MD - Hello Poetry

MD Sep 2014

I don't want to remember you
Or the way you tore me apart
Limb from limb
I don't want to remember that house
That we slept in so peacefully
You had me believing I would sleep in that bed
Forever

I don't want to remember your hands
Or how they felt
When my fingers danced along your palm
I don't want to remember your heartbeat
Drumming along to mine
As we laid there
With our legs intertwined

I don't want to remember
Stop making me remember

Another summer without you

MD Sep 2014

Summer of 2014

This was the summer of cold showers
Rinsing off the sins of yesterday
Feeling reborn as the water rushes over your fragile body
This was the summer of friendship
Making friends
Losing friends
Finding out where you really stand with people
You once called your 'best friend'
This was the summer of freedom
3am comes and you're driving down the highway
Feeling like you've never really lived before
This exact moment
This was the summer of questions
Who am I?
Who are you?
Why do I still think of you?
This was the summer of sparks
Whether it be the spark of the lighter
While you light what you said
Would be your last bowl
Or the spark you felt
When you finally got to sleep next to
The person you've been dreaming of for years
This was the summer of 2014
And I cherished every moment of it

MD Aug 2014

What Will We Become?

Manipulation is the way of the 21st century
I understand people much too well
I've been through it all
You want the power so bad
And you won't stop until it's in your hands

Superiority is the way of the 21st century
Everyone is better than everyone
I sit back and watch as the clock ticks on
The world is wasting away

Eloquence is the way of the 21st century
There's some many powerless people
Just looking for a leader
And they'll take anything they can get
Persuasion and *******
Nothing will ever go back

Destruction is the way of the 21st century
Building kingdoms only to tear them down
Torturing the souls of people you once knew
This world is full of megalomaniacs
And I'm afraid there's no changing that

MD Aug 2014

Untitled

No matter how much I smoke
I'll never feel the euphoria I felt when I was with you
The nights turn to days
Turn to nights
And I'm losing my mind
To know how effortlessly you moved on
How you can **** someone without thinking of me
Or how you feel nothing when you see me
Did you ever feel anything?

You are so important and you don't even realize
How much I want to get to know you again
I want to see you laugh
I'll never get a second chance

MD Aug 2014

I Cannot Watch You Die, My Friend

I now know how it feels
To lose someone you love
Without them actually dying

You can feel it in the way
They stop caring about themselves
You can see it when they
Stop eating

I now know how my mother felt
When I was withering away
It's not all that fun
To watch someone you care about
**** themselves day by day

I want to make her feel better
But from personal experiences
I know that no string of words
Said to her
Would ever really help
You cannot sit and tell someone
They cannot be the way they are
You must let themselves explain
And slowly
Oh god, so slowly
They will start to rebuild their soul

MD Jul 2014

Untitled

Your lips were coated in Grey Goose, I could get drunk off of you. You lingered on my tongue, I longed to know your thoughts. We danced through the streets, I forgot how to think. You were a drug and I was hooked. I smoked you, I injected you into my bloodstream. I've been clean for two years, but there's not a day that goes by that I'm not drunk on the thought of you coming back.

MD Jul 2014

5:00 feelings

It's 5 o'clock in the morning and I am in deep. Reading the texts I sent you last night was hard, I poured my feelings onto your lap and you didn't reply, you pushed all my care for you aside. I am now sitting in my room with the thought of you ever wanting me back rushing through my head. I'm thinking next time (if you ever give me a next time) will be different. We've both grown; physically, emotionally, intellectually. I know that I can't cram all my problems down your throat and expect you to always have the right answers to my stupid questions. I don't know what you ever saw in me but I'm hoping you'll see it again. I can't say I love you, because honestly, I don't know who you are anymore. But I am wishing that someday you will let me back in and allow me to get to know that person underneath your shell of armor.