed. Alone maybe, this grieving got the best of me lately. My happiness was their regret. As I get closer I'm seeing the ones I loved leave. Being lonely is all I can achieve. Replace me, trusting has never been easy. I prioritize the ones that use me. I'm no safer in my room. I still don't understand what to do. I forgot how to eat, I forgot how to take it easy. Why does everyone leave me?

Got the keys to my heart back. I'm a lock it and keep it safe in my pocket. No one mess with me please, I'm recovering. I've got deteriorating feelings I'm trying to catch. Ready to reach for the stars because I know one day i can shine. Wasn't meant to be but I still need to fix up my life. I'm bout to move out. Ready to avoid the same mistakes because I know I can be a mess. But I've got myself some new motives to clean up.

Mirror on this wall help me. I'm ****** almost at it again. Not eating, too ****** at my life I'm not happy. My stomach is in deep pain I feel I'll open. Mirror you're more loyal: not a soul will listen. Help my temper all though my fist may bleed. Sorry if I crack you or break you I'm in a bad situation. I know for sure food is all I need. Sleep is next on the list. Now I'm angry at people and back at it. My real home is a place I miss. All I can think about is this *******.
Mirror take me somewhere better then this.
I don't want you to crack because you are my only friend.
We shared JOY, SORROW, PAIN, TEARS, and ANGER all over and over again.
More emotions follow me, now I'm beginning to shatter with nobody to see.