I saw the
spring sun
in your eyes.
The way the yellow light
danced off those beautiful orbs,
like bumblebees on dandelions.
These moments of gold
may one day fall
into autumn's grasp
but the sweet taste it leaves
in my mouth will never dim.
Sweet as honey,
sweet as amber.

Every moment we
have spent together will
live in me forever.
These moments are ours,
and mine alone,
living in between each
heartbeat and behind
every smile until
the end.

A dream about you
over this reality
is preferable

9:21 PM
31/5/19

One more quadrennial,
one more election.
One more dawn,
one more day.
One day more and
we turn a page and enter
one more chapter of history.

We were born alone
and we will surely die alone.
So in the meantime,
won't you hold me
close?

We were two
frozen raindrops
in a greying cloud of love.
Our collision sparked
the perfect storm.

****, is it December already?
I've only just caught up
on all these feelings,
these changes and
days flown by.
They have all come and
gone like a stranger-
and now it is ending.

Perhaps time did not stop,
but life,
as I know it,
did.
Whenever I look back,
I'm still there,
amidst the chaos
and frozen
in time.

So foolish to
think that we are enough for
each other’s demons

It always
ends the same-
you found someone,
you turn away and
just like that,
the magic
is gone.

It is important
not to dwell on these things-
they have a way of
eating you alive.
The best thing you
can do now is shut up,
look forward,
and never back.

Look forward,
and never back.

You deserve to win
the Nobel Peace Prize
for bringing peace to this heart.
It has known nothing
but war and disarray
for far too long.
Thank you.

She said I was loved
I said that you don't know me
or what I have done

9:16 PM
27/7/19

Poets are a strange bunch-
we enjoy the fall until we've hit the ground.
Sometimes we push ourselves if
for nothing but the art.
Oh, how we find that spark
in the darkness of suffering.
Indeed, what a mad bunch we are,
to find sanity in our madness
and I wouldn't have it
any other way.

No matter how dark
your petals may wither
just remember to keep shining
and pushing through the dirt.

why is it that we
only believe the bad things
they say about us?

9:27 PM
10/9/19

I still hear
our favorite song
from time to time.
Each note still sets the key of you
and they're still ringing out
in my head.
There is no pause button
for this harmony
of you.

Dear diary;
last night I met the moon.
She forgot how to shine in
the darkest of nights.
We grew close-
a bittersweet bond
since one of us
was fading
away.

You walked away
as if it were nothing
whereas I could not even
imagine turning my back.
I don't know if I should
envy or despise
you.

The ending
is just the beginning
repeating-
a pretty stranger
that I wish to see
again.

the poems in my
heart are still a home for all
the angels I've loved

7:13 PM
9/8/19

Has anyone tried
to untangle the mess your
heart has endured?

6:33 PM
7/11/20

How can my
pillow still smell of you?
How do my lips
remember yours as if
they were my own?
Memories that don't exist
torment me
day after day,
night after night.

The stars will rise
into the night sky
while the waves will ride
the eternal sea.
No time,
no space,
no deep or no high
Could ever keep this
away from me.

It’s been awhile
since I last heard your voice.
I miss the way it soothed
every atom in my body.
It’s been awhile
since I last felt your touch
I miss the way it healed
me to the core of my soul.

There are only so many battles
one can fight at any point in time.
to be struggling on so many battlefronts
can leave you weary and even broken
whether they are mental
or physical.
For a mere human mind or body
to be occupied on so many fronts-
well, they were never designed
for that sort of pain.

I need you to be
more in or more out since I
can't do the 'middle'

8:13 PM
8/6/19

you knew how
to take my breath away.
To this very day,
I still find it hard
to breathe.

There are  many who
do not like truths because they
are so full of lies

7:54 PM
1/8/23

How am I
supposed to believe you
when all of your sweet
but empty words
and promises smell of
someone else’s name?

This pain will fade.
Pinch yourself once you
can feel again and
remember what it feels
to be human-
to be alive.

I know that this is
going to torture me for
the rest of my life

11:09 PM
26/3/23

The world watches.
They hold their breaths
as the ballots are cast-
a responsibility and gift
not to be taken
for granted.

I made a home in
our old photographs
just so I could feel you
near
again

Still, the sun has not yet
made her appearance in my day.
If you feel this way,
sometimes that’s okay.
She will shed her light
when it’s her time
to shine.

One, two,
crush on you.
Three, four,
miss you more.
Five, six,
my heart you fix.

The love in your heart
will always be stronger than
the hurt in your heart

11:50 PM
11/11/21

They say two weeks 'til
I don't miss you anymore
but I have lost count

9:52 PM
1/7/21

Stop wearing
my favorite colour
It makes you that much
more beautiful.

Dear diary;
sometimes I feel like
I am the side character
in my own
story.

Dear diary;
today I
did not write,
I did not paint,
and I did not compose.
I did not live today but,
then again, I guess that's
no different to any other day.

Summer has
only just begun,
yet it feels like winter
now that you are here.
Hell will freeze over
by the time all is
said and done.

What is sadder:
to forget or to remember?

Maybe living is
itself morally worse than
never being born

4:08 PM
19/5/20

I wonder where you
are now and I wonder where
I am now these days

7:32 AM
26/8/19

Depression doesn’t care for
the size of your bank account,
or tire from how many laps you can run.
It doesn’t care how bright the sun is
or who holds you in each night.
Depression sneers at all those photographs
lined upon your bedside table.
It won’t ask to use your emotions
to taint them and everything
that may hold some light to the dark.

You take the dirt
of this life and
turn it into
sunflowers.

Light dances off your red dress;
I think I adore you.
But it’s never the right time,
the clock ticks and distance
drags us apart like two galaxies
helpless against the dark energy
that keep us in our place.
It only reminds me
that time is running out;
that we’re moving further apart
and never toward one another..
Oh, what I wouldn’t give to hold you
to hear your voice guide me to sleep,
to undo this dark energy between us.

Whatever she creates
leaves me utterly in awe-
every thought of hers
leaving me entranced.
Maybe you have me under a spell,
or maybe this is one big dream.
All I know is that I need
more of you in my life.

I thought it would be
different by the time I
got home and held you

6:17 PM
9/7/19