I screamed and called out
But no one seemed to hear
I was a child
Filled with fear

12 years old
There was a gun to my head
Where was my mom?
Do you think she'd believe me when I told her
The terrible thing Daddy did?

It's been many years
And I still live with him, my father
I want to scream and make him leave
But I don't even bother
It was so much pain I had suppressed
Why tear out the stitches?
I tell him that I love him
And I think I really mean it
He said what he did was out of love and fear
But it didn't seem to me
Like he was scared to shoot his daughter

Cover up your words
With a sugar-coated laugh
She looks like such a friend
But the evil from within
Will soon domesticate her being

Mother helps you practice your lines
The night before the fire
She tells you when to smile
When to laugh and when to cry
I tell her I'm tired
She puts a bandage on my wound
Says it will be good until tomorrow afternoon

Keep my feelings set aside
They wouldn't even care
I feel myself falling
I'm escaping this nightmare

You spoke to me in miracles
One after the other
I'd always been so sure
Of who I am and what I do
But you walked into my life
Made a mess
And left

You engraved your name
Into my tongue
So now I spew out words of hate
And drown myself in fear
I tripped into your arms
And you spit venom into my bloodstream

And I still flinch
And I still quiver

It's been 27 months
And I still don't know what to do

It's been 27 months
And I still bawl at the thought of you