Everyone knows I'm right about one thing
You and I don't work out
You bring out the mean in me
I bring out your insecurities
You know what I am talking bout
Eventually you'll be fine if we break up
And one day I'll be fine too
But we should just end it now
Before someone gets more hurt than they have to

Before I ever met you
I never knew that my heart could love so hard
Before I ever met you
I never knew I would be enemies with disregard
Before I ever met you
I never knew that I liked to be kissed for days
Before I ever met you
I never knew I could be broken in so many ways

As I fixed your collar,
my fingertips barely
grazed your pulse
but it was just enough
to feel the blood rushing
underneath your skin.
Pulse quickened: check.
I only had to make
brief eye contact,
look up
and down again,
to see the expansion
of your pupils.
Eye dilation: check.
Don't think that
I didn't
hear or feel
the breath you didn't
realize you
were holding in.
Shortness of breath: check.
Hmm.
Interesting.

I could spend ages reading the news
I could spend days, singing the blues
But I turn up the tv light
Give up without a fight
Better than pretending to know what's wrong and what's right

I could spend ages asking myself why
There's a million ways that I could say goodbye
But I turn down the lights
Come on baby come inside
Better then being some fool's bride
Better than pretending to know what's wrong and what's right

I could listen to your midnight voice for hours, talking about nothing and yet everything.

I'm so sorry I can't give my whole self to you. Over time, bits and pieces have been broken off and never returned. I can't give you everything that I want to give. I want to give you my heart, my everything. You deserve so much love. You deserve all of my love. I'll spend the rest of our time together apologizing for reasons you won't know about. Let me. I will write apologies on your lips with mine, on your shoulders with my fingertips, on your heart with my fragile one. There are so many walls, B. I put them up in a matter of days. It wasn't hard, their shadows still showed in the grass. Every time you say you love me, a brick falls. They crash at your feet. Don't let them fall on your toes. Just move them to the side, make a pile and cover them with tarp. I don't want to see them. I don't want to be reminded anymore. All I want is memories with you. Maybe that's why I take so many photos of your smile or screenshots of your texts. I want to remember every single thing. You've given me some of the best memories I've ever had the privilege to remember. You.
I love you. I love you. I love you.

At our beginning, I told myself that I wouldn't need you.
That I could make it through the day without your hand in mine.
That I could sleep without hearing your breath.
That I could wake again without my lips pressing against yours.
But here I am, five months in, needing you like oxygen.

I hope that the shard of my heart you still hold turns to glass and slices open the delicate skin of your palm

Frequencies so low
Heart on a string
A string that only plays solos
Rain made of echoes
Tidal wave rushing on and on

Shell made out of gold
Found on a beach picked up and you held so close
Rain washed out it's glow
Heartbeat steadily leads me down below

Under the water you scream so loud but the silence surrounds you
But I hear it loud and you fall in the deep and I'll always find you

If my red eyes don't see you anymore
And I can't hear you through the white noise
Just send your heartbeat I'll go to the blue ocean floor
Where they find us no more
On that blue ocean floor

The violin sings its tale of woe
Back and forth, the horse hairs vocalize
Power undulating with each flair
Shrieking, wailing, *weeping

Waves crashed onto the deck and when I thought I couldn't be saved, you were the lighthouse at the end of a pier.

And this guy comes up to me
His face red like a rose on a thorn bush
Like all the colours of a royal flush
And he's peeling off those dollar bills
Slapping them down
One hundred, two hundred
And I can see those fighter planes
And I can see those fighter planes
Across the mud huts as the children sleep
Through the alleys of a quiet city street
We take the staircase to the first floor
We turn the key and slowly unlock the door
As a man breathes deep into saxophone
And through the walls we hear the city groan
Outside is America
Outside is America
America

Would it be impulsive to stick my hand into the flame and let your fire consume me?

Fingertips have memories
Mine can't forget you
The curve of your spine
The freckles across your nose
The veins that run along your arms
The firm muscles of your legs
The strength behind your hands
The love inside your soul

Behind your eyes, shooting stars
I would make a wish, but what I would wish for is already in my arms

"So you ARE having surgery this summer? Hmm... what if you die?"*

"Honestly? I wouldn't mind."*

I wouldn't.
Really.
In a way, I'd be relieved.
Better for a doctor to **** me than for me to **** myself, right?

I want
to go somewhere
that doesn't require
you
to check
and see if anyone is
watching us.
I want
to hold your hand
without you
looking out of the corner
of your eye,
making sure
no one is
throwing us
***** looks.
I want
to look at you
lovingly
without having to worry
about someone
catching on.
So let's escape,
run free,
get away
from this place.
You and I
against
the world.

I dreamt of sunshine
But was struck by the darkness I saw
Your empowering spirit was present
Encompassing my mind --
I searched for your body
And found you in a field
You were kissing the white flowers that bloomed  
In the rays of your inner light --
I froze in the spot I held
Deep in awe by the sight of you
You turned and caught my eyes with yours
Sunlight blinded me no more.

I broke my own heart --
I felt it quiver and shake with a fear unknown
Slowly, I pulled it apart
It bled and bled but I let it bleed
Pieces of you drained from under my skin
Drops of what we had landed on the bathroom floor
And I, I did nothing to stop it
No bandages, no sutures
It continued for days
And I, I did nothing to stop it

I didn't mean to let you see
I didn't mean to let the walls down
But once they're down, they're crumbling  
And there's no way I can rebuild them with this cement
You've seen too much
You've seen too much

"Every morning I wake up disappointed because I didn't die."

I see your smiling face and weep silently, all along wishing I could bring your son back to you.

You were a cold companion, with eyes of sleet and a heart of ice.
Woman, are you warm now?

Imagine if the world was devoid of all color.
Red wouldn't be the color of the apple's
   that grew on your grandparent's orchard.
Yellow wouldn't be the color of the sunset
   that sets over the ocean's edge.
Blue wouldn't be the color of the eyes
   that gleam and sparkle behind your lover's lashes.
Imagine if the world was devoid of all color
and nothing looked quite the same
as it did the hour, day, life before.

I see fire
burning in the eyes
of a gunman.
I see fire
burning in the smile
of a terrorist.
I see fire
burning in the fingertips
of a child molester.
I see fire
burning in the hearts
of the people who want to make a difference.

I've thought about it so many times
Whether I would whisper it in the morning
Or simply state it late at night
And I've thought about the look in your eyes
Maybe hatred or love  
Compassion or pity
Either way, I'd be terrified  
So say you'll still love me
Say you'll still want me to stay
Because I don't know how I'd handle
Being a stranger in this family

I have loved you too late,
Beauty so ancient and so new.
I have loved you too late.
You were with me but I was not with you.
I was away from you, running after the beauties which you have made.
The things which exist only through you kept me far away from you.
You have called, cried out and pierced my deafness.
You have enlightened me, and my blindness is
   banished by your brightness.
I have tasted you and I am hungry for you.
You have touched me and I am on fire with longing to embrace you.

what is it that you're so afraid of?

if it's your feelings, why?

if it's my feelings, why?
you know how I feel.

or do you?  

do you know what I would do for you?

I'd go to the ends of the earth for you.
I'd die protecting you.
I'd lay down my life for the sake of yours.

why?

because I love you.

No electrons were shared between -- we were a nonbonding pair.

Those cries will be with me for the rest of my life -- never resting, never fading, never ceasing their call to join them.

I await the day of clear prosperity
when the sun shines and the sky is blue.

I await the day of clear prosperity
when the guns cease and the peace overflows.

I await the day of clear propensity
when the child can thrive and the family lives.

I await the day of clear prosperity
when the hate blows away and the love conquers.

If you feel the urge to see me
Well you'd best pretend you're blind
I don't mean to be unkind
But all the reasons I left you behind
They should be clear now

sometimes I think my dad knows.
sees the lifelessness in my eyes,
sees the pain inside of me.

but how do I ask?

"daddy, do you see me?"

he'd probably say something like
"sure, possum, I see you.
you're beautiful and smarter than most people I know, even adults."

wrong.

he'd never understand the depth of the question.
too naive, too oblivious.
not like me at all.
so I wait.
one day he'll bring it up.
one day, I'll deny it again.
but this time,
to my own blood.

Like stars in the deepest night, we expand across the darkness and fear only the empty void in ourselves.

It has a way of either repressing or promoting sound.
It is easier to display your innermost thoughts in it.
But it can also lower your voice, giving you a place to hide.
You can be small or large, dead or alive.
Who would know?

You look for love where it is not wanted, hoping you can throw a dart and it will hit the bullseye

I thought we were done.
You had become a stranger, a figment of my imagination.
But now you're back and you're weakening me.
I can't even find the strength to smile.
My girlfriend asks me to talk, but I can't without bursting into tears.
And for what?
I'm worn from the strain of pretending to be alright.
Step back.
Go bother someone else (but I'd rather you didn't).
Leave me alone.

With disdain,
Leigh

I've been used and you knew all this time. God, I'll never know why you chose me for your crime... your foul, ****** crime.

"Mr.Lennon?"

five shots
ringing out into the New York City air
one whizzing past
four making contact
connecting with the skin and bone
that make up his frail shoulder

a scream
ringing out into the New York City air
the yell of a woman
the cry of a soon-to-be widow
piercing the ears of all
that see his thin body hit the pavement

a whisper
slipping out into the New York City air
calling out in desperation
trembling with pain
it is hardly recognizable
the voice that once called out for peace

"I'm shot"

Are there any words to say that will ever mean enough?
When the light runs from the day, will the darkness be too much?
Will I ever be enough?