I had coffee and tea,
just the way I like.
I played music all day,
some loud, some quiet.

I didn’t panic once-
no shame, no crying.
I washed my face,
took care of my skin,
was gentle with myself.

I chose strawberry cheesecake body oil
over bed-rotting despair,
I deep conditioned and
re-dyed my hair.

And tomorrow I might do less,
or maybe more-
but today I loved me
in every pour.

Heavily debated deleting my account,
Even though it predates you,
It is forever tainted
with confessions of
love
for
you

I was so boy-lit, boy-smacked, boy-drunk
Boy-hungry, boy-bitten, boy-hijacked
I was so in love with his flaming-hot masculinity
His swaggalicious mantasticness
Was filled with unparalleled flavor

He smelled so **** and freshalicious
He was my bearded dreadhead treasure
Hot boy royalty with a splash
Of unmatched allure
That devoured me to the core

He was so asstastic
Clappable cheeks in motion
A bounce so mind-blowing
It had me so gung-** about his
Hunkalicious handsomeness

His machoness had me sky-walking
The way he flexed his smooth, broad-*** chest
Had me so obsessed
With his infectious majesticness
Flying high on his dreamy masculine drip

My untamed, gold-chained, and sexalicious stallion
I was so addicted to his
Immaculate irresistibleness
Trapped in his mancave
Of enchanting attractiveness

I was so beyond-boy-blissed out
So far gone on him
That I was meandering
In endless labyrinths
Of macho-soaked fantasies
Of his enchantingly dreamy handsomeness

He was so much more than splashy
Over-the-moon-and-beyond splashy
Send-me-to-the-stars splashy
Transport-me-to-euphoria splashy
Too smooth, too, too, too **** smooth to the max

With that dope-***, kick-*** vibe
That had me so wild about him
He had me high off his fire sauce
Calling out his name at 3 am

I was drenched in his majestic masculinity
His chest, glowing like the green trees, serene leaves,
And immense oceans that touched my soul
His beard was poetry I wanted
To feel, kiss, and never let go

I felt him in my bloodstream
In my veins with his gangbuster game
I hankered for him in so many ways
In lifetimes, in incomparable years
That shimmered in my mind

He wasn’t just fine
He was next-level glow-up dopeness
Treasured pressure-packed mantasticness
My block-burnin' bold dreamboat
My bulletproof beefcake
My chain-swingin’, game-changin’ kryptonite

I was chronically lovestruck by his
Hunky, untouchable charm
Cuffed through dimensions
So strung out on his
Walk, talk, and chopper game

He was my prized possession
My sexaliciously delectable exhibit
Of treasured magneticness
My one in a million marvel
Prepossessing as hell

He dominated me with that
Unmatchable masculine energy
He had that savory, **** freshaliciousness
That enamored me completely
He stayed glistening in my mind
Dancing in the endless streams of my anatomy