I know I am dying,
And I can hear your escalating laughter.
The whole time you knew,
And kept playing your game.
Congratulations,
You won.

.

That moment you realize that everyone hates you,
And always has. And you are the least important person
In everyone's life, and you are too cowardly to **** yourself.

I went to the chip shop yesterday and ate a year off my life.
They have fried everything there.
Fried macaroni and cheese and fried pizza.
Fried snickers bars and fried twinkies.
I know the stuff if murdering my heart,
but I'm too old to care anymore.
Some things are worth it.

The tears shed,
by the cup full,
wild claims of love and devotion,
the heart rending claims of
people believing they were in the way
of other peoples happiness
when it has always been me.
It has always been me in the way
of everyones happiness.
Never once have I done anything right.
I'm sorry,
for being in the way this long.

Wandering down a twisted maze,
I can't find the doorknob,
The ten watt bulbs are flickering
I do not know which wall is which.
I sting, I itch.
I am burning, its stifling,
I'm dying in this maze.

If
I had a middle name
I'm pretty sure it would be
Jealous.