the things I do
to hear the rain fall

I hate to dream
and fall asleep

in the middle of
the city

where no one can
see or hear me

the people are mean
and then so nice
you don't know what to think anymore

but everytime I talk to you
I lose my head

I don't know how to find myself after
all I can think of is you

you want to be someone else
anyone but yourself

but
everyone is fake

don't go looking for love
in red roses

beauty is ugly
you don't want to understand
what it all means

I'm so afraid
of what your mind is thinking

I don't have pictures of you on my phone

I wonder why we don't talk anymore

it doesn't make sense

you're like a shooting star
so fast you disappear from my sight

I had you inside my hands

a year meant nothing

all the days and nights

burn to ashes I'll never see again

so easily we give up

I'll won't see you again

it's just all so sad to me

I can't forgive myself

but I will miss you every afternoon

when time stops and I think of you

there was a woman
who carried an umbrella
in sunlight or rain

faceless
in my imagination

she is still
stuck inside a wall

I'm still wrong
about her

the woman
I could never see

inside
my imaginary world

I wonder
if she created herself

that one night
if we were left alone
could we have become something
right or wrong
I liked you even when I had my eyes closed

I'm never gonna find a boy
that wears a dress

I'll keep looking
in all the grocery stores
libraries
furniture or clothing store
at a car shop

maybe he'll be walking
on the sidewalk
on my way to work
on my way home

I'll do anything for that boy

I got a million bandaids
for my hands and feet

it doesn't hurt
but here comes running hot water

it's sad now
no one cares if I eat dinner

we
like the image of pity

to help those in need
so we can feel better about ourselves

we like
the innocent
and the
dumb

to take advantage
and manipulate

I learned that
very small ears
big eyes

we all
learn the hard way

learned
to carry bandaids