i have been through
6 high schools
they start to get blurry
no time to plant roots
cause im gone in a week
don't have time to unpack
because like that were gone
don't remember faces
cant remember names
and i will never forget that day
but i can remember
how you made me feel

im all alone
with my thoughts
my broken dreams
my tears
except for when im
with the people who barely know me
who cant even tell my story

When I asked her
Why she loved thunderstorms
I was genuinely surprised
By her saying
"Because,
It shows that even the world
Has to scream sometimes
And so when the lightning strikes
I too scream
With the world"

No one expects
An angel to set the world
On fire
But just you wait
Cause one day these flames
That I hide under my skin
Will burn you

I wasn't born
To be
Soft and quite
I was born
to make the world
Shatter and shake
At my fingertips

I wasn't born
To watch
From the sidelines
I was born
To see dreams
Become as vivid and real
As my poems

the lights flicker on
the lights flicker out
i can still hear her voice bouncing off these empty walls
can still see her shadows on the walls
can still smell her

The lights flicker on
The lights flicker out
im almost forgetting the doctors words
she cant be dead that cant be true
He lied the doctor had to
Shes going to see me soon walk through that door laughing

The lights flicker on
The lights flicker out
But she is dead i know she is
Why would she do that
Why would she drink
Why would she drive
Didn't she know how much that would hurt me
She had to why couldn't she just called someone
Why did she have to die
I hate her for that

The lights flicker on
The lights flicker out
I don't even care honestly
I have not showered for five days
have not been able to leave my bed for 10
But i don't care abut her
I don't need her
And i'm fine
I don't need anyone not even myself

The lights flicker on
The lights flicker out
Why couldnt have been me
I would have rathered it be me
Why couldn't i have ran in the car
I would trade my life to go back
To tell her not to go
Its all my fault why didn't i warn her
I could've please trade my life

The lights flicker on
The lights flicker out
Its been two months now
I'm okay
Shes gone i cant change that
No one can change that
Its not my fault
I'm not mad
I will find love again
It still hurts when i think of her
Still breaks me down
But i'm okay
But i'm moving forward
because i have too

you play games
on innocent girls hearts
you watch as the damage you make pans out
and then you go on the run
searching for another innocent life to lodge yourself into
making them feel worthless
making them feel broken
making them hate themselves
thinking they owe you there bodys
there lives
there souls
because they arent living it the way you say they should
that they need to obey you
no matter the circumstance
they must obsess over you
and when there broken enough not to anymore
you do it all again