Tell me exactly why the **** my love isn't enough for you.
******, haven't I given you everything?
How can you say that you give me everything,
indicating that I give you any less.
I've given you my heart and soul and body.
What more is there to give?
I am enough.
*Enoughenoughenough.

Soon they'll be able to reach inside of my ribcage and rip out what little is left

How many nights will I lay here, phone on mute and weeping, while you sleep on? When will I press that unmute button and let you into my head?

I ask you to stay on the phone with me
so you can protect me from the demons that hide beneath the sheets and in my head

I always stop myself when the thoughts arise
because I could never let my father
find me that way.
Surely, he would die as well.

I feel as if I've taken flight --
But is such happiness short lived?

This one is still attatched and scissors are at the ready, but I can't find it in me to cut it free

I spent weeks coughing up blood, but now it races through my veins

Please don't put me through this
Please don't look at me like you know

As if I didn't feel your eyes following my every move

Why didn't I have the courage to ever say no?

Maybe you became
the girl
who wears black
because your mother
told you
that no color
looked "good"
against your
pale skin
and
bleeding heart.

It breaks and it bleeds and I watch

You tried to guilt me into staying yours.
How did that work out?

I should be so lucky to die a painless death

If we are made to survive,
then why is surviving so difficult?

Give me all you've got

I never meant to cause you so much pain. I miss you. Please look at me.

I can't begin to explain
And you can't begin to understand

I wish you had the courage

I can't escape the past
And it makes me want to die

I have no voice if I don't speak my mind

"Why are you wearing shorts? It's cold out!"

Why?

I enjoy the way the chilled wind feels --
it makes me feel alive.
The way the goosebumps raise on my pale legs reminds me that I'm human...
Sometimes I just need a reminder.

Try to please too much and you'll lose who you really are

I haven't let this body crumble
And I fear that my next breath will be
Tinged with regret

Oh, you fool... you fool so blinded by your own mistakes. Does no one pity you now?

I want to scream and run and sleep and never wake up

I can still taste your breath mixed with mine

You can say that we're the same and that I don't understand and that it changes but we aren't, I do, and it doesn't

For once, be your own crutch.

I'm trying so hard to be everything you need

I'm waiting for you to shatter
Because the glue isn't holding so well

I've got a feeling I can't prove

I'm going to miss you
and that lipstick stain tattoo

I know I can be rude and crass and my words are biting
But please understand that this is not easy for me
I don't know what to think of it

I'm beginnging to forget and I don't mourn the loss of these memories

When I think about where I was a year ago tonight, I can taste regret on my tongue

I make my hatred known so that no one trusts you the way I did

I jump for joy at the sight of your smile
Oh, how I love that smile
That ray of sunshine
That expression of glee

And for the first time in a long time, I can feel the sun on my skin.
It feels like happiness, it feels like no shame.

You held on too tightly, grasped at my final breath
But you didn't seem to notice, you never relented

I would **** for you
but you wouldn't lift a finger
for me

I wish I was enough I wish I was enough I wish I was enough I wish I was enough I wish I was enough I wish I was enough I wish I was enough I wish I was enough

I want out of this town and this parish and this state and hell, even this ******* country. Maybe then I'll be far enough from you

Don't you dare say I didn't try.
You have no idea how hard I tried.
I tried
I tried
I tried

You sound like rain in the summertime

I've stopped making excuses for your actions
I shouldn't have made any in the first place

I don't think you realize the kind of pain you caused. You ****** up, again and again and again. Now I'm just waiting for one of your "friends" to lose their head. Soon enough.