It's coming back
And I don't know if I can stay away this time
It's addicting
I get high off the pain
I'm giving in
To the blackness
That once ruled my whole life

Please be careful with what you say
I know you're tired of walking on eggshells
For a girl who doesn't care
But you are the only opinion
That truly matters to me
Please be careful with what you say
Don't tell me to *******
Because one day
I might
And that scares me half to death
But you're exhausted of me
I'm making you go insane
I really want to leave
I want to hide
In the giant hole
I've dug for myself

You're a flower
I'm a ****
You're a rose
I'm just a seed

You're summer
I'm winter
Your blood runs warm
My heart is frozen solid

If you're a shooting star
I'll be the person wishing
If you're the rain
I'll be the one dancing

You speak with such sharp words
You didn't even try to heal my wounds

It's been exactly
One year
Eight months
And seven days
Since you were gone

I gave you my all
I'm going insane

You pushed me away
You spat my name

It's been exactly
Eighty-eight weeks
And one day
Since you cursed the ground I walked on

It's been exactly one week
Since we said our goodbyes
I blocked you out of my life

I stopped myself the other day
As I realized
I was beginning to tell a story about you

During the past week
I've walked through the fires of hell
I sat high upon the clouds
I fell down a rabbit hole

I woke up

It's been a few days
Since I've felt the urge to talk to you
I'm trying to erase you
But you live within my skin

i'm sorry that i cannot get you out of my head and i know it's been two years but you still haunt my dreams and i'm scared that you're completely forgetting that we ever happened and it really ***** that you gave me so much to remember and i gave you so much to forget

I no longer wish
To be weightless

I want the weight of your body
On top of mine
And the weight of your heart
Intertwined with my soul  
I want the weight that comes
From loving too much
Caring too much
Wanting too much

You left on a Monday
Over a year ago

I still haven't given up