if I'm not in your sweet dreams
I hope you find me in your nightmares instead

I look at your name
but no motivation

i know you're sad
but what can I do

now
we created a distance

feels so unsafe

when you're broken down
you hide from me

I'm torn apart
you can't share your pain with me

I'll be sad with you

anything to be close by
don't leave

how long will you stay alone
miserable

I can't save you

I can't watch you destroy yourself

everything feels pointless

I know if I told you
we feel the same
everything will be okay

but there's a little voice in my head
telling me you don't

maybe you don't feel the way I do

you're going to break my heart
what am I going to do
but sit here

now it's 2 am
hoping you were awake

looking over what you said
all the smiles I made

promise me
we will never run out of things to say

hope this doesn't have to end
it doesn't have to

I don't want to let in the fear

I dont want to be stupid either

but if I dare and imagine myself with you
will I be disappointed

ugh it's all because of you
I'm starting to listen to love songs all day

I want to mold myself to the person I know you'll love

I know you love video games
what do you want from me

It's hurting my brain
I don't want to change
but I want you to like me

I have a million things to say
stupid brain
the minute you're here
I turn away

I play out scenarios in my head
I should stop myself
before I go too far ahead

if I think of you every second that passes
will you dream of me
while you sleep

you make me giggle
I hate it

the way I smile
because of you

I want to tell you everything
suddenly I'm so shy

I want to know everything
why do you have to be shy too

let's just sit
in this comfortable silence

while my heart beats
so fast I hope
you can't tell I'm nervous

you're a kind of soft
I've never felt before

making me
discover new parts to myself

teach me how to play chess
I'd love to learn

you show me
sweetness and comfort

beautiful love

I'm itching to destroy

I'm destructive
I love to build you up
and knock you down

hope you recover well
please don't take it personal

I wonder where you keep your heart
I can't find it

looking everywhere
I got lost

seeing you makes me crazy
I'm having trouble

you say you're fragile
I can put everything back to it's place

beautiful stranger
there you are

I know
we're better off apart

I won't fall