Remember when we'd go out with each other?
I remember when we'd compliment each other.
You're beautiful and amazing.
My heart wants to be yours.
Tuck me under your covers please,
Lifes brutally cold i dont want to ge sick.
Here lets go purcha coat.
Grab the keys we're goimg on a adventure.
I Love You I Miss You
My family is your family because they know you make me happy.
Remember when we spent Christmas at my moms?
She loves and adores you.
I'll take care of you, you're my priority!♡
Remember when we went for walks?
Lets do all this and get through it together
FOREVER
I need you back,
Remember when I'd write you notes?
I would love to do it agin
For you my hearts open
Remember when we'd hold each other despite what life throws?
I can assure our saftey
I adore you cutie
Remember when i said you are mine and mine only?
I do, i mean that sweetheart♡

I'm in love with you,
I am waiting to start our lives together.
We're meant for each other.
I promise you there isn't anyone else.
You're perfect I'd be the luckiest person to have you.
Dont you remember I'm yours?
Please dont shut these doors.
I need you my darling.
Forever yours im falling

I'm gazing at the lakes reflection
She's fishing and we're at peace with no questions
Shes everything I need
The skys clear
I've still got a fear
Stars are all I see
Waves are calm tonight
The lakes reflection got me some confidence
Not everything's difficult
I've got some hope because these are the best nights of my life.
I dont want it all to end

Time to clean up my looks,
Change how I react.
Fix up my body,
Maybe then she'll take me back.
I got butterflies that cause me to get nervous
She'd kiss the stutter away
She still shines and makes my day
If it wasn't for my mistakes I dont know how I'd be in the future.
I'll sleep in a regret because now she dont feel safe
I'm in love with her and I've got no other
I'll stay and hope and pray to help put her mother.
My family is yours
Just please open your doors
Now let me come home

How long?
What's been going on?
What am I?
Does it feel any better?
Any regrets yet?
Better yet how do you really feel?
Is this love any real?

My lifes not fair,
Who all wants to be there?
Anyone going to care?
I guess not because I'm too dark.
I focus on the worse because i dont see any light.
I've got no more reason to fight.
Just let it happen because the worse already had happened.
I might as well drown in silence.
At least the water is violently peaceful.
I don't dare to hurt anyone
I regret the suffering I put on
But at least the flaws define me.
My lifes not fair because my lifes real

My fears and feelings aren't in my priority list
First off where do I even begin
I've got a heart ache with no treatment
Maybe I need a PRN
I'm complicated to understand
I've been known for my flaws but no one will listen to my goals
I'm complicated
I'm sure people get frustrated
But I am at least a understanding man
I know what it's like to have nothing
I also know from right and wrong
Dont mean I'm special or doesn't mean I'm a brat
I'm complicated and my lies use to be fat
But I'm not about to sink in these lies
I'm a swim to high ground and bury this ****
I'm complicated
I dont mean to be
I mean to make it with or with out help
Attempts to stay in good health
I've got a heart ache
My heart is in a middle of a crisis and there's no time to break

I'm in love with you
You're still my light
You bring my heart delight
Been a struggle but you still keep me safe
I'm sorry, I still care
For you I'm a always be there
You're my whole world
My one and only girl.
You're beauty has taught me a lot
Even just a smile takes the pain away
"Sunshine turns the sky to gold"
Strong and unique
You're everything to me
In love with you
In love with everything about you

Stars light my way,
Guide me out I've had a rough day.
Let the weather sing me a song to keep me distracted.
My chest aches because she claims she unattractive.

I've been making a change.
But the past anchors down my success.
I try to power through it,
It's my weakness when she thinks differently.
How am I to avoid the past completely?

Stars give me a reason to shine,
She should be mine.
Stop digging,
Put down the shovel and let's continue living.
Take my hand I'll help you out.
What are you digging for?
You've already discovered my flaws.

Stars help me
She means the world to me
I've got to complete my goals
Stars light my way
I'm here and I'm gazing upon the journey
She's my wish

You ever event a new poem with no title?
You ever destroy papers of writing because there's no title?
I've been writing and rewriting just to find a title.
Been a long process and been so confused with my own creation.
What a wonderful situation.

I feel the insecurities
I get the heart aches
Dont matter what time it is
My chest dont hold back
Been a mental struggle
Success was considered a myth
How long before I sit in comfort
Or even in silence
All my aches and insecurities scream at me
Just please give me a break

I'm sitting on top of a tree watching **** scrambling beneath me.
Feel the need to feel the wind rock me to sleep.
I should get a good comfortable bearable seat.
But until then I shall speak in silence and hope nature understands me.

Mental issues drowning my brain,
Feel it deep into my vein.
So much for being sane.
I don't feel right because all this **** causes pain.
I feel like I'm going insane.
What's wrong with me now?
I feel my thoughts screaming at me very loud.
Of course out of the blue she wants to be distant.
I'm mentally going mad.
I feel the rage and disappointment rushing through my ***.
I'm starting to feel insane.

Why am I expected to learn?
As I'm here struggling to survive.
Harsh walking through life because its thin ice.
I've walked barefoot across the world and the cold gave me a burn.
Its thin ice cracking,
Reality is tough and lacking.
Sometimes it shatters and I've got to swim.
Its freezing I feel as if I can't win.
Thin ice has tought me to be careful.
All I want is to be successful.

Felt the need to change but oh well
Been through a rough patch of hell
How long before the storm passes
I've got Hope's and my flaws are massive
I'm hoping to be alright
Just please no more I don't want to fight

I’m beginning to feel empty,
Going to drink beer till it consumes me.
What more can I say?
I’m alone and afraid!
This beer is a safe place!
Going to sip till I’m in a different place.
When has beer been a comfort zone?
Why is beer the bittersweet choice?

I'm not okay,
My issues are going to overflow
Feel like these issues will clog my drain
I'm definitely not sane
But I've got hope and at least some comfort
I'm not about to watch the people I love live comfort less.
I feel the weight adding on the thin ice I walk through.
Fine let the Ice shatter
I will drown for a little bit
But I know how to swim
It will just be a hell of a fight
That's right fights on ***** because I'm not about to drown
***** it all because I'm not okay.
I promise I'll be fine

I'm in love,
I'm changed.
My butterflies remain,
Still floating above.
I will not let you down.
No matter what happens we'll stand our ground.

I want you to come home
Bring your cute personality and ignore your phone
I'll leave the night light on so you can walk to my bed
Lay next to me and I'll wake up kissing your forehead
My body naturally clings on
I've got the twinklight on
Come home baby you don't need permission
I'll keep you safe it's home not a mission
Come home to me
Let's love for all of eternity
We still have a journey
Please stay and keep my heart some company
I love you with all my heart
Now it's time to for us to start
We hit a pothole
We can climb out ya know
Come home
Please don't leave in the dark alone

In my "dreams"
I'm reliant on pills
Alcohol took over and gave a buzz full of chills
How does one avoid the a dark reality
Got so lost I didn't know my own gravity
I got so neurotic
Felt a bit psychotic
Give me that chill pill
A tipsy buzz ready to fill
Maybe I will
Don't make me regret "False Hope"
I'm already tied down and I'm dipping cope
I'm tired of you messing around just come back
Here's my key to my heart seriously take and lock it
Then put it back in your pocket
Please don't wave it and mock it
Been in love with you and I don't want to unlock it

Our insecurities are in danger
Where do I stand without anger
Are you serious about experimenting with another in others?
Please don't its torturous.
Its exhaustive to think about
Even to dream about
Then I mentally scream it out
Don't leave come home

I failed and I'm sorry,
Together we can make a difference.
Just gotta try harder.
What are you afraid of?
My anger?
We're like phycopaths drowning and smiling.
We can do this I'm not hiding.
We can do this I'm here baby,
Been thinking about us lately.
Without your touch I'm going crazy.
Without a glance I feel destruction making me.
We can do this honey,
Look forward and take my hand.
I didn't mean to hurt you baby,
Together we rule I know you understand.

We're all crazy,
We'd do anything to make it sane.
I'm not the only one that runs to safety,
Make it stop because I'm going insane.
I shouldn't run and look back.
But that's all I know do to hope.
Since you've left I pray for a I love you and a kiss.
It's you I miss!
I know we said and did things we don't mean.
I'm happy because we both always came clean.
But why do we do this to each other.
I know we'll make it together.
We just got to start all over and treat each other better.
Fine no trust, no forgiveness,  but let's just at least keep are arms open.
We tend to fall with out a catch.
At least are instincts are accurate.
For you I'd hold you in my arms and make the time decelerate.
I'm sure we both would rather start over and adjust.
Our love life together for me is a must.
It's you I truly desire.
If I'd had to I'd go back and make sure it's all of you I admire.
I do love you babe, we made love and we made mistakes.
Baby let's hold each and do whatever it takes.
Without you I feel everything that breaks.
I say again we're all a little crazy.
Love is something that can get between same and insanity.
Truth is we all hide behind what we know to get away from reality.
I just wish she'd come home.

Brother is a deep meaning to me.
Guess people out there just use it meaningless.
You'll always get my back,
I sure as hell got yours and I'm ready to help that's a fact.
I use to be the only kid that had a problem. I've got brothers that never really helped to solve them.
Now you're in my pack,
I'm no longer a lone wolf thank you for having my back.
I'll always keep you with me brother.
Believe me you a part of the family bub.
Let us laugh, let us cry, let us be angry, let us succeed and fail together.
It's not fake it's not a phase.
For you I'd always be there with or with out a trace.
Have a beer with me brother.
I'm celebrating because we've got a journey together.

I've drank till my life got tipsy.
Thinking about how life played me.
God forbid I change for the greater good.
I run out of **** to say.
Poor me one more glass anyway.
Maybe when I sober up I will realize my success has been in detox waiting for me.
But who knows where life takes me.
I'm tipsy again to show I'm only a flawed human.
But no matter where it takes me I promise I'm real and I refuse to lose again.

My flaws anchor me down. Been through hell because I watched my love drown. She anchors my past, then we fight and she swears to God I'm her last. But babe I don't want to fall. I'm here giving you my all.
What do I do?
I'm not through!
My flaws anchor me down because mistakes are meant to drown. I refuse to let you go because you make me safe and sound.

Never meant to rely on my insecurities.
But they always happen to be there for me.
Whether I love it or not.
Been chasing my thoughts.
Where do I go from here?
Is there a way to climb out of this fear?
I'm feeling my insecurities
And I'm beginning to get closer to my enemies

I miss sleeping by your side.
I'm up late trying to mentally survive.
Really rough seeing you with that strength.
I know I've got no reason to complain.
You're Truly Amazing.
Now all i can do is dream.
Don't wake me up because our nightmares came true.
I can't lose you, I love you.
For you I'll always answer.
I now lay on your side of the bed.
I try to inhale the scents you left.
Come back, there is more room for you.
Doors open, come on through.

The spell under love has a lot of ways to make a person wonder. But there are conflicts and success. I have been through a lot and can tell the difference by simply recognizing the problem. The veins of mine has spread because I never knew how to solve them. I lay there empty, silent, curious, constantly daydreaming to avoid more tears...... I am under a spell. women have magic, they can change a man in new ways. Can be sweet, can be a nightmare, or can be a lesson. I will refuse to be Victimized. You may break me or hurt me by surprise. But ever since I barley survived the storm, I am more then happy to look at the shadows in dark as if they were to be my next enemy. I will dig a trench and have a resent memory. The spell will maybe **** someday but since men like me are strong with that pinch of hope I will be able to take the best hit you've got.
What's going to happen now? Sorry but also ready for the best and the worse to happen to me. I am under spells, my dark half of me is dragging me down to hell.

I'm sorry, I love you.
I went down a dark path.
you dug me out and you fell with me.
you went deeper and suffered.

I can be your love and armor!

When i cry, i look for you.
i wanted you to hold me.
the **** gun is still on safety.

Now i kind of want some pills.
but i cant seek them to dissolve.
I'd choke before the dose.
not successful not even a joke.

Are you really scared of me? Am I the one who created this dark memory?
Is remembering still your enemy?
What are you afraid of?
We come home and some how we're okay.
I'm realizing my love.
It never even left.
For you all I did was fall.
But you also picked me back up. So I ask what are you afraid of?

I've got writers block.
But it's easy to write bad thoughts.
Dark place, dim light.
Been a struggle and been though hell.
All I need to do is put these words on a piece of paper. Classic writing is going to be a thing.
Can't search up a person's hand writing if they don't post a thing.
I've got writers block and I can't do anything but research vocabulary words.

Can I please be okay, sorry y'all I dont plan to annoy. But **** I'm really sorry i could barely make it. Here have my success y'all can have it. I don't want it because mentally it's not enough to pass. It's more than enough to fail. I'm at rough place where reality will just get brutal. I'm sure everyone here can relate, because I am now facing it alone. Always have and always will. Hello darkness how was your vacation?

I'm doing okay now,
wished for the best and now life's working out.
What am I to do with my depression?
No one even listens.
This morning I woke up with complete silence.
My desperate measure for attention started to scream,
How am I to work it out and avoid any sort of a scene?
What about me?
What about my dreams?
I am doing okay,
I rest my eyes and take it slow day by day.

The love
the joy
the kiss
the neck
the pleasure.
the desire

A lot of these nights I wish to have a girl go on a date with me.
I'll be touching every detail just to be that girls sight of this sea.
I want to get fired up for some love.
Wish I had the chance to have someone to be proud of.
Will she try to be that perfect image?
I would think she didn't need to change.
She'd already got my attention, why go the extra mile for me?
I wish to have some kisses, snuggles, and an another half.
I just don't want to feel empty.
I know for a fact girls will spend hours with their hair and their make up to impress and express.
I love the effort and attention but Sadly I don't have that.
That someday is taking so long.

Losing friends felt like ****. I just realized I survived all of it. Made me think it's a new start and I don't gotta worry for a bit. Ended quick, Ended over things that made no sense and turned out to be stupid. I don't mind walking alone on this dark street. New place hell maybe new friends to meet.

What is it I am feeling?
I don’t know if it’s the beginning.
I lost my way a while back,
Would take that chance I hope she knows that.
What is it?
I don’t know how to explain.
Discovered my flaws and pain.

I’m a paint the mirrors to avoid the reflection.
Lost my way and refuse the affection.
All I see is my past.
Use to be a hero,
What am I now?
What is it am I feeling?
Fear? Confusion? Lost? Sad? Depression?
Love? Joy? Time freezing? Happy?
Either way I miss her.
Want the Chance because I earned.
I deserve it all,
I am a man of my word and I refuse to fall.