You're swimming in dangerous
waters, sleepwalking down the
busiest streets, and trying to
convince us all that there is
another sun, when I can assure
you that there is not.

To you friendship is tears
in the rain, completely
unseen, unnoticed, yet there
to catch you when you fall.

Now maybe you will understand
why I've spent my life for you

just

waiting...

The warm glow from the cigarette butts blinds me slowly,
The smoke fills the delicate air poisoning those around me,
But it does not matter now, I am calm and so are they.
That's enough for me if nothing else.

Grey speckled silver wisps dance around me
And fill the room with a sense of familiarity,
Its not that I'm addicted so much as it is I enjoy
The nostalgia that fills me with each breath.

Memories of those close to me and the past
I used to live moment by moment.

Who would have known something so simple
Could mean so much to one person.
If you found this, you know who you are,
Thank you for making me feel this way.

I will never understand why you
Do the things you do. Or why I
Just cant ever seem to help you.
But I am glad you are in my life,
Even without talking, I guess I
Know you are still ok by the feeling
In my heart every time you
Cross my mind. Is that enough
To know thzt a person means
More than everything to you?

Anyway I just wanted to say
I miss hearing from you. I love
You so very much. Have a good
Evening please. Oh and don't forget
To remember me so I can
Remember not to forget you.

With love,
Your dreamer forever

Someday you are going to understand
Why it never worked or felt so perfect
With anyone else.

You will be given back every pen you
Have ever lost and everything you spent
So long being unable to say.

And when that day arrives you will set sail
Utop the world's most brilliant ocean
Waving goodbye to the shallow shore
Of loneliness you have grown so
Fond of.

There will be a new song stuck on repeat
Inside your already crowded mind
And a fire in your heart that will
Never go out.

At that moment Love will be
In your grasp. This is true love
This is it...

Everything you have ever wanted
Will soon be yours.

You can sit there staring at me
With that unreadable look in your eye,
The sparkle is gone and the smile
I love so much is fading by the second.

I cant see you, really I never could,
But now all I have is that picture in
My mind when I close my eyes...
Its falling apart, missing all the details
I thought would last me forever.

I cant see you, I know you're still
Here though. Or rather still there.

All our pretty little songs are playing
On repeat and they just wont stop
No matter what I do and the things
You used to say as sleep gently
Pulled me away or when tears called
The shots for me are all the words
I hear when I dare to dream now.

You are somewhere new without
Even leaving, you are not the person
I spent so long believing you were.

Someday you will find this,
That much I know. When you do
The countdown is over, the promises
Have been forgotten, and goodbye will
Not be said this time.

But something tells me you are
Not planning to come back any
Time soon, so just don't come
Back at all, have fun.


P.s. somehow though, I will continue to love you
Even after the ends of time and until Death dies.