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179 · Apr 2019
Vanity's Ghost
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2019
The narcissism
  of small differences...

The egos crown
  of thorns

The sharper each
  individual barb

The more frequently
  it’s worn

A grand
  pontification

Whose wind
  blows just one way

Into the face of
  vanity’s ghost

In jealous
  —disarray

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2019)
179 · Jul 2022
The Last Turnstile
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2022
Time regresses
images blur,
memories detained

Tokens injected
into the madness
—forever to remain

(Dreamsleep: June, 2022)
179 · Jun 2022
Broken
Kurt Philip Behm Jun 2022
Gone like September
from the wind
Gone like the Robin
from its wing
Gone like a child
from its laughter
Gone like the memory
of Spring

Gone like the Priest
behind his vestments
Gone like the hours
from the day
Gone like the waves
atop the ocean
Gone like the months
that lead to May

Gone are the reasons
from excuses
Gone are the moments
trapped in time
Gone is today
from tomorrow
Gone is the magic
left behind

Gone are the memories
from recollection
Gone the beginnings
from the ends
Gone every joy
from every sorrow
Gone what you broke
—but couldn’t bend

(Dreamsleep: June, 2022)
179 · May 2019
Prose
Kurt Philip Behm May 2019
A metrical escape valve,
  letters in the maelstrom

Lightning on the horizon,
  second child of the Gods

Sacrificial waterfall,
  its current overflowing

A literal dilation
—of the verbal supreme

(Villanova Pennsylvania: September, 2016)
179 · Apr 18
Pro Tem
When I was
a young man
I wrote as
a young man

Needing music
and art
to deal
with the times

But now
as an old man
my heart
chases neither

While dwelling
inside
what this moment
— has found

(The New Room: April, 2025)
179 · Apr 14
Mush
Neuroscience
takes a world class meal
grinds it into bits
and tries to convince us
— its taste has improved

(Villanova University: April, 2025)
178 · Dec 2018
Seraph's Delight
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2018
There’s a voice deep inside me
  still trying to get out

Ignoring my pleadings,
  it screams and it shouts

Its call is the loudest
  on those darkest of nights

When my mind seeks new refuge
  from Seraph’s delight

I toss and I turn,
  but it speaks louder still

As its words start to age
  from new vision distilled

No barter or denial
  will turn back its call

The Muse is on fire
  —my pen not to stall

(Villanova Pennsylvania: March, 2015)
178 · Apr 2017
Swan Song
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2017
Apollo now guards
   my Prose and my Verse

His Swan sings at last,
—the Raven in search

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2017)
178 · Aug 2022
Plus Minus
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2022
Can nothingness exist
could existence be as nothing

Can something break from everything
—subtraction zero sum

(Villanova University: August, 2022)
178 · Dec 2021
14 Peaks
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2021
From the beginning
we shake hands with death
At first as a stranger
when caught in its net

And last as a friend
bearing gifts from beyond
A bridge for one crossing
past futures begone

While leaving behind
the measure of fate
Transcending tomorrow
  we unlock its gate

What’s last becomes first
closing open interred
a singular journey
—not shaken but stirred

(Watching 14 Peaks: December, 2021)
178 · Aug 2016
The Choice
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2016
Fame is
Contingent
On
One of two
Possibilities

Complete
Rebellion
Or
Absolute
Capitulation

(Villanova Pennsylvania: August, 2016)
177 · Aug 2019
All Meaning Contained
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2019
The world is my mentor,
eternity my judge

Each choice confirmation,
the future ungloved

Time no longer master,
to deceive or profane

All life in this moment
—its meaning contained

(Villanova Pennsylvania: March, 2017)
177 · Jan 2019
Unrhymed
Kurt Philip Behm Jan 2019
You’re interested in the idea
  of writing
   —I just want to write

You’re interested in the meaning
  of it all
   —the darkness and the light

You’re interested in the idea
  of writing
   —I don’t have the time

You’re interested in questions
  with answers
   —those one’s I’ll never rhyme

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2015)
177 · May 2017
Its Present Reclaimed
Kurt Philip Behm May 2017
My soul ancient,
  but my spirit new

The past a contrivance,
  the future untrue

My thoughts reborn,
  all feelings renamed

To christen this moment,
—its present reclaimed

(Villanova Pennsylvania: May, 2017)
177 · Jul 2017
My Spirit Unbound
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2017
Death once so foreign,
  calls like a friend

Voice ever gentle,
  heard at the end

Death once a nightmare,
  dreams to impound

Now comes to free
—my spirit unbound

(Villanova Pennsylvania: July, 2017)
177 · Apr 2024
Its Bonding Fear
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2024
Everest
makes brothers
of the fiercest  
enemies
of the most
distant strangers
of the worst
ill intended
of the lost
— and the found

(Kathmandu: May, 1982)
177 · Apr 2019
One Final Bill
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2019
Sleeping through forgiveness...
  I’m re-invoiced by the pain

The nightmare real, escape undone,  
  the reasons all to blame

Trapped within my memory,
  each image haunts and preys

Excuses gone as judgment reigns
  —one final bill to pay

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2019)
177 · Apr 2017
The Circle Still Unbroken
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2017
Never sure of what I started,
  I wrote my final words

And found a stream to fill the well,
  with verses left unheard

My last line most important,
  leading back toward the first

The circle still unbroken,
—and all doubt now quenched of thirst

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2017)
177 · Oct 2023
But For One ...
Kurt Philip Behm Oct 2023
Do you write to a standard
that isn’t your own
Do you pledge your allegiance
to a dilettante throne

Do you shut out your Muse
when her words pierce the skin
Do you think before feeling
looking out never in

Is your nighttime belabored
with dreams from the past
Is the daylight a hunter
your guilt running fast

Is the one choice that’s left you
the one you can’t make
Is the courage required
—your one failing grace

(Dreamsleep: October, 2023)
Kurt Philip Behm May 2024
Day #7: Vernal to Cortez

The next morning, I was on Rt #40 and headed from Vernal Utah to Dinosaur Colorado. I wished that I had had the time to go into the dinosaur museum again.  When I was last there, over fifteen years ago, they had a fossilized dinosaur, and it was almost half uncovered from the side of the cliff where it was buried.  They had built the museum around this discovery, and its walls connected right to the cliff on both sides of the dig.  I made a bet with myself as I passed by that they had entirely uncovered it by now.  It was hard to believe in this dry arid climate that the greatest creatures to ever walk the earth once roamed here.

This Week Was Not About Museums Or Sideshows, It Was About The ‘Ride’

At Dinosaur, I took Rt. #64 East toward Rangely where I gassed up and connected with Rt. #139. I then entered the great flat regions of Western Colorado where the only towns were Loma and Fruita with Grand Junction sitting just off the interstate twelve miles farther to the East.  

Just before Fruita, I passed the old farming community of Loma Colorado. Loma sat just off interstate Rt.#70 and looked like another one of those towns that time had forgotten.  I stopped to photograph the old two-story Loma School that sat in the weeds 100 yards off the road.  As I approached the front entrance, I could feel the excitement of the students who had attended there reverberate around me. I thought I heard their laughter, as I pushed on the double latch of the large front entry door.  Sadly, it was locked. As I looked in through its glass panels, I thought I saw a figure carrying books and making a left turn into one of the deserted classrooms — or were they deserted.  

I have learned to no longer question what I see but to be thankful for the gift of being able to see at all.  While closed, I was gratified that the county had not torn the old building down and had allowed it to stand. It was a living testament to all that had happened there and to what, in a passing visitors imagination, just might happen again.  I smiled realizing that I would soon be like that old building, a memory, whose retelling would overshadow any new thing that I might become.

There were two deserted schools, that sat dormant, yet vibrant, along the pathway of my discovery this week.  I had put my hands firmly on the front doors of both hoping that they would empty into me all the mystery hidden within their corridors and halls that they had been previously unwilling to share. Forever, they would remain unsettled in my thoughts because of what they once were and even more for the stories they might tell.

At Fruita, I got on the Interstate (Rt #70 East) and missed my exit for Rt.#141 South which would have taken me across the Uncompahgre Plateau.  I went twenty miles too far to the East before turning around and on the reverse trip made the same mistake again.  The exit for Rt.#141 was not marked, so I got off and followed the signs for Rt.#50 and stopped at the first gas station for better directions.  The clerk behind the desk smiled at me as I asked for her help.  She said, “Not so easy to find Rt #141, is it?” Many things in the West were not easy to find, but the ones worth keeping had been worth looking for.

After a series of three right turns, I arrived in the tiny town of Whitewater Colorado and saw the sign for Rt.#141.  I didn’t refuel back at the gas station — I had simply forgotten. The next town on Rt.#141 (Gateway Colorado), was still 43 miles further West.  I knew I could make it with what I had left in my tank but would Gateway have fuel?  If not, I would become the remote victim of an unknown fate caused by an unfortunate memory lapse.  

If the first twenty miles of this trip hadn’t been mired in road construction, the remote beauty of the canyons, and the road they stood as bookends against, were worth any chance that I might run out of gas. The manual said that the Goldwing could go over two hundred miles before running out of gas. Today would test both the veracity of that statement and my belief that the road was always there to save you when you needed it most.  

Road construction in this part of the West meant that two lanes had been reduced to one totally stopping the traffic in one of the lanes. A long line of idling vehicles waited for the pilot car to come from the other direction, turn around, and then take them through the construction zone to where the second lane opened again. Once there, the pilot car positioned itself at the head of the opposing line of stopped vehicles wanting to go the other way. It slowly began the whole process all over again going back in the direction from where it had started.

There’s an old Western joke about the West having four-seasons —Fall, Winter, Spring, and Road Construction. If you’ve traveled west of the Mississippi between Memorial Day and September, you undoubtedly have your own stories to tell about waiting in line.

If you’ve been lucky, you didn’t have to wait more than twenty or thirty minutes for the pilot car to return.  If not lucky, you could’ve waited forty-five minutes or more.  On this day, the thermometer on the bike read 103,’ so I turned off the motor, dropped the kickstand down and got off. I removed my jacket and, within sight of the bike, went for a short walk.

  The Heat Was Coming Off The ‘Road’ In Waves And Made    Standing On Its Surface Both Uncomfortable And Severe

As I anticipated, in exactly twenty minutes the pilot car emerged from around the mountain in front of me. Within three minutes more, it had turned around, positioned itself in front of the line where I was number five and, with the flagman waving back and forth in our direction, had us on our way.  It looked like it was going to be a slow dusty ride through the Grand Mesa National Forest toward Gateway for another ten miles.  

Slow and dusty yes, but it was also gorgeous in a way that only a San Juan Mountain Road knew how to be.  With all the temporary unpleasantness from the heat and the dust, I wouldn’t have changed a thing.  This was what real travel was all about. I had learned its true meaning on the many Wyoming and Montana back roads of my youth — and on a much smaller motorcycle — over thirty years ago.

It’s What You Can’t Control That Allows For The Possibility Of Greatest Change

Casting my fate again to the spirits of the road, I passed the four slower cars in front of me and was again by myself.  The awe-inspiring mountain’s drifted lower into canyons of incredible beauty.  The descent was more than just a change in elevation.  I was being passed off from one of nature’s power sources to the other. As the mountains delivered their tenant son to the canyons in waiting, the road, once again, proved to be smarter than the plans I had made to deal with it.

               The ‘Road’ Had Once Again Proved Smarter …

Typical of many small western towns, the only gas station in Gateway had a sign on the front door that read … ‘Back In 30 Minutes.’ The two pumps did not accept credit cards, so the decision was to either wait for the station manager to return or to continue south toward Nucla, and if I had no luck there then Naturita. “One of them surely had gas” I said to myself, and with still an eighth of a tank left, I decided I would rather take the risk than wait, as daylight was burning.  Betting on the uncertainty of the future was different than dealing with the uncertainty of the here and now.  One was filled with the promise of good intention, while the other only underscored what you had learned to fear.

                                I Decided To Move On

Just outside of Gateway, and like a mirage in the desert, I saw a large resort a half-mile ahead on my right. As I got closer, I realized it was no mirage at all as the sign read ‘Welcome To The Gateway Canyons Resort.’ Nothing could have stood in greater contrast to the things I had seen in the last fifty miles.  This resort looked like it should have been in Palm Springs or Sedona.  It was built totally out of red desert stucco with three upscale restaurants, a health club, and an in-house museum.  

What I cared about most was did they have gas?  Sitting right in front of their General Store were two large concrete islands with pumps on both sides.  It was a welcome sight regardless of price, $4.99 for regular, which was more than a dollar a gallon higher than I had paid anywhere else.

                                  Any Port In A Storm

After filling the Goldwing’s tank, I walked inside the General Store to get something to drink.  The manager was standing by the cash register and talking to a clerk.  She looked at me and smiled as she said: “So where are you headed?”  When I told her the Grand Canyon, and then eventually back to Las Vegas she replied: “Hey, tell all your Motorcycle friends about us, we love to service the Bike trade.”  

I told her I was a writer and would in fact be doing a story about my ride. But based on her overly inflated prices I would have to recommend filling up in either Whitewater or Naturita.  She grimaced slightly and said something about business in this remote region dictating the price.  I returned her smile as I wished her a good day. Joni’s immortal words about “repaving paradise and putting up a parking lot” rang in my ears, as I walked back outside and restarted the bike.

Sometimes We Had To Cross The line To Know What The Line Meant

This place had been recently built by John Hendricks the founder of The Discovery Channel.  He and his family discovered this valley on a vacation trip in 1995.  Instead of becoming part of the surroundings, he decided to turn his vision of the valley into an extension of what he already knew.  It was a shame really because a museum with classic Duesenberg Cars was as out of place in this remote canyon as any notion that you could then merchandise and control it to suit your own ends.

I couldn’t leave fast enough! Without even one look back through my rearview mirrors, I rounded the bend to the right that took me away from this place.  Once out of sight of the resort, I was deep in ****** canyonland again where only the hawk and the coyote affirmed my existence. I wondered … why do we do many of the things that we do? At the same time, I was grateful, as I looked up and offered a silent thank you for the gas.

Asking ‘Why’ Throws My Spirit Into Reverse Gear, And I Know Better …  

Just past Naturita, I made a right turn on Rt.#141 and headed south toward Dove Creek.  It was farther than it appeared on the map, and it was past 7:30 in the evening when I arrived where Rt.#141 dead-ended into Rt.#491.  I took the left turn toward ****** where I continued south toward the 4-Corners town of Cortez Colorado.  This time life balanced. The trip to Cortez from Dove Creek which looked at least as long, or longer, than the one I had just traveled, was only 36 more miles — and I could stop for the night.

I raced toward the 4-Corners as the sun disappeared behind the Canyons Of The Ancients. I averaged over 85 MPH again alone on the road.  My only fear was that a deer or coyote might come out of the shadows, but I traveled secure inside my vision that on two-wheels my life would never end. I knew my life would never end that way, but a serious injury was something to be avoided.  

The trip to Cortez was over in a flash, and in less than twenty minutes I saw billboards and signs that pointed to a life outside of myself lining both sides of the road.  As I pulled into the Budget Inn, the sign that directed you toward Rt. #160 west and the Grand Canyon was right in front of the motel. There were only two other cars sitting in the parking lot with a lone Harley-Davidson Road King parked in front of a room at the extreme far end.

The desk clerk told me that he was originally from Iran but had been raised in the Los Angeles area.  He had a small Chihuahua named Buddy who would perform tricks if offered a reward.  I took a small milk bone out of the box on the counter and asked Buddy if he’d like to go for a ride.  He barked loudly, as he spun and pirouetted in the middle of the lobby. I thought about my own dog Colby, who I missed terribly, waiting faithfully for me on our favorite chair back home. As I walked across the parking lot to my room, Buddy had been a proper and fitting end to a ride that left nothing more to be desired.

I splashed water on my face, left my helmet in the room, and rode back into Cortez. All I wanted now was some good food and a beer.  Lit up in all its glory, the Main Street Brewery sat in the middle of town, and its magnetic charm did everything but physically pull me inside.  It was an easy choice and one of those things that you just know, as I parked the bike against the sidewalk and walked inside.

The ribs and cole-slaw were as delicious as the waitress was delightful. It disturbed me though when I asked her about road conditions on the way to The Canyon, and she gave me that familiar blank stare.  “You know, I’ve lived up and down these San Juan’s all my life, and I’ve still never been down there.”  My heart filled with sadness as I said: “It’s only three hours away and the single greatest sight on earth that you will ever see.”

She looked at me vacuously, as she cleared my table, and promised she’d have to get down there one of these days if time and money ever permitted.  Amazing, I thought to myself! Here I was, a guy from Pennsylvania, who had visited the Canyon over thirty times, and this local person, living less than three hours away had not seen it — not even once. I cried inside myself for what she would probably never know as I got up to leave.

             Crying For What She Would Never Know …

As I turned around to take one last look at the historic bar, I was reminded that some things in life served as stepping-stones, or stairways, to all that was greater. I was in one of those places again tonight. The people who served in roadside towns like this saw the comings and goings, but never the reasons why. They were spared from feeling that outside their immediate preoccupation there could ever be anything more.  I needed to be thankful to them for having provided sustenance and shelter along my travels, but my sadness for the things that they would never see, which were many times just over the next hill, overrode any gratefulness I would feel in my heart.

         The Blessed Among Us Are The Blessed Indeed!
177 · Aug 2018
Prisoner Of Disguise
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2018
The words flock together
  and stretch on the frame

Their meaning runs over
  still wet from the pain

The canvas is porous
  the easel maligned

The curtains blow outward
  faces calling in mime

The streets all a-chatter,
   it was Paris in spring

And striving to look busy
  the most important of things

Looking back at my window
  above the tannery so high

A shadow stares back
  —and I flee in disguise

(Villanova Pennsylvania: June, 2016)
177 · Jan 17
Digging For Gold
When you have money
the world stops to listen
The content no matter
gratuity bound

The dollars indulgent
as charlatans glisten
Self-interest the mantra
— with greed to compound

(Septa R5 Train: January, 2025)
177 · Feb 10
Hades Revisited
Having less
suffering more
Doors were slamming
wolf at the door

Arriving first
finishing last
Spiraling downward
— perdition recast  

(The New Room: February, 2025)
177 · Dec 2023
Pious Deception
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2023
Religion
is the death of God
conscripting Him away

Cloaked in false
propriety
enlightenment at bay

Religion
is the death of God
scriptures to mislead

All piety
a false disguise
worshipping the creed

Religion
is the death of God
whose armies rage and burn

Killing
in the name of One
—whose love they claim to yearn

(The New Room: December, 2023)
176 · Mar 2023
Approaching Storm #5
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2023
The bats in the tower
rats in the barn
Night befits cowards  
who run from the storm

(Poem To End Chapter 48: March, 2023)
176 · Jun 5
Infinity Squared
Too much
of too much
— is never enough

(Dreamsleep: June, 2025)
176 · Jan 15
In Memory Of Rod Serling
Crossing over
into the realm
of non-description
reference and paradigm
sleep alone

Borders falling inward
upon themselves
leaving only what
the mind forgoes
—and the soul forbids

(The New Room: 1-15-2025)
176 · Jul 2019
One Candle Burns
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2019
By facing death,
we embrace life more

We see the limits,
each minute core

Seen as a friend,
all life betroths

Each moment treasured,
our loved ones close

And when we face
that final day

A voice more gentle,
bids us sway

Into the dark,
one candle burns

Death’s welcome light
—for our return

(Villanova Pennsylvania: July, 2019)
176 · Apr 2019
Truth Bleeding Free
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2019
Complex messages
  need a simple structure

Otherwise,
  a reader is lost

The shorter the word,
  the greater the meaning

Its judgment by value,
  never by cost

    ‘The straighter the blade,
      the sharper the edge

    ‘The sharper the edge,
      the deeper the cut

    ‘The deeper the cut,
      the more fatal the wound

    ‘Victory certain
      —the truth bleeding free’

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2019)
176 · Mar 2021
William Tell Remembered
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2021
A flash of light,
a cloud of dust,
a joyous moment
beneath the rust

A hearty vision
with silver streaks,
unmasking boyhood
—in memories deep

(Garrett Hill Pennsylvania: March, 2021)
176 · May 19
When The Lights Go Down
In their formative
moments
artists live alone
Sharing themselves
only when
the pain has dulled

In corners
of dark musings  
their spirit’s hide
Calling out  
whenever the lights go down
— and the rush is gone

(The New Room: May, 2025)
176 · Apr 2019
Original Sin
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2019
A battalion of feeling,
  a dead soldier's thoughts

A war of contrition,
  last battle not fought

Distant artillery,
   final shot from within

Its smoke covering over
—the most original sin

(Villanova Pennsylvania: July, 2016)
176 · Dec 2016
When It's Cold
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2016
I want to die
  in the winter,
  —when it’s cold

With the reality
  of being alive, stronger,
  —than all fantasy of being

Where branches
  break crisply,
  —like a soul in decision

And the wind carrying away
  on its distance,
  —all strength and pain

I want to die
  in the winter,
—when its cold

(Chicago Illinois: July, 1977)
Kurt Philip Behm May 2024
There was a loud KNOCK on the rectory’s back door.

Father Frank Kerin had been sitting at the rectory’s kitchen table reading the newspaper.  He was a young priest having just finished seminary only last June.  It was a late August Sunday afternoon, and he had just come back from visiting the sick at the local hospital. He was totally engrossed in the sports section of the paper when he heard it again.

This time the knocking was louder and more persistent. The housekeeper did not work Sundays, and Father Frank was alone in the big house.

He got up and walked through the kitchen to the enclosed back porch where the door was located.  Looking through the venetian blinds he could see that the person knocking was a woman.  As he opened the outer door, he could also see that she was quite large, appeared to be in her mid-sixties, and she was holding something rolled up in her right hand.  She had a menacing look on her face and Father Frank thought to himself … I hope she doesn’t hit me with that.

Father Frank opened the screen door and greeted the woman. She said: “My name is Florence Atterbury and I’m looking for Father Greenlee.”  Father Frank then introduced himself: “Hello Madam, my name is Father Frank Kerin and I’m new to the parish. I just graduated from Seminary in Cincinnati Ohio and have only been in Rosemont (Pa.) for a few short weeks. Father Greenlee is out for the day, is there anything I can help you with?”

The woman stood in the doorway for a long silent moment
looking down at the floor.  When she finally did look up at Father Frank, she said: “Father, I think I’d like to sit down.”  Father Frank escorted the woman back into the kitchen and sat her down at the table.  He then asked her if she would like something to drink.  Mrs. Atterbury said: “No thank you” and laid the newspaper she was carrying out on the kitchen table.

It was opened to section C, and the lead article was about the abuses of drinking and smoking in America.  The editor was linking both with many of the maladies that plagued our country and was trying to connect the effects of drinking and smoking to lives of total ruin and debauchery.  There were pictures in the article of men in Philadelphia’s bowery, and women in a local nightclub, with cigarettes between their fingers and a cocktail in their other hand.

The caption underneath said, ‘The Beginnings Of A Dead End Life.’

Mrs. Atterbury said she was livid and upset over the fundraiser that the church had just held in the school auditorium. Beer and wine had been served, and men — and some women —were seen smoking outside the front doors where the event was taking place.  She also said, that “anyone with half a brain knows that once you start smoking it leads to alcohol and then most likely to harder drugs and possibly even to a life of crime.  Your life is ultimately ruined and beyond saving and you are eventually condemned to a life outside the Church.”

The good woman went on for over ninety minutes lamenting the ramifications that a life involving tobacco and alcohol would entail.  She also said that she was “going to put her foot down with Father Greenlee about future events at the parish and that no alcohol should ever be served.”  When Father Frank explained to Mrs. Atterbury that there was wine at the Last Supper, and it was turned into the blood of Christ, she just said: “Father, really, that was just for God himself and the Apostles.  You don’t really think that applies to the rest of us, do you?”  Father Frank took one more shot at explaining to her the story of the Wedding Feast Of Cana, but again, it fell on deaf ears.

Mrs. Atterbury finally got up and as she left she pointed her big index finger right at the middle of Father Frank’s chest.

“Father, you mind my words, this smoking and drinking are going to undo all the good work my women’s auxiliary has done for the past twenty years. If it continues to go unchecked, it will spread through our elementary school and ruin every child in it.  It only takes one bad apple you know …”

As Mrs. Atterbury walked out the back door, Father Frank thanked her for coming.  He then walked slowly back into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator door.  After taking out a bottle of Budweiser he sat down, lit up a Chesterfield, and leaned back in his chair.  He just couldn’t help but wonder …
                              
                   What Was Hell Going To Be Like?
176 · Nov 2016
Darkness And Light
Kurt Philip Behm Nov 2016
Like a Buddhist mantra,
  its chord transcends worry and strife

In the song of Gautama,
  souls flee the delusions of life

Its highest form, charming saints
  and sinners alike

Beyond distraction and pain,
—playing through both darkness and light

(Villanova Pennsylvania: October, 2016)
176 · May 2019
The Only Thing We Trust
Kurt Philip Behm May 2019
Are space and time much too similar,
  and maybe in the end exactly the same

Our angle of perception the only difference,
  keeping them separate and dually named
  
If they are distinct where is their departure,
  does its sensing begin and end with us

Or is all we see just darker matter,
  and in verse—the only thing we trust

(Wayne Pennsylvania: May, 2019)
176 · Oct 2016
The Only Time
Kurt Philip Behm Oct 2016
The only time we escape the jungle,
—is in self-delusion

(Villanova Pennsylvania)
175 · Oct 2022
Last Call
Kurt Philip Behm Oct 2022
My shadow was crying out to me
beyond all darkness and light
Saying that life is a trap in reverse
caught between wrong and right

Dichotomy claims what polarity feigns
academics locking the gate
Where shadows crawl under what locks in our fear
—abandoning us to fate

(Dreamsleep: Ocxtober, 2022)
175 · May 2017
The Last Swan
Kurt Philip Behm May 2017
The sun in arrears,
  its moon in default

With stars in foreclosure,
  the cosmos to halt

All time repossessed,
  the Creator has gone

Awaiting implosion,
—that last singing swan

(Villanova Pennsylvania: May, 2017)
175 · Mar 2022
Drowning In Gray
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2022
Rivers of compromise,
canyons of denial
flooding uncertainty
—mile by mile

(Dreamsleep: March, 2022)
175 · Apr 2017
The Gray Dawn
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2017
The gray dawn slaughters
   the promise of spring,
   —with a desperate last goodbye

Its poisonous haze mocks
  a sky forsaken,
  —with the sun again denied

Its blanket then lowers
   in a shroud of judgment,
  —its verdict darkly stained

To deluge its exit
  in torrents of thunder,
  —as the light reflects in vain

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2017)
175 · May 2019
All Time Is Now
Kurt Philip Behm May 2019
Release the hasp
Pull back the mask
The key has turned
Your face to learn

Remove the lid
Reach down amid
What’s hidden deep
—as secrets sleep

Confront the lie
The souls new stye
Wash clean the pain
With loves refrain

Commit your faith
In God remake
The time is now
—all time is now

(Villanova Pennsylvania: July, 2016)
      From 'The Book Of Prayers'
175 · Feb 2024
Black Mold
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2024
Intellectual larceny
the academic elite
Immune from indictment
inured and effete
They swing their false knowledge
like weapons to maim
The truth left in ashes
— their lies to inflame

(Septa R5: February, 2024)
174 · Jul 2017
Hope Never Rests
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2017
While looking for a bridge
  to cross over tonight

Connecting time honored values
  to internet blight

I thought and I pondered,
  as I surfed on the net

But the things that it offers
  are sadly abject

Where is the laughter
  the thrill of the chase

Through forest and meadow
  with all of your mates

Gone is the connection
  looking eye into eye

Replaced now with distance
  and its virtual lie

The children are programmed
  their bits and their bytes

With screens the new playgrounds
  their couches—their life

Where all of this leads,
  I’m fearful to know

As I look for that bridge
  where our youth can still go

To return from the chaos
  to a welcoming time

Where friendships were made
  in a tree you just climbed

But the harder I search
  the dimmer it gets

Quicksand reinvented
  their souls it collects

Though cards stack against me,
  I remain on my quest

The young are still worth it
 —and hope never rests

(Villanova Pennsylvania: July, 2017)
174 · Dec 2018
Forever Marked
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2018
Waiting to seize a moment
  I knew would never come

The visions passed like storm clouds
  deception on the run

The light was all around me
  as I stood there in the dark

The shadows of misguided fear
  —my path forever marked

(Villanova Pennsylvania: December, 2018)
174 · Feb 2020
Time's Revenge
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2020
In its grip,
each bone to chafe and grind

All joints,
regifted vestibules of pain

Motion stalls,
as swelling wraps each limb

Sleep the angry victim
—time’s revenge

(Villanova Pennsylvania: February, 2020)
174 · Feb 2017
Forever Beguiled
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2017
The voice of a Poet,
  the breath of a child

The curse of the Devil,
—forever beguiled

(Villanova Pennsylvania: February, 2017)
174 · Aug 2018
The Repose Of Angels
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2018
Switching to off,
  the channel went dead

The music silent
  inside my head

The repose of angels
  dreams of a child

Respite from salvation
  —just for awhile

(Villanova Pennsylvania: June, 2016)
174 · Feb 2017
Your Spirit Freed Within
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2017
Do you remember what you’ve written,
  can you elicit every thought

Does it stay within your memory,
  or escape to others sought

Is it linear or transcendent,
  on the page or in the wind

Can you still retain the title,
—to what your spirit freed within

(Villanova Pennsylvania: February, 2017)
174 · Dec 2021
More Precious Than Gold
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2021
The script of experience,
endorsing our wills
banking our choices,
paying our bills

Crediting our memory
for what lies ahead
debentures of faith
the black and the red

A ledger retallied,
both columns in sync
the plus and the minus,
indelible ink

Its summary left open,
all errors erased
with loans to push forward
—new funding in place

(Rosemont College: December, 2021)
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