hey,
im not quite sure
how to say this.
ive typed it a hundred times
and deleted it
every time.
i like girls.
i don't quite know what that
changes for you --
but it doesn't change who ive
always been.
im still me.
still your daughter.
i just finally wanted to tell you
the truth about myself.
even if it's scaring the **** out of me.
especially if you don't understand,
i hope one day,
you'll still see me
the same.
just more...
whole.
more real.
and more
me.

but im not sending this.
im not ready.

Sometimes I don't know who I'll be the next day
Will I be the girl who keeps everyone at bay?
or will I be the one
who is coming undone?
Sometimes I look at me
and I'm not sure what I see
am I a girl who is falling apart?
or am I someone who just needs life to start?
Sometimes I close my eyes
and I dream of a different life
But I know that whoever I am, whatever I may be
I will never stop longing to just be free.

i will not stop ever ever
i will run into grey skies
i will not stop ever ever
i will fight until it dies  
i will not stop ever ever
i will relentlessly wrestle with the knife
i will not stop ever ever
i will lustfully breathe all of life
i will not stop ever ever
i will almost drown in the river
i will not stop ever ever
i will cry but load the quiver
i will not stop ever ever
i will shoot it in the heart
i will not stop ever ever
i will refuse to restart
i will not stop ever ever
i will not look back nor slip
i will not stop ever ever
i will lay naked none to strip
i will not stop ever ever
i will let go of pencil turn to pen
i will not stop ever ever
I will not hurt myself again

texts never sent, is nysterie's second ever project. consisting of five texts, going to either a crush, a friend, a parent, enemy or even her future self.. somehow.

these unsent texts reveal her true feelings on the situation and what she should've said in the moment, but never did.

https://textsneversent.straw.page << the project page

the texts:
- i just needed you to know
- drifting
- im still me
- not worth my voice
- one for the books

soul; an archive of feelings, a vulnerable collection of eleven entries. an true archive of feelings. mysterie's first ever project.

these entries are very special and vulnerable, mysterie hopes to connect with fellow poets and poetry lovers with these entries.

the archives:
- i waited
- the way i used to
- the ocean knows me
- waiting
- i still care
- where the soul weeps
- tsunami
- begin again
- the book you left open
- dusk
- chosen