Leila

Leila Jan 2014

Parables learned the hard way can be haunting
In a life lived solitary lonely and wanting
But this is what I get for trying to trap a star
An emotional scar, smothering radiance mars
The balance of things was too upset
And the other stargazers couldn't forget
The pressure quickly became unstable
It’s like I was searching for truth in a fable
You may think you know who a person is
But blinding is the star that's burdened like this
It's bound to become an illusion of what you wish it could be
When you do good you should throw it in the sea
Don't drink poison to quench a thirst
In morals the sad man must become well versed

rewrite

Leila Dec 2013

Supernovas

This lesson learned the hard way is daunting
I live my life solitary lonely and wanting
But this is what happens for trying to trap a star
Let down - their light radiates endlessly far
The balance of things would be too upset
And the other stargazers aren’t going to forget
The pressure would quickly become unstable
It’s like searching for the truth in a fable
You may think you know who a person is
But blinding is the star that you burden like this
It’s bound to become an illusion of what you wish it could be
Hopes deceive - do good and throw it in the sea
Do not drink poison to quench a thirst
In lessons the sad man must become well versed

Leila Dec 2013

People of Another Sort

The words escape me
Their message is daunting
I begin to hate me
Reprocusions are haunting
Been feeling low lately
My mans lies are taunting
He's got a secret lady
But i'm the one left wanting

Leila Dec 2013

Lions, Tigers, and Bears

It's always been a lie
I was naive to even try
He's a beast in disguise
Sowing seeds of my demise
He can peer into my soul with a glance
And he takes advantage of every chance
He may be a man but he's no human
He walks like a king walkin over ruins
Everything is his that was once mine
God willing, all we have is time
There are no moves I can make
I think I am dreaming when I am awake
Everything that once was means nothing
When lies are more becoming

Leila Dec 2013

Ruins

How can I define to you in a rhyme
My pain, melodically, nurtured with time

How can I make anyone feel what I feel
When all I know are lies, how can I make this real

Let me bring you down with me
As we walk through the fire, tell me what you see

Let me throw you to the ***** blindfolded
Stand your ground - see how long you can hold it

Give me 18 years to destroy your worth
I’ll be in your brain til you regret your birth

Let me sully all that surrounds you
You'll thank God for the worst you've been through

But words and poems pale in comparison to pain
Don't ask me why i'm soaked after you left me out in the rain

The truth is that only when you have to hide like I hid
Will you be able to know the pain that I did

Leila Dec 2013

When We Fall Apart

Am I making the right moves
It doesn’t feel like I am
Am I ******* up every time I choose
Because I am not like them
It seems like I’m always the one to lose
No matter how hard I try
It feels like I have the most to prove
And I’m battling love and lies
In a war that I cannot survive
On the day that we die
Will I be able to say goodbye

Leila Nov 2013

Immortal

Time is all I have and all I do is waste it
I'm stepping on minutes like pavement
For me, there’s no living in the moment
I can’t turn time into a quotient
Because every second is the same
It's like I was here before I came
There is no such thing as death
Even when I take my last breath
I will forever live on
In blood, words, and photons