hey,
i know i shouldnt do this
but im not over you
i cant get over you
i get how stupid i sound
but i was in love with you *******
i shouldn't have fallen that hard
i if anyone should have known
you never fall deep in highschool
never hurt yourself
as much as i did with you
i dont regret you
dont regret what we did
i wont tell lies about you
i pray you wont tell them of me
though im sure you already have
i don't care
that dismissiveness i hated in you
but now i'm using it
i tried being cold
but i cant because when i see you
my heart speeds up
and i still cant look you in the eyes

its not that i didn't want you happier
its not that i didn't know you'd move on
its seeing those smiles
watching those hands
reach for another girl
i thought you would be my forever
and i know that we just weren't right
i shouldn't be crying since i moved on to
but for some reason
when i hear an old slow song
i miss they way i felt in your arms
the arms i was ready to be in forever

sometimes i have all the inspiration in the world
i write poem
i write stories
i write the inner folds of myself
and sometimes i have absolutely none
i cant walk
i cant talk
i cant even get out of my bed
and thats just my depression i guess

I'm not haunted by death
But rather this graveyard of memories
You left behind
When you left me on the corner
Of broken dreams
And smiling with glee

When I asked if you loved me
It wasn't because I wanted love
It was because I wanted to feel loved
Which is a different concept entirely
But of course you can't understand
When have you ever

A storm in my heart
That has caused my emotions
To come in waves
Crashing to shore with choppy waves
From hundreds of stormy nights
And only the lucky ones
Make it to the shores
Because only a few
Find the lighthouse I'm hiding
With dark foggy clouds

once upon a time
i smiled for hours
i danced for days
i waited for weeks
and laughed for months
but most importantly
i loved you for years
even after you betrayed my heart