will only ask once
don't make me ask again

you're on and off
don't tell me what's wrong

you're the weeds growing back

you must be spinning
you're going to regret it

stop looking for something
there's not a flower you can plant inside my heart

can't you cover it up
you only like an idea of me

what story is playing in your head
why won't you come and see me instead

you're the worst for me
you're not even an option

don't ask me again
keep it to yourself

I wish I could sing
to sing you all these songs
I wish I could rain
to make you an ocean
I wish I could shine
to be a star in your sky
I wish I was loving
so I could love you
I wish I wasn't troubled
all I do is cause trouble
I wish I could make you gold
you'd be the richest in the world
I wish I could talk
I wish you could read my mind
I wish you didn't need to go
where do we go
I have no direction
you're a good thing
your flaws are slipping through me
and I can't breathe
why don't you go away
there's nothing good
I don't want to make the same mistake
but I'm going to do it again
I know I know
I can see it
can't you prove me wrong
tell me differently
tell me
tell me
I'm wrong
I'm overthinking
I don't even like you
why are you trying to get inside my head
I secretly wish it was him instead
all these feelings are so familiar
are you another lesson
I can't find enough dandelions
how will we make it through this
please stay away from me
you're trying to take me
and I have nothing to give

ripped the skin off my lips
I thought it was bliss
the way you mistreated me
in so many ways
all different days
couldn't have stayed
another minute with you
making me feel so small and cynical
now all my feelings are amusing
when you fall for someone deranged
love is so confusing
killed my breathing for you
starting to overthink
spiraling down
was I wrong to love you


loved the wrong person
or was it
loving at the wrong time

bleeding lips
unrequited love
love so unknown
for someone like me
I will never know
so hard to reach
it slipped through my fingers so fast

I have more to say
none of it matters anymore
anyways

where do we go
where did everyone disappear to

stuck inside our heads
we forget to look outside

I'm slowly forgetting the way
I used to smile in spring

winter is coming
don't let my heart go cold

I don't want to lose everything
to know

don't leave
don't go

if I was nicer
would you stay

tell me all the ways I hurt you
don't lie

honesty sounds like criticism
they're not sensitive
they just don't want to change

hiding inside a wall
you can hear us all

hate me
love me

I don't care
I'm getting there

alone
with or without you

I'll get there

god save me
i never get better
if you hear me
show me the way
why is it so hard to live
you created the perfect world
why did you ruin it
all these pessimistic feelings
wasted thoughts
lost and delusional
greed and guilt
running through our veins
let me see through your eyes
I want to look at myself entirely
show me the ways you adore us all
could you call my name
will it sound the same
I didn't need to suffer
all so I can learn
a painful lesson
I don't hate the creation
I hate the creator

\ heaven is a dream \

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/ hell is our reality /

does anyone know

to feel so insignificant
to feel so tiny
useless
so unknown

are you waiting for me
are you thinking of me

no
no
I know

if I disappear
my name will fade away

I'm tired
of knowing
I mean nothing

loneliness will be the death of me

you say my name
when I'm not around

oversharing, overbearing
don't act like you're so special
you're like everyone else

she's so nice
it's suspicious

I don't want to hear it
you're not my friend

keep my name
out of your mouth