It's a little sad
to meet someone you can't have

some people are impossible to reach

he doesn't tell me anything
not even his name

I try to stand still
so I don't scare him away

he's pretty
so pretty I'll color myself pink
if thats what he likes

it's that useless
kind of love
you try and give
but they're so far away

for nothing in return
at the end of the day

I was hoping we would call
maybe you'd tell me a secret I can hold to myself

it's so sad
heartbreaking
to love someone
who won't let you in

held a star in my hand

you didn't see
you won't believe anything
I say or do

just admit you don't believe in me

neither do I

why do we make our life so complicated
guess I'll believe life complicates us in several ways

I never take the blame
haven't said sorry
since yesterday

I won't say it today

you don't care about me
you just want me to give you all I have

nights will pass
I will hold a million stars

you can forever
reject me

something inside you
will know you're wrong

I don't think you've met the real me

how am I  perceived

forgot your gift

will you save empty boxes for me

people treat me like I want them too

it's very nice knowing you'd hate the real me

things I never say

I think I'm good right here

six feet away

I'm liar

I'd be lying if I said I don't miss you

so much

I hate the way
we're so separated

breaks my tiny heart

you're still so beautiful

your smile is worth gold

don't do what you're told

I'm wondering

if you miss me too

I think you do

maybe that hurts me a little more than it should

no matter what you do

I'll forever be a fool

I'm weak inside

the guilt finds a way

hate to feel so human

I hate the feeling of forgiveness

when they don't deserve it

or knowing you owe them so much

you will never be able to pay back

there goes the feeling of love

maybe it's not real

you don't even care

have no idea
of what we've become

a beautiful vision
I can see through your eyes

does it feel wrong or right

I'm lost

a beautiful
sound
the way you breathe in your sleep

do you dream of me
inside your head

slowly
and scary

how something so pretty and innocent
becomes dangerous and ugly

are we friends
or am I just your favorite distraction

I can't tell
anymore

you have have a meltdown
you want to end it all

next day
you want to act like nothing happened

I hate it
I hate it

but I'm going to fall back
and pretend you're okay

now it's messing with my head