eileen

eileen Sep 2021

gone boy

I hope to not know you for long

get out of my life

I want you gone

a week ago

things were well

now I know you exist

life is ruined

I hope you don't stay

wishing you away

I don't want you in my life

maybe it's best

I leave before more time passes

I don't want another memory of you in my head

eileen Sep 2021

creep

they got the devil
in their eyes

a little to dark
there's no surprise

the less everyone knows
I love being unknown

someone no one ever gets to know

a faceless
body

you can't reach me
no one can find me

I made a pact
it's coming true

he loves me
I know he does
I love him very much too

eileen Sep 2021

reversal

you're just like him
you're just like him
scares me
to death
who sent you to me
it
terrifies me
all the similarities
I don't want to meet anyone
like him
ever again
ever
in my life
I lied to you
so quick
I was to lie
no hesitation
rolling my eyes
I know this game
I won't fall again
I won't fall
anymore
I don't want to fall
you can try
but I know how to play
this twisted game
of fake love
I'm not glad
not one bit
wish I never met you
I wish I never did
you're another mistake
I could not resist
I know I'm weak
I know that
I know I'm a fool
I won't fall
I won't love anyone
anymore
you're his replica
I swear
it haunts me
the way
I can feel it too
quiet down
little heart of mine
you know how this goes
heartbreak
follows

eileen Sep 2021

we can so much fun

I know you're talking to her
oh I think I know

how much
you like
little girls

come on
read me a bedtime story

you know you like it too

I can play this game too

trust me
I know how it goes

I'll act innocent

you want an angel
I'll make myself be one

you want a saint
so I'll wash my sins away

I know
how this game works

I think I know
oh

I know you're talking to her

I can see it

you like little girls

I'm not a little girl

come on
read me a bedtime story

you can be-

eileen Sep 2021

The Veldt

don't message me at all
I feel so much better
ignore me more
forget me too
love me not
promise
it's better this way
look at me in the eyes
I'll show you the worst of me
you're going to realize it's for the best

eileen Sep 2021

is there evermore

my feelings are hurt again
confused at 3 AM
tell me
did you ever love me more than a friend

I don't know
if I want to miss you
a little bit more

you left so fast
I forgot you were ever in my room

you're the
weeds growing inside my heart

keep trying to tear you apart
from the top and to the root

it was different
everything
with you

sorry
I keep thinking about you

you cursed me
I can't sleep

eileen Sep 2021

power move

say its all a misunderstanding
the way you made me feel
so lovely
to so lonely

I can hear my freedom
calling me

I'm not waiting anymore

feel so free
without you

wine tastes so sweet