Dear Diary;
I have concluded that
there is no soul left in me-
maybe I never had one.
All I know is that there are
no dreams and no love
to be desired.

I miss you
like a dolphin
misses that breath
of fresh air to sustain itself
in the unforgiving depths
of the ocean,
and tonight,
my bed lies at the
bottom of the ocean.

The last time I saw you,
it did not feel the same.
I could feel it straight away-
you had changed and
had already closed the door
to what we once were.
And alongside me,
you left your innocence
and who you used to be.

It still pains me to
think of the nasty memories
we cannot un-live

10:06 AM
2/8/21

There are a lot of
ways to stop the pain but the
scars always remain

1:47 PM
3/8/21

Letting go of you
was the best thing I have done.
Yes, I found you out.

10:21 PM
20/8/20

It came like a cloud
that appeared out of nowhere,
like an unexpected storm
upon my shores without warning.
One moment there was sun,
and the next,
darkness.

People can get quite
defensive when they don't know
what they claim to know

4:01 PM
31/10/22

Sometimes the only
logical thing to do is
forget and move on

4:06 PM
4/12/23

Tell me
the reasons why
I should stop loving you
just because you stopped
loving me.

Even while you're gone,
You will remain in this heart
for you are the rhythm of its beat,
the source of its love and joy.
You are inseparable to this heart
as I am to yours
for we share the same
rhythm and blood.

You closed the door on
me and I closed the door on
everybody else

10:04 PM
6/4/22

What is sadder than
to end something that could have
given us much more?

11:31 PM
26/4/23

I wish people were
more like shooting stars
that would disappear in
a flash of an eye,
leaving no trace but
the memories of something
that was once beautiful
rather than the sun-
an unforgiving and inescapable
giant that leave us burnt
and burdened.

We were
not made for this world.
We were made for
each other.

My dreams were clearer
without the taint of your name,
your face, memories...

4:54 PM
12/6/22

You are a miracle!
Do you know how wonderful you are?
I celebrate it every day.
So always be yourself-
the miracle that you are.
Bless every second,
every heart, every day
with the miracle
that is you!

Somehow, I always
seem to leave with a bit less
than I had before

12:13 AM
9/8/21

We know nothing.
The only difference is that
some of us know we
know nothing.

I want to
drink from your
lips as if you were
an oasis in
the desert.

Why do I still
feel you in my bones?
Memories still fill my chest,
leaving butterflies in their wake
just as you once did.

A strong name for a
majestic sort of goddess
that I had the luck of meeting.
She sang her song-
one of which
captured my heart
and one of which
we can both
rejoice.

She swallowed my
heart and my soul
like a tornado
swallows all the
life it touches.

When the time is right,
we will meet again, that is
my promise to you

4:12 PM
4/1/21

I see your smile
and I wonder if heaven
has opened for me

10:12 AM
18/3/23

The sun goes down
and I take comfort in the night.
I wait for the moon to return,
and with him, the shadows,
silence and solitude.
It is at night where
I can forget about reality and
the bustle of everyday life.
It is at night where I can breathe,
to take inspiration from the darkness
and let the mind run free.

No matter how many  
obstacles life throws at me,
I will always love you,
and will fight such obstacles
to hold on to and cherish
the miracle that is you.

Were we tearing each
other apart for a love
not worth falling for?

3:43 PM
25/2/21

What is so sad
about nostalgia is
how it leaves one frozen
in time.

I am so tired
of this sickness and I hope
that it too shall pass

2:21 AM
4/4/21

Humanity hurt each other-
they would hurt me.
Despite my cynicism,
I adored them,
I helped them.
But the hurt continued...
I don’t do that anymore.

So many places to travel,
wisdom to obtain, music to hear
books to read, poems to write,
people to meet, food to eat,
all in this one life to live.
One life is not enough.

I don't want to
be your next station,
I want to be your
destination.

This life is
really not so poetic.
It's dreary and empty,
and almost ordinary.
These poems are but therapy-
an attempt to make sense of
this world and all emotions
that come with living in it.
They're a coping mechanism to
work through the pain and
better understand oneself.

To the bride and groom;
may your love be eternal
as the moon itself.  

11:26 PM
20/11/22

Our worlds
have split in two
and you’ve gone too far
to come back.
We both can’t go back
to that world
We can’t ever call it
home again.

Your birth is a
love letter to my soul.
Whether you are near or far,
your existence will forever
adorn this heart.

Are you tired from
how much you have done
or are you tired from
the weight of
the world?

Call me in the early
hours of the morning
and maybe,
just maybe,
my heart will
find another place
for you.

Some people
plant seeds in your heart
and grow only the purest of things
while others
seek to cut them down
and salt the earth of your soul.

"We are here for you, always."
"You can tell us anything, always."
"We are so glad you are in our lives."
"We love you, we care for you."
"We will never leave you."
"We are your friends, always."
Liars.

Time has an ugly
way of bringing out the truth
in all of our hearts

6:31 PM
12/7/21

When I think about the adventures,
the laughs, the meals, the memories,
the highs and even the lows,
I am always left with a smile
and heart full of JOY.
No matter the season,
no matter the country,
I will be your friend,
partner and lover in every
adventure, hardship and celebration
we shall face together.
Your life and your soul
is a spark of inspiration and
your smile sets my heart ablaze.
If you continue to warm me,
I will continue by your side
whether it be at home or
a land so far away-
I will continue to support you
and spoil you in every
way that I can.

i never meant
for you to hate me,
I wanted the opposite,
in fact.
I suppose it is better this way,
for me,
at least.

All of this distance
and silence will never stop
me from loving you  

7:10 PM
1/4/23

There is nothing
to fear from silence.
Silence can be a
beautiful thing so learn
to embrace it.

So what is left
of a broken soul?  
Just the empty shell of a man
who barely knows what
it means to exist.

I wonder if I
still haunt you like you haunt me-
a living nightmare

10:06 AM
5/2/22

Saying 'I'm sorry'
is just another way to
announce 'I love you'

12:59 AM
16/9/22

I don't know you anymore
and that is both beautiful
and terrifying at
the same time.