MD - Hello Poetry

MD Feb 2014

You came at a time
When I was sure
I was all I had left

I'm scared
To let you in
So you can see
That nothing has changed
Since last year

I'm still stuck
In this cycle of sadness
I cannot seem to break through
The dark clouds above my head

You came back into my life
And you filled something
I was so positive would stay
Empty forever

MD Feb 2014

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I don't know when
I started to feel more
Than just wanting to be felt
But I knew it was something special
On friday night
When we were in the car
And you reached out
To hold my hand
I'm feeling something
Different now
Something I've never
Felt before
And it's confusing
But I don't mind
Because I'm happier now
Than I have been
In a long time

MD Feb 2014

is this a family?

a room
full of strangers
who know each other
much too well

a fight
occurred just
a minute ago

we wake up
and put on our masks
we get ready for the day
and pretend like
last night didn't happen

lately
I've forgotten
what a family feels like

my dad
tells my mother and me
to "*******"
on a daily basis

I don't understand
where we went wrong
but this is not
a family

MD Feb 2014

the world seems to be splitting

When I was younger
My mother taught me
To always apologize
If I do something wrong

At five years old
I did not realize
How many mistakes
I would make

How much longer
Do I say I'm sorry
Until I break?

MD Feb 2014

you were never here

You are a living person
But you are not real
I made you up in my head
I turned you into something perfect
To keep me from going crazy
Each time I said I loved you
I meant it
But only to the 'you'
That I created

MD Feb 2014

darkness in the house

The sun
Doesn't shine
The moon
Doesn't glow
I breathe
In such an odd pattern
People ask
If I'm okay

I cannot see
Each time I stand
The blackness closes in
The kitchen is calling
Trying to drag me back
There is
No more light
Only the
Blackness of night

MD Feb 2014

these numbers control me

I was at a ****** place
When I was 89 pounds
I was a cloud
Floating above the ground

I was at a even worse place
At 95 pounds
I could feel the weight of the world
Pushing me down

Now,
My breath can hardly mutter a laugh
I am a rock falling to the ground
But I am not strong
At nearly 110 pounds
I am the saddest I have ever been