I'm sitting in the car. Engine running with songs crying with me. I sing the blues in a realization of this agony. I want to pour it down my system till the chills go away. Start off with a better day. How does one good man face something like this? The simpler times run through my head and I begin to truly miss.
I'm a go on, time to prove them wrong. I'm not letting myself go, I'm a restart and take it slow. I've got this, I've got my strength.
Not living in regret, I'm a start myself all over.

Dozen messages, handful of false hope. Sometimes you just have to let go. Walk along the dark road. In my lonesome. I use to be handsome. I use to matter. This heart is going to shatter. But why does it matter. I'm left on read. New man, new style, new choice of words. I just feel my insides dead. What happened to me?

Out of all the things that burn in my head, I froze upon destruction with words I never said. My dad had taught me sometimes there isn't anywhere to hide, especially when it was time for a goodbye. If only it was upon his arms I'd isolate and hide. Now you can see these scars when I wave. One day they'll disappear when I decay. If I were to lose, I'd never say goodbye. Some battles aren't meant to take flight. But I'll always welcome anyone in my arms. These scars have love to pass around, not a cure but the hopes of comfort wrapped around my chest. I've hurt like hell and still got some regrets. Remind me again..... who was I when everyone left? I've been so bottled up, detoxed before. Have been locked in my head. But the pain has that silence only one in particular heard clear as day. Now I'm making plans to visit her grave. I need you
"Here with me"
Mom has always been a distance further closer to me. Dad has been the one to hold me at peace. Somedays these scars reopen the mental battles that chose defeat. I wanna sing, I wanna cry, I wanna laugh, I wanna hide. Still no time for goodbyes. Just a brief wave, a waving motion in the air. I promised a destination to find, one day you'll visit me there.

Mockery, but you can't step up to reality. I stay busy, always working. I'm doing something totally worth it. I see you being lazy, collecting nothing. I put away the change, put some boots on to collect my 2 cents from the bank. I don't care about what others think.
How many of you can tell me that you've been busy?
Most of you are out partying while I be up working.
I've got maybe 3 people in my life that make the time, I'll be clocking out to be ready to meet my partners in crime. The struggle of distance doesnt bother me not one bit. I'll be driving the extra mile for a visit.
Thank you for the ones who take the time to be with me. Let's go out for a drink :p

Been called a lying cheat, happiness decided to play hide and seek, I dont want to eat nor sleep I just want a cold drink sit alone with music to help me think. Left dark messages subliminally. All I see, is agony down beneath. Hiding in a corner sobbing. Headache heartache, want to break already to late where's my peace for ***** sake. I'm raising my glass to the stars, ******* at life counting these cars. Realizing theres no home, snaps hitting my phone. I think I need to be more alone.
I'm just under so much stress, to lazy to get dressed, I'm depressed. Want to put anxiety at rest, what's next? Oh wait my ex sent me a text. Great beautiful pain, ugly truth. Don't matter anymore, I'm a drink a little more. I've got knives in my back, patching the heart and releasing the veins. Am I going insane? Whatever I ain't wanna eat sleep just want a drink. I'm a let my thoughts sink because I'm to empty to think

Every struggle gets to personal,  a endless cycle. Broken up, hung up. Hanging by a strand. I've got you take my hand. I see the struggle lost in your eyes. I can hear your screams from that smile. Wish it wouldn't consume you from inside. I can tell it's been awhile.
                          "Help me"
Darling I know it hurts, I know it kills you. Baby you'll be okay. I'm always make sure you're safe. We'll figure it out to overcome the wave. One day we'll do great. You're so sweet, so kind, and someone to adore. Bad luck will leave so you don't take anymore. I live you, I need you. I'm a fight everything to revive you my darling. I want to help you, but you'll have to fight too. <3