You’ve got the grin of a liar, and the frown of being caught.
I don’t trust you for a minute, you’re not the person I once loved.
And you’ve been ****** with all your damning, at least inside my mind.
But inside my chest, a grave is being dug.
Rest in peace the girl who loved with open arms, scarless and white;
eager to please, without walls and without weeping.
I don’t know if you’re playing dead, or the coffin’s sealed and shut.
And if you’re being buried, I, too, will have a tomb; RIP the girl you once knew.
Were you always such a sinner, selfish and insatiable and scarring?
I believed you every second, every whisper in my ear.
Take a bow and pack your things, or somehow prove me wrong.
I used to think the world of you, and how beautiful a place was this world with you in it.
I’m running out of reasons and you’re running out of time.
If patience is a virtue, call me a sinner, too.
But now we’re both nearly six feet under and the stars are dimming.
The box of your beloved words to me is burning in my stomach and ringing in my ears;
you don’t care anymore, if you ever did.
On my heart you’ve left nothing but tea rings and bullet holes and burns and cracks.
But what hurts the most is not any of this, but that I still can’t regret a thing.

Some people are born with Heaven in their souls,
And their eyes feel like God is smiling on your skin,
And their smile is like Sunday morning.
Their arms aren’t closed like the church doors,
And their fingers hum and harmonize with yours when they touch.
And each word they say zings up your spine,
And your breath quivers and your hands shake,
And your brain can’t calculate, can’t compute,
What you thought wonderful was before.
And sometimes they’ll be just like you and you can’t stop laughing,
And you wonder for a moment if anybody has ever thought you were so beautiful.
Their toenails are seashells and their minds are the ocean,
And you wish you could spend everyday at the beach.
And when you see them just living like everybody else,
You notice they aren’t like them at all.
Hallelujah.

Interlocking toes and whispering I love you,
Kissing each freckle on my face,
And my shoulders, and my legs.
Crying over books together,
And spooning to the sound of rain.
Skin on skin until you melt into each other’s bones,
Leaving tea ring upon tea ring on hearts.
My sails will always blow in your direction,
Although my ship may sail to other seas.
Forever, whether I like it or not,
You are the happiness in my blood and body.
Grains of sand stuck in shoes from beach days long ago.

I still think you’re as blue as summer skies,
And would kiss all the tears in your eyes,
And this may come as a surprise,
But in my heart you still exist.
Your blood smells of roses,
In my dreams we touch noses,
And all the medicine doses,
Can’t drive you away from me.
Someday I’ll decorate your grave,
My heart an empty cave,
Because my grace you did save,
And cause to explode in sparks.

The worst feeling is lying in bed, awake in the dark,
salting your wounds and remembering scars.
Because in lightness and in darkness you are the words running through my head,
with fragrance and clear nostalgia in the sheets tossed on my bed.
Awake I wish to touch you, the figure always in my dreams,
the darling who has caused my heart to burst at the seams.
The embers glow brightest at night when the moon is high,
and when gentle ocean waves sound, reminding me of your sigh.
First love’s terrible haunting will destroy my mind,
restrained by this most addictive and beautiful bind.
In whispers and in wanting you grabbed my heart to keep,
and now I can’t escape you, not even in my sleep.
I’m knee-deep in a puddle; I’m at the edge of the sky.
If I never get you again, baby, I think I’d like to die.

The way you dance is like the way you laugh:
Out of control and all at once.
Your lips look a lot like the world of dreams,
A land I’d like to never leave.
So let’s slow-dance and fall asleep,
And leave reality for romance reverie.
When we wake up and rub our eyes,
It won’t feel like we’ve woken up at all.

You’re just like cigarette smoke
I hate to see you go
But I love to take you in
And I can’t even hold you
I can’t even touch you
I just keep you in my chest
For as long as I can hold
And then I have to let you go
And you fade into the night
Disappear without a trace
It’s like you were never even there
And I’m stuck crying
With lungs full of carcinogens
I’ll never let you in again
Well, maybe just another drag
If only you were so easy to buy
At a gas station at two in the morning
When all I can think of
Is nicotine and you