hurting
hurting
crying
hurting
bleeding
screaming
shaking
hurting
crying
sobbing
shaking
bleeding
bleeding
bleeding
gone..­..

you are so beautiful, it's hard to breathe.

You told me today that I better not **** myself
Because you'd come to wherever I am and stop me
I don't want to die
I just don't want to be alive
That doesn't make sense
to no one who has ever felt this
I used to hurt myself
Millions of scars up and down my arms
I'm glad you never had to see that
That's all gone and in the past
So you don't have to worry about that
I don't want to do that to myself anymore
I won't hurt myself
I won't **** myself
Don't worry
I don't want to die
I just don't want to be alive
And what I mean by that is I don't want to be 6 feet under
I don't want to take my last breath
I don't want to give up any hope of a good future
I just don't want to be alive
I don't want to have to socialize
or pretend I'm alright
I'm in pain
And I don't want to hide
I don't want to be alive
Don't worry, this only happens sometimes
I'm fine

for once in my life, i don’t have to try to be happy. when i am with you it just happens.

there is not a single part of you i can live without now.

the good things in life are better with you.

thank you for all the reasons i have to love you.

i can be so completely myself with you and i love it

there’s nowhere else i’d rather be than with you.

all my life, i have dreamed of someone like you.

i can imagine us together so well. i can see every little piece of our future together. the things we will do, the things we will say, the places we will go. everything. i can see it so vividly like i'm just watching a movie play in front of me. and it makes me fall even deeper in love. i just hope the universe doesn't tear us apart.

i sleep constantly
i'm usually so tired
i am right now, but

i know if i sleep
i will dream of losing you
and please forgive me

but i don't want to
wake up crying again and
feeling my world end

just look at me now
someone afraid of sleeping
something i once loved

i don't want to ache
and wake up crying your name
because i need rest

i would rather die
than to keep dreaming of that
it hurts way too much

so i stay up and
try to remind myself that
you are here to stay

you are the only one who can love me the way i need.

you make me happy just by being yourself.

I want to write a special poem just for you.
To tell you how you make me feel.
But I don't think I could find the right words to describe exactly what is going on in my heart.

I could say you make my heart skip a beat, but no, that's not the truth
You make my heart stop and you revive it over and over again
I could say I see stars when I look into your eyes, but no, that's not the truth
I see whole galaxies and I know there's so many worlds inside you wanting to break free
I could say that you give me butterflies, but no, that's not the truth
There's not just a few, there's a whole lepidopterarium full
I could say you're as beautiful as a rose, but no, that's not the truth
Your beauty is out-of-this-world, unfathomable, no words are good enough to describe it
I could tell you you're worth more than gold, but no, that's not the truth
Your worth surpasses all earthly things
I could go on and on telling you these things that make my heart stop and my stomach fill with butterflies
But even this poem isn't good enough to show you exactly how I feel

Darling, I've never seen someone as beautiful as you.

you have me. until every last star in the galaxy dies. you have me.

i love you to the core of my being, so thoroughly that every cell comprising me aches to be near you.

if i kissed you, i don't think i'd be able to stop.

"i'm a mess, but i'm the mess that you wanted."

i want to say i love you
but that would be wrong, wouldn't it?

we were always made for each other. we were always meant to be.

tonight i will go to sleep smiling, dreaming of you.

I keep glancing at the clock
counting down the minutes until I'm in your arms

i saw your name today. and when i thought of you, the fire in my chest grew and i could feel the warmth spreading throughout my body. i am so in love with you.

you are the one i was meant to find.

i will always wait for you. i do not want anyone else.

you noticed me when i was lost, when i thought i was too broken to be loved.

don't worry. i will always be there to comfort you.

i know the distance ***** but just remember that we lay under the same stars. place your hand over your heart and remember i'm right there.

I used to think I could control the weather
What I felt inside always matched what was happening outside
When I was happy, the sun shined bright and the warmth wrapped around everything in it's path
When I was sad, it was cold and it rained.
But it's more than just that.
When something was tearing me apart, it rained harder.
When I wanted to scream and cry and not be alive, it rained so hard, it flooded everything
Lightning shot through the sky and the thunder shook the ground
I'm sorry in advance for the storms I may feel
I can't help it
I didn't ask for this superpower
It was just given to me
And I try to keep it all inside
to keep the sun shining
But sometimes I just break
And I'm sorry in advance for all the damages that may take place
I didn't ask for this superpower

je t'aime tellement et je veux être avec toi pour tonjours.
Je pourrais continuer encore et encore et vous dire ce que je ressens,
mais ce poème serait trop long à lire du début à la fin.
sachez simplement que je vous aime plus que tout et que j'aimerais qu'il y ait suffisamment de mots dans l'univers pour vous un dire plus.

you are the heaven i would go to hell for.

all i want is for my hands to hold you.

this is one of those days i feel way too much. and right now, my heart is overflowing with love for you.

am i happy? no.
will i soon be happy? no.
just the way it is

your soul is the most beautiful thing i've ever seen.

you pulled me out of the darkness and for that, i will always be thankful.

the sadness stays away when i am with you.

1 year, 1 month, 1 week, and 1 day until we can be together for good, for forever.