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Mattea Marie Jun 2013
The worst part
About walking away from
The very thing that
Saved me
Is that I don't
Have a
Choice
I don't know what's gonna happen to me
Mattea Marie Jun 2013
Let me pour my heart out to you
But you aren't allowed
To listen
Because my heart
Doesn't speak with
Sound
If you want to know me
Watch me
Notice every deliberate angle
Listen to my quivering limbs
Let my fingers tell you my wishes
My toes will tell you my fears
The bend in my spine will tell you
My weaknesses
The hesitation in my core will tell you
My passions
The truth is ingrained
In the pull of my muscles
Across fragile bone
Do not listen to the words I speak
Just hear my breath
Take notes from my body
Let me show you
The story of my
Life
this is why I dance. my words do not do my life justice.
Mattea Marie Jun 2013
The sunlight streaming
Through the open window
Kisses my face good morning
And creeps under my eyelids
My mouth tastes like cotton
And bittersweet regret
I slide off the bed
Out from under the tangled mess
Of blankets and my innocence
A pack of cigarettes and black coffee
Beckon me
I lean over the iron balcony
Over the foreign cobbled street
A cancerstick dangling from my fingers
Wrapped around a delicate mug
His dress shirt flutters around my bare legs
In the morning breeze
Eyes closed, I feel the cigarette slipping
He rolls it coyly around his fingers
And takes a slow drag
Before leaning against the railing beside me
This stranger and I
this was the end of one of my dreams. I'm still not sure how I feel about this poem... And the dream itself.
Mattea Marie Jun 2013
I sit alone at the bar
Lazily swirling the last bits of
***** and ice
Around my glass
The sweet stench of smoke
Clings to my clothes
And seems to settle in my crevices
Over the muddled din
Of pool tables and conversation
A voice at my ear
A hand at my waist
A pair of convincing eyes
Against my better judgement
I leave my drink at the bar
Along with my
Dignity
this is based off a dream I had that should have frightened me more than it did.
Mattea Marie Jun 2013
I want to stargaze
With someone
Who wants to have a conversation
About the universe
And their life

I want to explore
With someone
Who will climb over
Roots and rivers
And uncover secrets

I want to drive
With someone
Who will just talk to me
Over winding roads
And long lost paths

I am not looking for a lover
I do not want to be replaceable
I'm not concerned with getting
Swept off my feet
I can stand on my own

I am looking for a friend
Someone who will call me at 3 AM
Drunk and crying and seeking advice
That only I can give
I want a best friend
Not a lover
Best friends make the best lovers.
Mattea Marie Jun 2013
I'm afraid to close my eyes
Because in my dreams
I still feel your
Touch

I can't wake up to that kind of pain
I've recently found a lot of my breakup poems. Funny how they still hold true.
Mattea Marie Jun 2013
I don't want to
think about
You
anymore

*please stop
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