I wish I could keep this moment
Put it in my pocket and save it
For a rainy day
When the world reflects my mind

I wish I could save the sunshine
As it glints golden off
Emerald leaves
That dance and whisper
In wind's soft caress

I wish I could save the silence
As it wraps it's fingers
Around my swollen heart
And holds me close
So I don't feel so alone

I wish I could save the grass
It's expansive touch
Enfolding me in a blanket
Of sweet memories
To ease my mind

I could stay in this moment forever
But if I did
I might lose the next one
And who knows
It might be better

So I'm the *****
Because I kissed a boy
Who likes girls and *****
A bit too much

But you're going after
The girl with a steady boyfriend
Who you know will fall for you
Like she did last time

Tell me how it's fair to call me names
And say I'm a bad person
When you're no better
Yourself

I will not
Kneel at your door
And beg for you
Back

I will apologize
In some hope
That you will
Forgive me

But I will not
Grovel at your feet
As if
I cannot live
Without you

I gave you
My apology
I will not beg
I will wait
Don't expect me
To come running
After you
If all you do
Is walk
Away

hey there eugene
it's me
rapunzel

i've been wanting to talk
but i know you're hurting
it's my fault
so you don't have to
keep reading
but i'd like it if you did

i messed things up tonight
i tried to step out of
my tower
into the big kid world
but i tripped
and fell on my face
like always

i told you i wouldn't do it
i promised i'd stay safe
i tried to keep
my promise
but see, someone stole from me
he pulled on my hair
and called my name
i didn't want to leave
my tower
but i let him
pull me down

eugene im scared
i hate this tower
i wish i knew
all of it's secrets
but i'm still learning
now, that fall taught me a lesson
i know i needed
but how many falls
will it take
before i learn?

you trusted me tonight
and i know i
let you down
so if you're still reading
im still lying here
with a bump on my
head
to match the splinters in my
heart
i can't get back
to my tower
without my
eugene

i don't deserve your help
i don't deserve
you at all
i'm greedy for
wanting you to
stick around
and help me up
when i fall
but i've always promised
to brush you off too
please do not forget
how i healed the **** on
your hand
im trying to heal the ****
i left on your
heart

i need you eugene
i hope you
don't hate me too much
after all
you helped me
see the light

i havent written in months
i can put my emotions to words
my jumbled imagination
that flips through thoughts
like they're
tv channels
i never needed to write
i could speak with movement
telling my story
through the tips
of my fingers
to the soles
of my feet

but im writing now
ive been writing
quite a bit
because my language
grew mathematical and cold
i bragged of numbers
i was paraded around
like an equation
that praised technicality
you took my voice
and gave me legs
but made me speak
in your language

take your legs
take your language
this is my voice
this is my soul
i won't ever let
anyone
take it from me
again

you and i will never stargaze
like you promised
in a message
so i couldn't see you
lie

you and i will never see the city
like you promised
to my face
but i still heard you
lie

you and i will never meet again
i promise
you *******

you and i may not speak
in a week
or a few months
you will forget we happened
i might

you are full of empty promises
and i am full of too much hope

for a moment
i thought
i could do this

i could be someone else
someone new
someone foreign
out of character

i don't regret my experiences
because they make me
who i am
so i won't regret you
i'll just regret
how you happened

so that's not me
i'm not someone else
i'm not what anyone expects
i'm not willing
to give my all
for someone who gives me
nothing

i'll figure me out someday
but in the meantime
i'll make more mistakes
like you
and not regret mistakes
like you
and learn from mistakes
like you

so thank you
for being a mistake
because now i
know