I can still taste your breath mixed with mine

Is God who I turn to in order to feel safe?

For once, be your own crutch.

I'm trying so hard to be everything you need

I'm waiting for you to shatter
Because the glue isn't holding so well

I've got a feeling I can't prove

I find myself
wondering what
your hand
would feel like
in mine.

I know I can be rude and crass and my words are biting
But please understand that this is not easy for me
I don't know what to think of it

I'm beginnging to forget and I don't mourn the loss of these memories

When I think about where I was a year ago tonight, I can taste regret on my tongue

I make my hatred known so that no one trusts you the way I did

Reckless is fun when you're not the one that gets hurt

I'm tired of staying awake for nothing I'm tired of spending nights counting ******* sheep I'm tired of being tired I'm tired of living lies I'm tired of hiding how I feel I'm tired I'm tired I'm dead

I am prone to failure, a disappointment in the making

I hate my life
God, hold onto me

And for the first time in a long time, I can feel the sun on my skin.
It feels like happiness, it feels like no shame.

You held on too tightly, grasped at my final breath
But you didn't seem to notice, you never relented

Can all my ****-ups be avenged?

The only proof I have is a foggy memory and these words.
How could that save me? How could that end this?

Everything is quiet in the eye of the storm

I can't get inside if there's no soul to bare

"I fled before I was burned again."

Stop watching
Stop listening
I don't want you to see

Whatever the reason, you do it for me.

Forget me
I couldn't hate you anymore than I already do
You ******* up that relationship
Don't **** over this one because you're stuck on impressions

I never thought I'd become the victim of a victim.

When are you going to
stop talking to others
and just talk to me directly?

The abuser plays the victim...
But again,
What else is new?

Make love, break love
Beginning, end
Alpha, omega

Was it nothing more than noise inside my head?

You keep saying that you want me to be happy,
but I don't think you do.
Not at all.
So understand this --
I don't care if you don't want me to be happy,
because, ******, I'll do it anyway.
I will smile at "our" friends
and laugh at the ridiculous things they say.
I will find happiness in myself.

You want to be found but you're better left lost

I show all the signs
Why the hell didn't I see?

I don't know peace
There are too many things left unsaid

What I offered was never enough, so I stopped giving.

No parent should outlive their child
And I'm sorry I almost let you

You sit in your desks and joke and laugh
But **** isn't a joke
It's real and it's sick and it's twisted
So continue to laugh
Continue to find joy in your ignorance
I'll wait

It would be so easy to drive this car into a tree

I can't speak my own mind because everyone is too ******* worried that you'll slit your wrists

I'll spend the night ripping up bedsheets and punching holes in the walls -
maybe then the pain will subside

Put the pieces together - tell me, what remains here?

A sick joke?
You think I'm ******* joking?
No. I'm not going to let you do this to me.
It was real and you ******* know it.
You remember.
I know you do.
Don't you dare play the ******* victim *again.

I will never be who you wanted me to be

How do you see me now, now that I'm a little bit older?

"When does it end?"
"Hmm?"
"The pain of memories. When does it end?"
*"...It doesn't. It grips onto your wrist and for some ******* reason, it doesn't let go."

I'll spend the rest of my life blaming myself for something you did

You are everywhere
yet all at once,
gone in the mist.
Why do you hide?
The sun shines
it's brightest
in front if it's sister moon.
Let your light
seep through
the delicate cracks
in your skin.
Like stained glass,
rainbows transcend
and break barriers.
Your glory
makes itself known.
You show your heart
again and again.
I am blinded,
but do not
shield my eyes
for I would miss
your beauty.

Do you recognize your own vulnerability?

I'm tired of dealing with something so unimportant

"I think I love you. ****, I know it's way too early and things with Rachel didn't end well and you probably aren't ready to say anything along those lines, but... I had to say it or I would've exploded. You don't have to say it back, Leigh. I just had to, still have to, say it.... I love you I love you I love you."