Alone in our house. Isolating in a quite room. Feeling so hurt, knowing what's going on echoes in my head and it's loud. I wanna scream and pout. She seems to be happier, I seem to be feeling crappier.
"What'd you wanna eat? What are we watching"
Me: " just put on the norm"
Always knowing what to eat and drink together with out communicating. I'm laying in bad alone feeling my darling deteriorating.
"I love you honey eeeeeeeeeee, he kissed me"
(Reality)
sob "**** what do i do?"
I need you now, I'm freaking out. But I've got to let you be happy. I'm no longer a happy memory. Feels like you wanna forget about me.
"Oh kissed a smile bbbbiiiitch"
(Reality)
Heavy breathing with a sob
"Why doesn't she love me anymore? Does she mean it anymore when she says it?"
I'm replaying the times we had, cherished every kiss with some cute notes pressed to my lips. Clinging on to clothes because they smell like home. The last time i hugged her my teats grazed her cheek. Since then she hardly wanted to speak. Don't blame her now, I'm a ******* wreck and i wouldn't wanna speak to me neither. It's what happens when the past me is defined as a cheater.
giggles*
"You're handsome, MINE"
sigh
"Hehe he kissed me"
(Reality)
I just wish she'd love me the way i still love her. Impossible to let go. I'm laying in bed drowing my pillow. Singing the love songs we use to sing too. Now I'm crying and sobbing because it's now something I'm a always do thinking of you.

Come home, where you belong. In my arms where the comfort use to be. That should be me. Missing home where I felt and go safely. Look what shattered hearts brought me. You'll always be a part of my heart. Don't be afarid to come home. I don't care when or where I'll always open my loving arms. Take each other on a road trip as we planned. The past is in the review mirror,  let's travel on a journey like we should be going to a destination. Let's not worry about the distance.

You are fighting the shadows with your new light. You're able to continue to move forward and not look back upon me. I want you to be happy but I also don't want to be miserable. I wanna scream, I need to sleep. Need something figured out. I know some things, I've got temper because this is big amount of pain. Bye is all i get. Soon I'll be long gone and ignored. What's happening now? I don't wanna talk to you today, bye.
Those words might be the new normal. Thought love was to be immortal. I wanna believe she's not really all okay, but look at her sense of distractions. I'm a cry here and try to not allow the good byes **** me. Amazing how one word distroys ones world.

I have to try and let go. She don't want it anymore, feeling tears run down my "handsome face"
Here crying without you baby, my wishes are meant to be for the best. Hope our love will meet again and the past may die down and in peace rest. Knowing you don't want me back is one of the worse nightmares ever experienced.  How do you really feel my darling? Everything secretly alright? Just one last kiss, before we consider each other strangers. I'm still in love, but it's time for me to let go. To me you'll ways be cherished because when you smile you made my heart glow. By the time I improved myself, my life flashes. The love of my life decided it was time to go and before i know my face melts and hopes crashes
What's wrong with me? I wish to be held till i cry myself to sleep

We were supposed to start a life together.  We were supposed to be forever. I stay up late crying over you because you said life after life. I'm ready to call you my wife. Till the day I die, i wish i can come home to prove you right. Theres always a possibility.  You've got no idea how much you mean to me. I'm sitting in this house ready for more tears while anxiety rips me a new one. Sorry for the **** that's been done. I don't want to be a Ex, i want to be your next. Wish you were with me, I'm alone in a dark place with a picture next to me. Baby i need you. You are my true love, and you're amazing. So beautiful. Wish you feel the same way. Supposed to be me supposed to be forever.

They say moving on maybe the best. But i got this fear in my chest. I'd rather be broken apart then to be strangers, because that would me bye forever. We walked this panet, now I'm running up to catch it. The keys are still tucked in your pocket. My bearts your just come home and lock it.
Where is my darling, I lost my one and only hero. Couldn't even share one last night together watching tv and dosing off in each others arms. I'm screaming like a puppy waiting around for you to come revive me. Drunk off the flames and hearing my thoughts taunt me. Where do I swim from here because I'm a drown alone, wish I can call whenever but she ain't gonna wanna answer the phone. I don't even get to here her voice on the voicemail. Just myuck huh.
Miss the snuggles miss the food and miss all the times we spent. I didn't care about anything because I was happy. You know. Knowing a lot of people don't matter because I'm still lonely. Not a **** cure will even help. But look at me, I hate myself.

I've ways dealt with things alone. Never was anything new only new things was the "false hope"
I've always had a lot of anger. Defense mechanism because I was afraid to be in danger. Therapy sessions with pen and paper. Always in a room writing and crying. Notes look like its just me and you. Mirrors laughing at me because the reflection was not so great. I lost my one true love and now I'm done woth the tears because everytime i picture her smiling i break. I've got hope, I've got these dreams. Let me tell you one thing. I am loyal, I am the right man. She deserves to be mine. But wouldn't be fair because thats not what she wants. Time to sit in the park and hope she sneaks up on me for a kiss. Walk this lonely road down the block because its her i miss. Knocking on the door while shes freaking out. Barefoot and rain pooring down. I'm here baby I'll always walk through hell for you. Road trip is our adventure and now you see me in the review mirror for your adventure. Man why don't the past let go of me. I'm moving and why does it have to summon me. Everywhere i go especially when i try to sleep then find myself ready to bleed because i cant eat nor wanna speak about ready to lay low beneath because i wanna ******* breathe but thats to easy. **** me for finally being happy to just lay down in agaony. Why me? Why does it have to be me alone? Just why?

Can you still feel me? How long before we can breathe? I want you more and more.
I'm about to fall, will you please fall with me?can we please spend the rest of our lives for eternity?
Like our promise. Hey shooting star i have a wish. I want to go to my safer place instead of this.
I am lost like a lost puppy. Looking back and forth for you to come save me. I'm burning but all i feel is the cold. When will you see me again. My hearts ripped wide open. I can't escape. My mental body isn't ready and I'm about to crawl. Losing it all. Save me and come love me. Tell me how I was filthy but you'll always love me. Together we can accomplish it all. But you want it to go missing, i wish we can be together and only each other it'd be us just kissing. Will you still love me in the morning? Will it change Tomorrow and the next day? I'm a
Crawl and hope she'll help me back up. Love you my darling, don't give me up. Back at it again. Insecurity hit me now my tears keep my eyes wide open. We said no matter what, now I'm fighting because you broke me up. Why must it have to end this way? I'm a love you every single day. Am I the only one still in love? Give me time to prove myself. You're my sweetheart.

One minute you love and adore me
Wait why are you ignoring me
Now why are you holding it against me
Is this our reality
Calm down you don't mean those words
Stop doing that stuff you don't want to do those things with stranger again
They let you down and I'm crying disappointed
You then have me hold you then you say you love me
Then you're back to ignoring me
It's all going impulsively

Got the keys to my heart back. I'm a lock it and keep it safe in my pocket. No one mess with me please, I'm recovering. I've got deteriorating feelings I'm trying to catch. Ready to reach for the stars because I know one day i can shine. Wasn't meant to be but I still need to fix up my life. I'm bout to move out. Ready to avoid the same mistakes because I know I can be a mess. But I've got myself some new motives to clean up.

I'm a liar, a cheater. What am I tomorrow?
Am I a beater? What's that I haven't changed? Alright cool, I'll be "fine"
I'm just done and fed up. Question myself
The began to wonder if there was any love.
I think I'm a need to stay busy and I think I'm get even more hurt. But it's cool she's been gone for a while now. She always thinks I've been doing nothing but saying her name in vain. But you know what?! Whatever! I guess your still getting what you wanted

No one can help me
Not to be dramatic,
but it's the only feeling I'm feeling
Regrets and pain is all I'm inhaling
Can I be held one last time?
I know you're done with me.
But my love is all still for you.
I just want you to be happy.
I'll try to keep it down.

Wish it wasn't real
The regrets I feal
Copenhagen to keep busy
Now I'm laying in bed in misery
Wintergreen to keep me from overheating.
Hello depression!
I'll clean up your guest room for your stay.

I've made plenty of mistakes as a kid
Grow up! But wait how?
Learning as I go
Does that mean I'm still a kid?
How would I know that I'm fully grown?
Dealt with a lot of anger
Did **** that put people in danger
After all that my journel stayed by my side
Through everything because between us there wasn't anything to hide
Played some music and stared in the mirror
Didn't understand the man i became
Am I ready or not?
Kids learn fast and kids should be relearning adults because I swear we've lost track of who we all became

Hey there, are you alright?
I'm fine.
What's else would you be worried about?
Not like any one can help or not like anyone really cared.
I wake up every morning and still manage to feel insecure.
But one day happiness will walk through my door.

Every one struggles
Every one fights
Nobody has it easy
Nobody really gives up
Everyone has a breaking point
Lessons has its way to teach
No one has fame, but fame is a dream
Possibilities are endless
How far are you going to get there?
Thats the real question we should be asking ourselves

I don't have much
I worked hard for everything
I look forward to simple movie nights
Popcorn and a case of soda pop
Everythings simple and alright
I will snuggle tonight
Shes my everything
My number one priority

When will it be my turn?
When will I get to make the calls?
Why do I always got to wait?
Doesn't my opinions matter anymore?
Had a break down yesterday!
So now I suffer in silence because no words can explain my pain.

I was never really doing okay,
But i promise I'll make it today.
Wasn't ready for the break up,
Life loves to **** me up and make it all tough.
I'm laying there wishing I was just happy
I was happy when she agreed to be with me
Was happy when i wasn't blocked
Was happy when she said she could be with me
But she ain't happy
She's inscure to be with me
She wants to improve for me
But what for? I forgive and I'm ready
I'm always paranoid now
Don't know if I'll be able to be her priority or if I'll be worthy of her time
Will I ever be hers again?
It's driving me crazy not knowing
Why does it have to be the same? As in why do we gotta love the way we used to
Our feeling aren't goimg away
Why not love more?
But of course it's just easier to ignore
But why put ourselves through that?